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FadingDawn

FadingDawn

Experienced
Jul 18, 2023
282
I honestly feel like a zombie; depersonalized, cognitively impaired, etc. Honestly, I've always just blamed it on the depression -- but even when my mood had, fleetingly but significantly, improved the brainfog didn't go away: in fact, I just became all the more acutely aware of it. Idefk what it is... I'd rather die tho tbh, than be this stupid cognitively impaired idiot. Anyone have similar stories?
 
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imOK

Experienced
Apr 10, 2025
267
Yeah, that's depression for you. Also memory problems. No idea what I did last week.
 
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Griever

Griever

SN
May 1, 2025
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My dissociation has become so bad lately that I can't even remember what I discussed with my therapist
 
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Hollowman

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Dec 14, 2021
2,315
Yeah I've had it for years. It's ruined everything. I've wondered if it's a negative symptom of schizophrenia.
 
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dead dav

dead dav

Specialist
Feb 27, 2025
343
Yes someways I feel like I'm in some sort of nightmare everything seems distant and not real I spend days doing nothing useful
 
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FadingDawn

FadingDawn

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Jul 18, 2023
282
Yeah, that's depression for you. Also memory problems. No idea what I did last week.
yeah, thats the thing. I'm not convinced it's all "depression"; though most certainly I do experience that often. It feels like it's separate; if anything, mostly I'm depressed because of the memory issues, focus, attention, etc. It could be sleep apnea, hormonal imbalances, etc.
My dissociation has become so bad lately that I can't even remember what I discussed with my therapist
sorry to hear it.
 
22yearsbroken

22yearsbroken

Lost in the dark... with no sign of light
Feb 15, 2025
419
Mine can be a total nightmare.. as suffer with hepatic encephalopathy.. .mood swings (bad ones) forgetfull, balance gone, confusion. Memeory loss.. compound that with insomnia, depression and anxiety it a total fuckin shit ahiw some days..
 
FadingDawn

FadingDawn

Experienced
Jul 18, 2023
282
Mine can be a total nightmare.. as suffer with hepatic encephalopathy.. .mood swings (bad ones) forgetfull, balance gone, confusion. Memeory loss.. compound that with insomnia, depression and anxiety it a total fuckin shit ahiw some days..
I'm very sorry to hear it... sounds really miserable to live with. I wish all of us could do something and just abolish all this goddamn pain and misery
 
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22yearsbroken

Lost in the dark... with no sign of light
Feb 15, 2025
419
I'm very sorry to hear it... sounds really miserable to live with. I wish all of us could do something and just abolish all this goddamn pain and misery
Im working on it for when the time is right for me..H.E can end up putting you in a coma.. and there is no way im letting that happen
 
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OhhDrugzZ

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Feb 14, 2024
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Dissociation 24/7, came home from a walk and just stared at my screen for god knows how long. Eyes are kinda hurting. My memory has also gotten worse again recently. Conversations with others are incredibly difficult because I simply forget everything minutes later
 
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