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FadingDawn

FadingDawn

Experienced
Jul 18, 2023
282
Like they never grew up. People who still get going anxiety attacks going outside,doing regular things, etc; who can't do shit, can't support themselves, etc?
 
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lkjhgfdsa1

lkjhgfdsa1

🖤
Apr 17, 2024
442
yes
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
Yeah, I can't even do basic tasks without messing up. On the brightside, I have a baby face so people take it easy on me and treat me like a child, lol.
 
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Agon321

Agon321

I use google translate
Aug 21, 2023
1,654
Of course.

I didn't develop properly and closed myself in my own bubble.
There could be only one result: difficulty functioning properly in society.
I also have more and more trouble with even small things.
Little things are too hard for me.

In my head I always wanted to look like a predator.
I currently have my claws, teeth and balls cut off.
So I'm not a predator. Pathetic.
 
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cetacea

cetacea

underwater
Nov 8, 2023
92
Yes i do. i had one kind of sour interaction yesterday and ive been crying over it. I feel like I cant handle the simplest of things. At the end of the month im going to a cabin with other people and i dont know how ill handle it. Im the only one in this world who dreads nice vacations.
 
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xoirse

xoirse

caffeine overdose
Feb 15, 2024
97
yup, despite being the eldest of all my siblings. still need help with basic chores unfortunately cuz according to them, i still keep messing everything up. i do think my autism plays a part here lol i also always overthink every interaction i get from other people or i practice alone on how to communicate with them so i wouldn't embarrass myself.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
I got publicly humiliated a few days ago and it made me rage internally. I got so mad and wanted to destroy the person who disrespected me but I kept calm on the outside. I guess most people would say that I overreacted but I can't stand people disrespecting me
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
I was publicly humiliated a few days ago and it made me rage internally. I got so mad and wanted to destroy the person who disrespected me but I kept calm on the outside
What happened?
 
sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
What happened?
A border control agent didn't let me through fast pass and forced me to go to a different line. I had to turn back and everyone else in the line I was in saw me get turned away. It was humiliating to get denied entry and felt like a slap in the face. It's unfair that I wasn't allowed to pass. He was a pudgy Asian male and I guess he wanted to exert authority over Asian women to reclaim his power and dominance. He was also really mean to me. He was very curt and brash
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

:( precisely as ugly as Sidney Sweeney :(
Sep 19, 2023
2,223
I got publicly humiliated a few days ago and it made me rage internally. I got so mad and wanted to destroy the person who disrespected me but I kept calm on the outside. I guess most people would say that I overreacted but I can't stand people disrespecting me
A border control agent didn't let me through fast pass and forced me to go to a different line. I had to turn back and everyone else in the line I was in saw me get turned away. He was a pudgy Asian male and I guess he wanted to exert authority over Asian women to reclaim his power and dominance
Good job staying calm. It's always a fat guy, right? I fucking hate people in positions of authority being dicks to me for no reason when I'm trapped in their little tiny world they have control over.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
A border control agent didn't let me through fast pass and forced me to go to a different line. I had to turn back and everyone else in the line I was in saw me get turned away. It was humiliating to get denied entry and felt like a slap in the face. It's unfair that I wasn't allowed to pass. He was a pudgy Asian male and I guess he wanted to exert authority over Asian women to reclaim his power and dominance. He was also really mean to me
That doesn't sound too bad. I'm sure no one gave a shit. People are usually too focused on what's going on with themselves to care about little things like that. Also, I feel like you are making a lot of assumptions about that dude. His attitude could be for a variety of reasons, such as something happening to him earlier that may have put him in a bad mood.
 
sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
That doesn't sound too bad. I'm sure no one gave a shit. People are usually too focused on what's going on with themselves to care about little things like that. Also, I feel like you are making a lot of assumptions about that dude. His attitude could be for a variety of reasons, such as something happening to him earlier that may have put him in a bad mood.
I bet everyone was laughing at me and saying bad things about me. The border control agent was very curt and brash. He was no nonsense and even mocked me. I think he mocked me because he wanted to dominate and humiliate me, as well as abuse the little power that he has. He was unnecessarily mean and rude to me for no reason. After I got turned away, I went to the bathroom to recuperate and cool off. When I got out, everyone was gone, so I breezed through the regular line in less than a few seconds
 
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EmptyHeaded

EmptyHeaded

Experienced
Jan 24, 2024
229
Yeah. I don't even have a bank account because I'm too stupid to go open one. Meanwhile everyone else is going to university or working some job.
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
I bet everyone was laughing at me and saying bad things about me. The border control agent was very curt and brash. He was no nonsense and even mocked me. After I got turned away, I went to the bathroom to recuperate and cool off. When I got out, everyone was gone, so I breezed through the regular line in less than a few seconds
Dude, we tend to think that people care more than they do. People are usually too busy fretting over themselves and how others might be precieving them to really care about small things like that happening to someone else.
 
sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
Dude, we tend to think that people care more than they do. People are usually too busy fretting over themselves and how others might be precieving them to really care about small things like that happening to someone else.
I guess but people talk about others behind their back, even in their vicinity. I don't understand why they do that when you're still in earshot and can clearly hear them talking about and making comments on you. People are just weird in general tbh
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

:( precisely as ugly as Sidney Sweeney :(
Sep 19, 2023
2,223
I bet everyone was laughing at me and saying bad things about me.
Eh, if there were enough people like me who hate the goddam TSA or whoever in the line they were probably thinking that the guy was a dick.
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
I guess but people talk about others behind their back, even in their vicinity. I don't understand why they do that when you're still in earshot and can clearly hear them talking about and making comments on you. People are just weird in general tbh
Human behaviour is complex. Either way, I doubt anyone really cared or even remembers the whole ordeal so there isn't much to worry about.
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,184
Brain no work, means me no work
 
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lizzywizzy09

Arcanist
May 11, 2024
460
Yes. I got into that mindset early on and let other people dictate my life because I felt lower than dog shit. It was later in life that I realized I could do more than I gave myself credit for. Unfortunately the damage had been done.
 
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cowboypants

cowboypants

From milkyway
May 7, 2024
575
Very much not a day older than 6-8 years mentally
 
FireFox

FireFox

Enlightened
Apr 8, 2020
1,919
Yes I am 27 and I feel like my immaturity is of a 16 year old girl.

I am so different from other people my age.
● Never had a boyfriend and stil a virgin
● I don't drive ( learning too but struggling)
● I live with my mother
● I failed to hold a job - I got fired from my first ever full time job since graduating university

Everyone else I grew up with is doing better than me they have careers and spouses here me who is just a failure
 
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Vicolo cieco

Vicolo cieco

Student
May 14, 2024
113
I feel as old as a geriatric patient because I've pondered too much over existence; at the same time I feel like a helpless toddler since I'm a NEET at 29 years old.
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
1,226
This one got stuck in my head:

 
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bed

CTBed
Aug 24, 2019
921
yup.. i'm a long term NEET who's never had a job and can't drive. I've wasted all my potential and utterly failed at life. i could blame it on my chronic pain/health issues, depression, anxiety, trauma or whatever else but i think deep down i'd be like this regardless. never really had ambitions and was always driven by anxiety.
 
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Tired_birth_1967

Student
Nov 1, 2023
184
I always felt unprepared for life. Because of this I started working a little later than I should have. I don't feel prepared today either. but I need to pay the bills and to do that for the last 20 years I go to work every day while in reality I just wish I didn't exist. But I already know that I'm just going to keep working until death happens if I don't do anything. I feel like things only get worse as I get older. I don't know how I managed to get here. Now my natural time is running out. But my wish, every day, is just not to wake up anymore. My wife is so different from me. she has a natural strength to live. I always try to keep my weakness hidden. I love her very much and she is certainly the only person I really care about. But this ends up causing suffering for me.
 
Cinnamorolls

Cinnamorolls

already dead inside
Apr 28, 2024
181
Yes, always, no matter how old I get. I do financially support myself but I have no choice in that. I have no family or friends so I would be homeless if I didn't work. But I can never stay working in one place for more than a year or two and always have to jump to somewhere new. Nowhere appreciates me or tries to retain me.
 

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