Venting Anyone have loved ones that you don’t want to leave behind?

[papisprite]

I feel like the only thing that's stopping me from CTB are my loved ones, specifically, my parents. I want to die so badly, but they are living their lives through me, and I have to be everything that they weren't. If I CTB I take that dream away from them, but at this point I'm not living my life for me, and it feels horrible to feel like a puppet all the time.

 

[aWeeBitTired]

I feel like I wrote this.

I really understand how you feel. For me it's like being trapped in the most bastard dream. You cannot leave even though you suffer because you have family and friends. Evolutionarily it's how we have survived, I guess. But it makes me sick. Sometimes I wish I had nothing so that it would be an easy choice to end my life.

 

[UselessBeing]

I use to try and stick around for others. But as time has gone on its lessened. But now I'm more more worried about leaving my pets. I'm closely bonded with 2 (saved from near death as kittens) and I know no one will love them or care for them like I would. (Can't even give me the bare minimum lmao)

 

[whywere]

Zero, none, no one. Have no family nor friends.

Walter

 

[InAgony]

I feel they will be fine without me so no.

 

[xmissellax]

I have a really supportive family and boyfriend I'd hate to leave behind. It's stopped me many times, but the pain is getting too much now. The fear of the future is too painful. I need an out.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, I'm trying to hold on for my Dad to go first. Everyone else close to me has pretty much gone now. Most are dead. Some, I'm barely in contact with at all.

I sympathise though. I'm sick and tired of trying to get through this life just so that a handful of people won't be upset.