Anyone here with purely physical disease?

[OpheliasFlowers]

I have ptsd which is considered mental (it's not, really, the physical symptoms are horrific) as well as autism, which one again, I don't think is really mental because it's a developmental disability, yet some would place it in that category.

However, I also suffer from chronic pain, chronic fatigue syndrome, and IBS which really just makes life a hellish slog. There's not really any treatments because none of this is well understood, and I've tried everything currently approved for neuropathic pain.

The things that other people enjoy about life are simply out of my grasp. The career I wanted isn't going to happen now because I'm too disabled. I wanted to adopt children in the future, that won't happen now due to my illnesses. I can't really have many hobbies or interests because the neurological symptoms of brainfog are extreme.

I have no energy to do anything. I always feel weakness, malaise, and pain. Even simple tasks like eating are painstakingly difficult when I know many foods are goinf to put me in horrible pain later on.

I wake up feeling ill, tired, and unrefreshed every single day. It is hard to get out of bed because I'll always feel dizzy and nauseous for at least an hour. So I feel your pain if you are dealing with similar physical illnesses, I would not wish this on a soul.

I could have written this post almost word for word re: the physical issues aspect of it, and the daily chronic pain and brain fog and fatigue, etc. Even the IBS part, which I too have along with other GI problems. Even a simple pleasure like eating is not something I can enjoy, so I understand where you're coming from and I'm so so sorry you suffer each day like you do. Life is so unfair, and after awhile, a person just gets exhausted of existing just to exist, and i feel that from your post.

Just wanted to let you know someone understands and I'm sending you a virtual hug.

 

[Buffy5120]

Yes if I wasn't going to lose my medical, medications, and doctors, which will leave me with no quality of life I wouldn't be here.

There's a Facebook page called don't punish pain rally run by a woman named Claudia. It's very large and working towards changing the DEA recommendations to doctors who have force tapered many of their patients off of pain meds that were managing their pain and working well for them. The doctors are afraid as they are threatened with losing their licenses if they don't stop prescribing, etc. This is in the states. Many Chronic pain patients have ctb due to losing their meds.

I fucking hate America Damn these greedy fucks they dont have a soul I swear!

 

[Trisolaris]

I suffer from physical pain that was caused by psych meds.

 

[Rabitfever]

I suffer from physical pain that was caused by psych meds.

Hey, was it benzos? If so I'm on the same boat

 

[Desdemona]

Really bad chronic nerve pain in multiple body parts
Tinnitus and other ear issues
Visual snow
But the nerve pain is the worst part and not controlled by meds. Combined with the tinnitus it's honestly pure hell

 

[Trisolaris]

Hey, was it benzos? If so I'm on the same boat

No, it was antidepressants. What did benzos do to you?

 

[mr parkinson]

i have parkinsons , is there anyone else on here that has it .

 

[SadJessu]

I certainly have mental illness that complicates things but...Spinal Stenosis that causes some pretty annoying discomfort, as well as TMJ, so my jaw is constantly sore. The worst is ME/CFS, which drives me closer to ctb than all else, especially because with an 'invisible' disorder I'm often treated as lazy. This is on top of Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder, which is sometimes classified as a mental illness, in essence my sleep schedule moves around so I'm often awake in the middle of the night.

 

[WornOutLife]

It seems my stomach is kinda fucked up.
I gotta get of check-ups and different medical studies done to see what exactly is going on.

Also, overweight is giving me lots of pain.

I guess I might be in time to recover but as you know, it's very hard to get your sh*t done when you're a depressed person. (And to make matter worse, I'm bipolar lol. I guess I'll just have to wait for the UPS and go to a hospital at that time).

 

[fishtacos4me]

I am in so much physical pain right now. I'm 51 and sick and not going to get better. Even with medical insurance, I can't afford healthcare. I'm so tired of hurting. My only purposes in life are to work and to hurt. I've been working since I was eight years old and I am so damned tired. I'm poor, so there is no chance of ever retiring. I'm going to keep working and hurting for as long as I can stand it because my family counts on me. In a year and a half, my life insurance policy will pay my family if I suicide. The thought of doing this for a year and a half . . . I try not to think about how long that is. There is a chance I'll die of my illnesses before that. That's actually what is keeping me going right now - the thought that if I can push myself hard enough, I'll die sooner than a year and a half from now - and it will look 'natural' and my family won't suffer as much.

 

[Cleopatra123]

I'm so sorry, and upset, to hear all your stories. I've had ME/CFS for almost 50 years, but they had no name for it then, and they still don't know its cause, nor have any treatment for it. I'm a retired nurse, so I studied all the alternative remedies I could find, and I survived to reach at state of misery, emptiness and loneliness, confined 99% at home and bed. The years took tolls all over my body, and now I have multiple organ malfunctions. Isn't a day without suffering somewhere. I know I'm dying, and I know if I don't do anything about cbt, I'm going to wind up unable to do anything, paralized possibly. Now, I'd need help getting it done, ha. What gets me is how much sicker humans have gotten while I've watched all these years. Human are killing themselves, poisoning themselves, and the planet. Or should I call our toxic environment due to the careless greed of those who have for profit created an existence which is slowly causing more and more disabilities. It's good we all have a place where we can express this, because the medical community stinks and is getting worse, and there is nowhere else where we can express this. Too bad we all can't get together and end our suffering together; though there is more and more illnesses that doctors dismiss, each of us are on a lone planet, and get little if no help.

 

[FuneralCry]

Not purely physical disease, but I think my mental state means I find it hard to deal with them, I don't have the capacity for suffering if that makes sense. I have health problems such as tinnitus, mild visual snow, palpatations, thyroid problems and others. I just think life isnt worth living if your body constantly tortures you. What is worse you are told the symptoms are all in your head and being positive will fix it. It infuriates me there is no limit as to how pain the body can put us through and yet there is no peaceful ways out to end it.

 

[Cleopatra123]

Not purely physical disease, but I think my mental state means I find it hard to deal with them, I don't have the capacity for suffering if that makes sense. I have health problems such as tinnitus, mild visual snow, palpatations, thyroid problems and others. I just think life isnt worth living if your body constantly tortures you. What is worse you are told the symptoms are all in your head and being positive will fix it. It infuriates me there is no limit as to how pain the body can put us through and yet there is no peaceful ways out to end it.

Yes, Doctors always try to blame the victim when they don't have an answer. It is infuriating. I was a nurse, and it seems to me that your symptoms are systematic.

 

[OblivionSeeker]

I'm kinda old, and I have multiple health problems. head-to-toe issues basically. Heart, back, neuropathy, bowels, urinary system....I could go on and on.

But the Depression and desire to end it trumps any physical disorder I have. Even if I was in perfect health, there's nothing left in Life for me.

 

[Cleopatra123]

I'm kinda old, and I have multiple health problems. head-to-toe issues basically. Heart, back, neuropathy, bowels, urinary system....I could go on and on.

But the Depression and desire to end it trumps any physical disorder I have. Even if I was in perfect health, there's nothing left in Life for me.

What you say is doubly sad. I always had personal interests that kept me engaged, but I can do none of them anymore. But I am too disabled to do anything anymore. I'm not just dying, I'm dying of boredom and loneliness. Even if I could write again, or read, or see the ocean I'd be grateful again. So, I know what it means to have "nothing Left in life". It's an almost unbelievable angst to describe. In both cases, the losses are immeasurable.

 

[lyric1863]

I would not say diabetes 2 is a reason to ctb..... Especially considering that if you live healthy you ll prevent most of its complications

If we all had healthy living Beautiful non depression we would not be posting on this forum