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NZkiwi

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Sep 17, 2019
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If I may ask, have you been a neurotypical/less deeply emotional person, cause I noticed that mainly the people (like me) who are/were way more neurodiverse, also seem to get the most fucked up neuropsychiatric and brain destroying side effects from those drugs.

hey thanks for the question. Just so im understandng it correctly, you're asking if im neurotypical? and if I'm less deeply emotional of a person?
I take medication for bipolar + adhd, hopefully that answers the first part of yoru question

less deeply emotional, i guess i'm a lot more regulated but previously i've been a lot more dysregulated and got into a lot of personal and professional trouble

i keep quite private and withdrawn form people when im dysregulated hence was more of a lurker in the past

i think the side effect i didn't like was on olanziapine with weight gain and feeling really, really hungry. when i was hosptialised previously they put me on it but i made sure i switched to something my boy agreeded with more once i was in the community

sorry to hear the psych meds aren't working for you, they do suck. i wish there was a perfect pill for everyone, i guess there is a peaceful pill lol hence why we're here

wish you all the best on your journey
 
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Sep 21, 2025
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hey thanks for the question. Just so im understandng it correctly, you're asking if im neurotypical? and if I'm less deeply emotional of a person?
I take medication for bipolar + adhd, hopefully that answers the first part of yoru question

less deeply emotional, i guess i'm a lot more regulated but previously i've been a lot more dysregulated and got into a lot of personal and professional trouble

i keep quite private and withdrawn form people when im dysregulated hence was more of a lurker in the past

i think the side effect i didn't like was on olanziapine with weight gain and feeling really, really hungry. when i was hosptialised previously they put me on it but i made sure i switched to something my boy agreeded with more once i was in the community

sorry to hear the psych meds aren't working for you, they do suck. i wish there was a perfect pill for everyone, i guess there is a peaceful pill lol hence why we're here

wish you all the best on your journey
Thanks for the reply.. The meds are the reason I am here, I have been brain raped by them (and that is the most accurate way to describe it). If you could record the POV of what happened to me and show it to everyone and lawmakers, it would be a huge scandal and drug classification and safety information and the system would hopefully get entirety revamped
 
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NZkiwi

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Sep 17, 2019
25
Thanks for the reply.. The meds are the reason I am here, I have been brain raped by them (and that is the most accurate way to describe it). If you could record the POV of what happened to me and show it to everyone and lawmakers, it would be a huge scandal and drug classification and safety information and the system would hopefully get entirety revamped
... did you ever go off your meds and what happened

i went off them for a year cause i thought i was just "emotional" and ended up under the mental health act in a foriegn country lmao >--- n e v e r a g a i n <--

I think some meds have pretty significant metabolic side effect and they do suck

for my bipolar, i knew unmedicated bipolar can be neurotoxic during manic epsiodes and can esculate severity off symtoms .. i was fairly well controlled in my early 20's taking medication as prescribed... but I decided I didn't think i was bipolar later on and went off them and low and behold i had a first episode psychosis and a mixed episode

i do trust what you're saying between the lines and had bad things happen to you, either growing up or now as an adult. I do hope you find peace through what ever choices you ake. wishing you all the best
 

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