Anyone who has absolutely no friends?

[Sprite_Geist]

No friends; only acquaintances, and I do not even want them.

 

[miserableforever]

Used to be really affected by my friendlessness but recently I started to not mind it anymore (it still hurts sometimes when people mention they have friends, close friends whatever but what can I do other than move on and keep on suffering?) but I'm curious if there's anyone else because I feel like I'm the only person in this world who has absolutely zero friends.

Not a single one, besides some contacts on FB I've had for years, when I was still kinda approachable.
I don't miss it at all. Prefer to be left alone.

 

[Onthe29th]

I don't have friends and it's not hard to see why.

 

[anywherebuthere]

I don't because it's too damn draining having to pretend to be interested in things that I can care less about .

 

[Live Free or Die]

No friends at all. Sometimes I feel ashamed of burning bridges with my childhood friends I had for 30 years even though they were terrible friends. I also burned all the bridges with my family who were terrible people. But maybe it's just me, since I can't seem to accept the behavior or morality of anyone around me and would rather live in solitude. Maybe this is a me issue and not a them issue....

 

[SuicideM4n]

I still have a "friend" but he only talks to me to ask questions about something he doesn't know

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

I have one. My best friend. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have her. Besides for her, I have my Mother.

 

[height jumper 69]

Never had any because i prefer to stay far away from most people because they are very controlling and arrogant

 

[Pluto]

I used to have a close circle of friends, but they have all moved on in life while I am still stuck in the same place, battling the same demons. I've further damaged the friendships by expressing frustration at their neglect. Now it seems I am truly alone.

 

[Baemo]

I have few friends, but I can't talk to them about my mental health. Besides them, I have none, not even my parents.

 

[freedompass]

I used to consciously try to make and sustain friendships. They were nearly all either disappointing, abandoning/betraying or I just didn't like them much haha. Nowadays I have online people who are easier to keep at arm's length. I'm not ready to completely face life alone but I am an introvert loner by nature and as I get older that behaviour seems to get more pronounced. I've never been gifted at making/keeping friends and nothing changed except that now I'm more resigned and content with solitude.

 

[Mobius1launch]

I've been a good side-friend to many, but I can never say that I've ever been a best-friend to anyone.

 

[downndone2]

I have a few real friends but the only kne I see is my roommate. The others left me in my despair. I have also lost 3 friends over the last few yrs who passed away

 

[raghu1977]

I have no friends. And no family either. My mother passed away last September.

 

[veryhappyhuman]

After my last failed ctb attempt c. 2013, I tried to lift myself up. I told myself I'm perfectly normal (despite being in my late 20s with zero social life or relationship) and I just needed to put myself out there more. I created a facebook account and twitter account , sent a request to the one fellow loser friend I had at the time. Posted pictures of myself, wrote "funny" posts, interacted on others posts, joined groups, yadda yadda.

Fast forward 4 years, and I'd managed to accumulate a grand total of... 12 FB "friends". Lol. Almost all of them were work acquaintances, I was the one to send requests to every single one of them. My posts mostly had 0 interactions, except a few which that loser friend "liked" out of pity.

Over time, I kind of forgot about my social media accounts and lost touch with my IRL friend. One day I suddenly remembered and logged in, only to find that my FB friend count was now down to 8, and I find from my friend's feed that he'd gotten this amazing job in Europe (something both of us had always dreamt of) AND a girlfriend he'd been with for over 2 years. What's more, his posts all had 100s of like/comments -- some "loser". The absurdity of it all finally hit me. In the next 5 minutes I wiped out all my social media.

 

[Otto]

I had friends a long time ago then I moved school and it started turning into shit ,then we moved again and it just got worse,I hated life.
Then when I was late teens until around 30 it turned round and then again until I was 35 it was ok .then I relocated and I'm sure people think I have friends but I don't .
When I was in psych hospital I told them I had no friends and on my notes they put few friends ,wtf none means none.
I don't know what changed but in the periods when I say I did have friends ,I knew people and we would go out in groups but no one would have missed my absence.i guess I had two real friends in my whole life but that was long ago.
I don't even have online friends
I'm happy to chat to anyone but I don't expect to

 

[ihatemylife]

I have none and occasionally I feel like I'm missing out. Then I see how people screw each other constantly and maybe I'm just saving time.

Sadly, I think you're right about that

 

[Someone123]

I'm absolutely sorry :(. Being alone in school is hell. I've been alone all high school years and even now in university. The good thing is that it won't last forever. It will be much better when you finish school. Stay strong and I wish you the best!

At university maybe a way to make friends could be in some kind of club - when you atre working on something together that's how people can get ti know you.

 

[hdahsa]

Well I do have "friends" but none with whom I can share my thoughts and feelings without being judged. So in that way I have no friends. One of the main reasons of wanting to ctb is that after the passing away of my wife due to covid, I have no one with whom I can be totally free. We were really soul mates if there is any such thing and now I am just waiting my turn.

 

[completely-done]

I have close friends but they cannot love the ctb side of myself. So they don't fully love me, they love me to the extent they can handle, which is nice. I'm certain they'll be okay after my death. I'm satisfied.

 

[Death_of_a_Phynixx]

I have never had true and authentic friends, only acquaintances in the now very distant past. But, this is to be expected from an introvert. Trust is an issue for me, as those closest to me, responsible for caring for and loving me have betrayed me deeply. I no longer yearn for friends or companions, but for a true family in spirit. Like to find my spiritual clan or twin flames. Alas, loneliness still doth consume me.

 

[angiegirl30]

Sadly, I don't have any friends. I had a best friend that I could share all my thoughts with and we did things together. But she died of COVID a little over a year ago.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Man do I miss that feeling of being carefree and able to connect with people. Does anyone else miss it?

It takes way too much energy to deal with people, I come off awkward, not genuine, fatigued, guarded and tired and feel it's a waste of time


Rip

 

[forgetme]

I had friends most of them turned out to be fake and a few years ago one of them put me in a hospital on purpose after beating the living hell out of me for telling them they were fake.

I don't keep friends around anymore I don't see the point in it

 

[ExRN]

I don't have any friends anymore. Zero. I don't even try anymore because I'm so ashamed at what I've become. I have parents (separated) and a sister. My mother is the only one who really feels for me and I feel so much guilt for how much effort she puts into trying to help me when I know she can't help. My dad says he's there for me, but he doesn't try to talk to me. My sister treats me like I'm already dead.

No friends and a mother who causes me to feel guilty because she genuinely cares. I know she loves me but I have no warm emotions anymore so saying "I love you" to my mom makes me feel like a fake.

I've had great friends in my lifetime but it's been years since I've had one. I used to feel really lonely but I don't think I do anymore. I don't want to be seen or heard.

 

[Al Cappella]

Nope. It's been quite a while since I've had friends.

 

[OldDrummer]

In my 50's, never had any friends, despite having several long term relationships.

Cutting a very long story very short, I've autism, discovered in my early 40's through my own son's diagnosis.

I'm an agreeable fellow, I've masked and scripted all my life without realising it.

 

[Nomoretimerqd78]

Bit late replying but I have just joined up.

I have none. I had a few very close friends when i was younger, but i really struggle to keep in contact with people, i dont kbow why. Made contact again after years and it was great, but felt really low at myself after seeing them as i had missed so much..and didnt keep up contact again. Viscious circle i guess. I had a lot of drinking / drugging pals when i was younger but they were never close or genuine. I really struggle in social circles, i dont know why. One on one im ok, but more than that i go in on myself and lose confidence which really doesnt help matters. My way around this was to get smashed, but as i got older i didnt want to do that anymore. Unfortunatly my social awkwardness never left me so i find it hard to make knew freinds. So depressing.

 

[DSE]

dont think ive ever had any true friends in life, most people I have known simple seem to make contact when it suits them or they need help with their computer ect...
apart from people I know at work i dont have any one that I can urn to in times of need with out feeling guilty that iam taking up their time.

ive attempted to find ways to deal with it, alcohol / drugs but its only a temporary fix for a permanent problem. I am also diagnosed with Aspergers ASC.
and suffer with neurofibromatsis type 1, While on 1st looks you would not notice anything "wrong" with me but it does cause a lot of pain, Im socially awkward

i keep thinking what is wrong with me :(

 

[710]

I don't have any friends, either. I don't even know anyone in my town and I've lived here for several years. On most days, the only living thing I come in contact with is my feline companion.