Anyone wish you had never existed?

[Cosmiq]

Yep, my mom told me I was an accident when I was like 9 or so. Like right around her and my dad split she slept with her friend who was married but had a sick wife, he even gave her money to abort me. She never said what she did with the money, but knowing her life around that time and the fact that I'm a runt compared to my sibling she prob did drugs.
Anyways, she said when my dad, who's my older brother and sister's actual bio dad found out he was excited to claim me. It was around then that it all started making sense of why I felt like I didn't belong here at all. Before I thought maybe I just didn't belong with people and was supposed to be like Mowgli from the jungle book lol

 

[Deleted member 1496]

Yeah. My parents kept popping out kids until they had a son. To (1) take care of them when they get older and (2) carry on the family name. They should've given me a number instead of a name.

 

[I’mDone]

Yes. I wish I'd never existed.

Yeah. My parents kept popping out kids until they had a son. To (1) take care of them when they get older and (2) carry on the family name. They should've given me a number instead of a name.

Same. Plus a couple of other ego-driven reasons. It's shit.

 

[TheSoulless]

All the time. Even if I became happy, I would wish for it.

 

[Broken Chimera]

I wish that everyday.

 

[RainAndSadness]

Oh please. I wish... i wish this was the case. My parents fucked up really badly when they gave birth to me. A life filled with mental agony and pain. They just pooped me into this cruel, cold world and really, they didn't care at all. It's so disappointing. Like, you have one single chance at life and it's this? Really? Oh come on, you have to be kidding me... I had to be trans. I had to be mentally fragile and weak, resulting in chronic depression and bpd. I had to be bullied, sure why not? I had to end up as a complete failure, unable to work, doomed to live in poverty? And... out of all the parents in this world, them? Parents that neglected me during my entire childhood, that didn't care about me one single bit, which built the framework for all my mental suffering in the first place? So many bad lucks in a row. But hey, at least I'm somewhat physically healthy for the moment. Yay...

I wish I wasn't born, it removes the dilemma of being alive. But now I am a part of this world, alive, concious, being able to understand life and death... and, as a result, stuck, because I don't want to continue this miserable life but I also can't leave yet, thanks to my survival instinct.
This is such a torture. I wish I wasn't born. I don't know why it happened but this is a huge waste. My whole existence was just pathethic. Apparently I wasn't even planned so my parents didn't even have the audacity to abort me. At least they could have give me the dignity of a quick death, without all this survival instinct bullshit that prolongs my suffering. Because now it's too late. I'm in this prison, still looking for an exit. I have all the tools, it's just about the right execution. I have to somehow defeat this survival instinct. It's like going against your most fundamental programming that exists out there in nature and it keeps me alive, against my will, even after 2 years of possessing N. That's just cruel. But other people did it before, many people in this forum did, so I can do it too.

 

[Deleted member 10475]

I don't matter to anyone, so yeah. Me being here wouldn't make any difference, really wish I wasn't born.

 

[Cloudy]

I think about it every single day

 

[Final Escape]

Like, every day. Always wonder why someone with multiple mental disorders and a shitty alcoholic thought it was a good idea to procreate lol

Oh trust me they were only concerned with getting that nut. They weren't thinking that far ahead lol! U just happened to be the innocent sperm egg combo that resulted.

 

[Lost]

Yes, my grandma wanted my mom to abort me. Then I came premature. Never should had been here the first place.

 

[WOODESITY]

Yeah, i thought about it many times, for me it feels much better to never have existed in first place. I've had contemplated idea of not existing many times, it always sounds and seems better than being here in life dealing with life itself

 

[Blue Portal]

Like there was nothing to you ever? Your very existence had never occurred, not that the world would be better off without you but that no part of you ever existed at all. Not born, not.lived, not smiled, not loved yourself or hated yourself, not any part of you ever became. You never got here, no one ever knew you and no one has to worry about you being gone?

Yes sometimes I wish I never existed. But I'm managing ok as of now.

 

[NotMuchLongerPlease]

Given the audience I would say most people here will agree, including myself lol

 

[UncontrollableEvil]

One of my favorite lines in queens bohemian rhapsody is "I don't want to die, though sometimes wish I'd never been born at all" it came on the radio recently and I couldn't help but relate to it. Really felt it was about suicide but that's the good thing about music, open to interpretation

 

[Seagirl]

I was born three months premature and I swear I shouldn't have lived

I agree. I was a very difficult birth, wld have died without intervention. Its was natures way of getting rid of us.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Absolutely. If i never existed a lot of people would be happier. It's annoying because my mom always says that my birth was a miracle, and that God has a great purpose for me. It puts a lot of pressure on me to..well, not have anxiety and depression. I dunno. That may not have been related but I needed to say it

 

[Arisa]

Apparently i was born very premature and almost died as a baby. I shouldn't have lived at all.

 

[mathieu]

Of course!

 

[artificialpasta]

I sympathize with anti-natalism but I'm grateful to have experienced existence, to think and feel in an otherwise unconscious universe. However that doesn't mean I want it for any longer.

 

[Exitforme]

I resent my parents very bitterly for their callous decision bring me into this sick world

 

[beyond_aquila_rift]

I also wish I had never been born. Pretty much every second of every day...

 

[soundsofsilence]

I wish it all the time.
In my opinion, and experience, It is a terrible deal being born.

 

[Justinian]

I resent my parents very bitterly for their callous decision bring me into this sick world

If you think about it, there is no reason give birth an existence that isn't selfish and irrational.

 

[Sweet Release]

My life was of absolutely no consequence so yeah it might as well have never happened.

 

[RileyTanaka]

Yes - most certainly my nonexistence would have prevented a lot of pain for everyone. Conversely, me being here has done nothing but drain people's resources and left a trail of destruction.

 

[Conker]

Oh please. I wish... i wish this was the case. My parents fucked up really badly when they gave birth to me. A life filled with mental agony and pain. They just pooped me into this cruel, cold world and really, they didn't care at all. It's so disappointing. Like, you have one single chance at life and it's this? Really? Oh come on, you have to be kidding me... I had to be trans. I had to be mentally fragile and weak, resulting in chronic depression and bpd. I had to be bullied, sure why not? I had to end up as a complete failure, unable to work, doomed to live in poverty? And... out of all the parents in this world, them? Parents that neglected me during my entire childhood, that didn't care about me one single bit, which built the framework for all my mental suffering in the first place? So many bad lucks in a row. But hey, at least I'm somewhat physically healthy for the moment. Yay...

I wish I wasn't born, it removes the dilemma of being alive. But now I am a part of this world, alive, concious, being able to understand life and death... and, as a result, stuck, because I don't want to continue this miserable life but I also can't leave yet, thanks to my survival instinct.
This is such a torture. I wish I wasn't born. I don't know why it happened but this is a huge waste. My whole existence was just pathethic. Apparently I wasn't even planned so my parents didn't even have the audacity to abort me. At least they could have give me the dignity of a quick death, without all this survival instinct bullshit that prolongs my suffering. Because now it's too late. I'm in this prison, still looking for an exit. I have all the tools, it's just about the right execution. I have to somehow defeat this survival instinct. It's like going against your most fundamental programming that exists out there in nature and it keeps me alive, against my will, even after 2 years of possessing N. That's just cruel. But other people did it before, many people in this forum did, so I can do it too.

What manga is that panel from?

 

[RainAndSadness]

What manga is that panel from?

A girl on the shore. Good manga!