I have a fatal illness and will ctb before I let it take me. It would be painful slow suffering death and I will not allow that to happen to me. Just wondering if anyone here on SaSu has similar reason or situation. I have been given Nembutal and will use it when the time comes. I live in state where Death with Dignity Law was passed some time ago. I get my Nemb. and other meds to make sure it goes well directly from Dr and pharmacist. I have other reasons for ctb and had 4 attempts in my lifetime. One successful but brought back from death by paramedics and hospital. Was so angry when I found out. Has that happened to anyone else? Well I know there are many reasons I seen here over the time I been on this site. If you want to give another reason that is fine. Wish you all the best journey to whatever you plan for yourself and may it be what you wanted. Peace.
I'm so sorry for your situation. I'm relieved for you that you do have access to Nembutal for when the time comes. I'm not in this situation now but to be honest, the prospect of dieing from any drawn out natural illness frightens me. It absolutely would give me the impetus to try to end things myself.
WearyWanderer
Student
- Nov 3, 2019
- 140
How did you manage to find that? I thought it was discontinued and the Death with Dignity places only used Secobarbital but then even that one was discontinued and replaced bc of money? 
I have something wrong with me, not diagnosed yet. I have procrastinated going to the doctor because I don't care if I live anymore — and I don't care if I have the big "C-word" or not. But, if I ended up in pain one day and in the hospital and were to be officially diagnosed with a terminal illness, I would probably expedite my CTB rather than to have a long, drawn-out & painful death.
I have 24/7 chronic pain and if and when quantity overtakes quality, then a VAD is waiting for me. I will NOT lay in a hospital bed and look like a fish out of water, never.
Walter
Walter
WearyWanderer
Student
- Nov 3, 2019
- 140
You were accepted to Pegasos or a similar program for VAD?
Btw I love your global family sign offs every time I see them, they're always a comfort and make me feel seen and included and I appreciate your posts here
So, I live in NY. In NYS it is also known as the MAID Law. Each state is different and as I explain here this is for NYS. The state passed a bill couple years ago and just recently passed another one adding some people who will also qualify and leaving it up to Dr. to decide which drugs you can get. Makes sense due to illness you might have and how different life ending drugs could affect how your death happens. Peacefully is the goal there. It is called "Dying with Dignity". That is the name of it. It is for us. People suffering with life ending illnesses or very slow painful illnesses that would be horrific to endure for long term. After going through all the required hoops and tests and mental health evals, which almost stopped me from being approved I did get it. I am in. Here is the RX my Dr has given me.You were accepted to Pegasos or a similar program for VAD?
Btw I love your global family sign offs every time I see them, they're always a comfort and make me feel seen and included and I appreciate your posts here
If you choose to go the way of Hospice it is different. Including Heroine and Morphine. Hospice is expensive! Can't even die cheaply these days!
Option 1:
| Drug | Dose range |
|---|---|
| Pentobarbital | 1–15 g |
| Thiopental | 1–2 g |
| Secobarbital | 9 g |
| Phenobarbital | 3000 mg |
2
Chloral Hydrate 20 g
Pentobarbital 9–15 g
Antiemetics: Metoclopramide 10–20 mg Ondansetron 8 mg
Analgesics Morphine15 mg-3 g
Morphine is optional. He said Pent. / nembutal with the other meds here will be quick and peaceful end.
By Law I must be alone no one to assist me in any way.
This is only for those with fatal medical condition which will be extremely painful or suffocating for long period. This would end that suffering.
lIn the end I wish for you or anyone on this journey the most peaceful safe journey to whatever road you choose. Try longer to survive best you can or take the other option when it is right for you. ctb as we say here. Love you all.
We are in an exclusive club for which most people would prefer Not to be members.
It's like a family that only those who are members could ever understand.
We are Uniquely connected to each other, like no one else could be forever.
Peace.
Info from my forms:
What is the medical aid in dying act in nys?
The New York Medical Aid in Dying Act would provide terminally ill patients with access to prescription medications they can take to hasten their death.Nov 15, 2023
New bill passed 2024 by 58% vote.
You can read it in the post below in my reply there. In NYS it is commonly known as the Maid Law or Death with Dignity. I listed what my dr gave me to choose from and also said I can go through Hospice. I volunteer/work for them. Guess that helps in the "End". Peace.How did you manage to find that? I thought it was discontinued and the Death with Dignity places only used Secobarbital but then even that one was discontinued and replaced bc of money?
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DuskUntilDawn
Member
- Aug 23, 2024
- 42
I'm sorry you are suffering. I live in upstate NY. I believe you are misinformed. MAID bill has not been passed in the state of NY. It's been on the ballot for years and never makes it through. They need to pass it but government and religion always interferes.
NYMAIDFails
NYMAIDFails
Chronicallyunwell
Member
- Aug 9, 2024
- 99
Read my story
I will have this chronic infection for the rest of my life and there is nothing I can do about it. I will suffer for the rest of my life.
What the hell can I do?
I will have this chronic infection for the rest of my life and there is nothing I can do about it. I will suffer for the rest of my life.
What the hell can I do?
Final_Choice
Mage
- Aug 3, 2023
- 544
I have a painful chronic illness but not fatal, so far incurable and I just have to live with it according to my doctors. I wish there was some dying with dignity law that would apply for cases like mine, it would make things a lot better. I'll likely end up taking matters into my own hands and succeeding before such a law is passed.
I am in the Hospice program and it is through Hospice. Not NYS. The bill was passed in state but failed again but they are putting it through again. There is more support now but I already have what I need. Thankfully there is aid in dying for those who are terminally ill through Hospice. Anyway Thanks but I already know I was saying it passed in only one part of the process. Failed the other half but I am not using State program. Wish you the very best and hope you journey wherever it takes you is successful and good. Peace.
You and I are floating down the river in the same boat, my friend. My prayer for all of us, and especially for you, is that when the time comes our journey to the other side it is peaceful, painless and we find ourselves in whatever place looks like Heaven to us.
They said the bill will pass and is being submitted again. If you are with fatal illness and in Hospice care or in treatment they do not allow ppl to endlessly suffer. That being said, these are places ppl can go in USA. I am one of these.
As of August 24, 2024, 11 jurisdictions in the United States allow physician-assisted suicide, also known as "medical aid in dying":
California, Colorado, District of Columbia, Hawaii, Montana, Maine, New Jersey, New Mexico, Oregon, and Vermont.
