Discussion Anyone told their parents they're gonna CTB?

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I told my parents that i'm gassing myself soon, gonna use Nitrogen and end myself so spend what time you can left with me in the most casual as fuck way. i said if i waltz in with a tank of gas it's for that reason so don't touch it.

I got these wide eyed looks but here i am and it's just the usual same old, i wasn't expecting anything honestly but it just goes to show, no one really cares once the monkey brain decides "oh my own shit" gotta run, i know this but it's pretty interesting to see how the program keeps running like clock-work.

It's all just a fucking testicular cumdumpster of fecal impacted shit-biscuits.

Anyone else told people and nothing happens?

 

[lilpeep]

I've hinted to my mother for years that I'm going to eventually and she just always brushes it off. Never once has she ever taken a comment I made into consideration. It baffles me how anyone could bring a child into this world, hear them say what they're going through/thinking about, and just have no emotional reaction to it like

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I've hinted to my mother for years that I'm going to eventually and she just always brushes it off. Never once has she ever taken a comment I made into consideration. It baffles me how anyone could bring a child into this world, hear them say what they're going through/thinking about, and just have no emotional reaction to it like

im going to assume you guys arent too close right, see its weird me and my family are best friends which is just.. yeh.

I just think some people just cant absorb these things, like a switch that doest work its fucking weird, why have kids like some weird breeder lol

 

[just_so_done]

my parents know the only reason I'm still around is because of them, they especially know it when the anger just takes control, knowing I have to suffer so they don't. But funny thing is I asked one of them who works in the medical field exactly where the femoral artery is with some lame story about my friend and i read an article and disagreed so now i know exactly where it is and my parent has probably no realization that they gave me that info for potential ctb option lol

 

[lilpeep]

im going to assume you guys arent too close right,

why have kids like some weird breeder lol

Idk how to separate the quotes I wanted, new to this lol but growing up we were inseparable. But after a car accident when I was a kid, she's been on narco for the last 16ish years which has drastically changed her as a person. My whole family notices it. She just doesn't give a fuck about anything that has to do with anything other than herself or my nephew. A good bit of narcissism in there too. I'm sorry to hear that tho that your fam is just unsure how to process ts. Idk if that'd be worse honestly

But that last thing you said had me rollin

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

my parents know the only reason I'm still around is because of them, they especially know it when the anger just takes control, knowing I have to suffer so they don't. But funny thing is I asked one of them who works in the medical field exactly where the femoral artery is with some lame story about my friend and i read an article and disagreed so now i know exactly where it is and my parent has probably no realization that they gave me that info for potential ctb option lol

Wow they never put two and two toghether, my kid is suicidal and now hes asking about arteries?

sorry man, im sorry for you buddy

Idk how to separate the quotes I wanted, new to this lol but growing up we were inseparable. But after a car accident when I was a kid, she's been on narco for the last 16ish years which has drastically changed her as a person. My whole family notices it. She just doesn't give a fuck about anything that has to do with anything other than herself or my nephew. A good bit of narcissism in there too. I'm sorry to hear that tho that your fam is just unsure how to process ts. Idk if that'd be worse honestly

But that last thing you said had me rollin

Fuck thats shit dude, those things blast people into totally different brains, fuck living like that man, life is about other people atleast to me it is, ya know?

Haha you like that last bit? im a bit nutty some days

 

[nosoul]

No way, dad is old, I feel bad doing it to him tbh, but I don't know, getting final piece of puzzle tomorrow my meto.

I guess I have time, I have to see how I feel tomorrow I think. Eating a nice Italian last meal tonight see how it goes.

 

[just_so_done]

Wow they never put two and two toghether, my kid is suicidal and now hes asking about arteries?

sorry man, im sorry for you buddy

Thanks man, I appreciate. They see the pain and suffering yet don't act on it. I think it's easier for it to be out of sight, out of mind which works well when you dont live with your parents.

I'm sorry for what you've had to go through too, the fact that you were so blunt with them and nothing? It makes me angry and sad for you. Just know you're not alone here.

 

[SleepingLessons]

in the most casual as fuck way

I'm sorry you didn't get the reaction you were maybe hoping for, but I wouldn't put it down to them not caring. That's a pretty serious thing to say, and people who haven't been suicidal may not understand that somebody can be calm and collected while still planning to kill themselves - there's kind of a stereotype of over-emotional, out of control people, etc. Plus, for most parents who care about their children, the thought of losing you to suicide might be enough to overload them and create strange reactions. They don't really want to believe you're being serious, etc. While in an ideal world everyone would know how to respond, most people are clueless in how to react to mental illness, even if they care.

me and my family are best friends which is just.. yeh.

It definitely sounds like you should sit down and have a serious conversation about what you're thinking. Not even in a "help me" way, but in a "this is what I want to do, and I'm being serious" way. If you initiate a proper discussion you might get a different response.

 

[MildlyBetter]

I told my parents I was depressed and suicidal a few years ago, they pretended to care for all of two days lmao.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I'm sorry you didn't get the reaction you were maybe hoping for, but I wouldn't put it down to them not caring. That's a pretty serious thing to say, and people who haven't been suicidal may not understand that somebody can be calm and collected while still planning to kill themselves - there's kind of a stereotype of over-emotional, out of control people, etc. Plus, for most parents who care about their children, the thought of losing you to suicide might be enough to overload them and create strange reactions. They don't really want to believe you're being serious, etc. While in an ideal world everyone would know how to respond, most people are clueless in how to react to mental illness, even if they care.

It definitely sounds like you should sit down and have a serious conversation about what you're thinking. Not even in a "help me" way, but in a "this is what I want to do, and I'm being serious" way. If you initiate a proper discussion you might get a different response.

Oh i wasn't looking for a reaction man, i just say the unfiltered truth all day every day which often gets me in trouble i gotta say, ive tried killing myself several times now so they know i dont fuck around when it comes to the script.

its weird, just weird to me that ive already got a few things in my house now for the tank, packages arrived a few times and i told them what it was but still nothing. im doing this for me so i dont mind if they care or not, ill be dead anyways so rofl

Good idea though man, perhaps they see it as a joke somehow?

I told my parents I was depressed and suicidal a few years ago, they pretended to care for all of two days lmao.

yep thats how it goes, wonder what the neurons in their brain are doing when you tell them that?

some people are just less conscious, like a toad, humans arent all on the same level some are just like npcs to be honest.

 

[SleepingLessons]

Good idea though man, perhaps they see it as a joke somehow?

That's really fucking strange then. If you're curious maybe talking to them directly about it would yield some answers to their reaction. or lack thereof But man, it sounds pretty distressing that they just haven't had many reactions, I'm sorry you're going through that.

 

[innominesatanas44]

I've told many authority figures throughout my life multiple times at multiple ages and never elicited an ounce of sympathy for it, so over time I stopped looking for help and started casually saying morbid shit, so then naturally I got put in the ward. Everytime I hear people like that saying "there were never any signs" I always think what they ought to say instead is "There were signs, but I just hoped ignoring them would make them go away instead of, you know, actually having to care about someone."

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

That's really fucking strange then. If you're curious maybe talking to them directly about it would yield some answers to their reaction. or lack thereof But man, it sounds pretty distressing that they just haven't had many reactions, I'm sorry you're going through that.

Ah its just water under the bridge man, my parents are my best friends but i can totally delete them mentally and see them as just atoms walking around which is everything i guess, its all fake in a way, people cut their brain off to mind their own problems,

Which is natural, just how the brain works, its like a pentium 4 cpu, pipeline is only taking so much shit in rofl

 

[AerialBoundaries]

They're aware of my mental struggles, but not to the extent that I'd end my life. They also played a significant part in how I ended up like this. I've forgiven my mum, as she genuinely did change her ways and showed remorse. We're close these days. My dad, not so much. I don't like the guy, I just tolerate him.

The mask has nearly slipped a few times and I've almost confessed suicidal thoughts and plans when I've been wasted, but I keep it to myself for the most part. I don't want anybody worrying about me.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

They're aware of my mental struggles, but not to the extent that I'd end my life. They also played a significant part in how I ended up like this. I've forgiven my mum, as she genuinely did change her ways and showed remorse. We're close these days. My dad, not so much. I don't like the guy, I just tolerate him.

The mask has nearly slipped a few times and I've almost confessed suicidal thoughts and plans when I've been wasted, but I keep it to myself for the most part. I don't want anybody worrying about me.

Sometimes you just have to forgive and forget just to find a slice of peace in whatever small way it can be, sorry life has been crap dude.

It's easier true, people worrying can have them floating around and pestering you at the slightest thing

 

[alyayoun]

My mother has been extremely concerned with me since I came out as trans, she has her whole lot of reasons why I think I'm trans but actually am not. One day she was being the usual her and torturing me with shame about school, I don't remember the exact circumstances. By that time I had already told her many times that the way she behaves made me feel mentally sick and depressed, but she completely ignored it. So one day I told her she was leading me to suicide with her behavior, because I used to have a lot of suicidal thoughts because of her, but didn't tell her I was going to, she didn't say anything for a few hours, then came to me to ask saying she was worried, never mentioned it again.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I've told many authority figures throughout my life multiple times at multiple ages and never elicited an ounce of sympathy for it, so over time I stopped looking for help and started casually saying morbid shit, so then naturally I got put in the ward. Everytime I hear people like that saying "there were never any signs" I always think what they ought to say instead is "There were signs, but I just hoped ignoring them would make them go away instead of, you know, actually having to care about someone."

People only tend to help when it comes to crisis point, you can talk their ear off about all kinds of shit until you pull the "gun" out and then they go "oh shite" he's being serious, quick lock the fucker up help him i never noticed anything.

common human thing isn't it? just look at our planet alone haha fucking muppets

No way, dad is old, I feel bad doing it to him tbh, but I don't know, getting final piece of puzzle tomorrow my meto.

I guess I have time, I have to see how I feel tomorrow I think. Eating a nice Italian last meal tonight see how it goes.

Well make sure it's a bloody good one chap, have a top quality feast man

 

[Endkrieg00]

Im already an adult but despite that I still told them... Not in a way like to say "Im gonna kill myself right now" but more in a way " I dont want to keep living in this reality is to painful and I want to die" They were concerned but theres little to nothing that they can do to help me. In the country where I live, healthcare and other types of medical treatment are expensive and the public service is obviously disfunctional, there are great limitations. If you dont have money you are fucked. And talking about that, I really apreciate my parents so I dont want them paying for something that is affecting me, I feel to much indebted to them. So doing more than that for me is not necesary.

 

[SleepingLessons]

she didn't say anything for a few hours, then came to me to ask saying she was worried, never mentioned it again.

I always think about the shocked pikachu meme with shit like this. Like what the hell did she expect? Why do family members not realise that when they act in shitty ways and put pressure on someone with mental illness that's gonna have consequences. I hope you've found acceptance in other places.

 

[FireFox]

NEVER NO WAY it will be nothing but choas and emotional world war 3.

Firstly my family are religious and judgemental when it comes to suicide. My family think people are "so selfish and weak" for killing themselves. My family constantly preach about how life is a gift from God and suicide is being "ungrateful" to God's gift of life.

Secondly growing up without a father, having unhelpful piece of shit relatives and me being the first born my family look to me to be the successful one. Growing up I was always expected to be healthy and strong. My family members in the past have guilt tripped me over my anoxeria and my abuse of diet pills. My family will not cope if I tell them I am suicidal or planning to ctb.

 

[Duochrome-Seahorse]

I think I told my entire family that I was suicidal and after a year I stopped saying anything except to my brother. he's the only person I'm comfortable talking to about it. I'm just hoping after I CTB they aren't surprised. I remember the first time I told my mom I was suicidal when I was 11 she told me I was stupid. she doesn't remember that when I remind her. she doesn't remember all the awful things she's told me, and honestly, I don't feel bad that I'm leaving her behind. I don't feel bad for any of them.

 

[DazaiKinnie]

I told my parents that i'm gassing myself soon, gonna use Nitrogen and end myself so spend what time you can left with me in the most casual as fuck way. i said if i waltz in with a tank of gas it's for that reason so don't touch it.

I got these wide eyed looks but here i am and it's just the usual same old, i wasn't expecting anything honestly but it just goes to show, no one really cares once the monkey brain decides "oh my own shit" gotta run, i know this but it's pretty interesting to see how the program keeps running like clock-work.

It's all just a fucking testicular cumdumpster of fecal impacted shit-biscuits.

Anyone else told people and nothing happens?

Yeah, I told my mom. She wasn't that happy, she used "I am your mom" and "Think who you leave behind" "But I will suffer" and I replied "I suffer as well and I want to end mine and she replied "You have to stay alive for me, doesn't matter, look at people with cancer why do they eant to live" my reply "Not all of them want to, most of them would take assisted suicide if offered" and begins to cry and brings in more stupid arguments
I might sound like the asshole but I don't really care anymore, I just want my peace.

 

[CentreMid]

I didn't outright tell them, they found out from a "friend" back in grade school. They didn't take me seriously and used my suicidality and self-harm to mock me whenever I got upset. They still don't take me seriously and wonder why I don't talk to anymore.

 

[storeboughtisfine]

I've told my sister that if she dies before me then i'm going to follow her shortly after (we're twins, i can't be in the world without her) and she just gave me a knowing look. so. i don't think she minds.