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Braindead Girl

Braindead Girl

Alice (she/her)
Jul 16, 2026
44
I've been having the thought lately of what i want to have on me when i CTB and what i've decided is that i'll carry my first boxcutter with me when i go and my estrogen pills and maybe a plushie. I'm honestly not too sure but does anyone else have any thing in mind to carry with them when they go
 
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Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless Doll
Apr 20, 2023
200
i've honestly never thought about that. that's a good question. i plan to die in my own home, so i would technically have everything on me anyways. but i think i would like to have the gifts my sisters have got me over the years with me, specifically a plush my oldest sister gave to me. and i think i would want to have the first keychain i imported with me, too. and maybe my collar, but i don't know how i feel about that one entirely.
 
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Braindead Girl

Braindead Girl

Alice (she/her)
Jul 16, 2026
44
i've honestly never thought about that. that's a good question. i plan to die in my own home, so i would technically have everything on me anyways. but i think i would like to have the gifts my sisters have got me over the years with me, specifically a plush my oldest sister gave to me. and i think i would want to have the first keychain i imported with me, too. and maybe my collar, but i don't know how i feel about that one entirely.
Collar is a good one i'll have to bring mine with me when i go i didn't think about that
 
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Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless Doll
Apr 20, 2023
200
Collar is a good one i'll have to bring mine with me when i go i didn't think about that
yeah, tbh i mainly considered it because it also falls under the category of gifts from my sisters, lol. it even says "love you sis" on the back of the tag. i think it would be sorta sweet or cute to have that little message with my corpse. and it's some level of comforting, too.
 
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Braindead Girl

Braindead Girl

Alice (she/her)
Jul 16, 2026
44
yeah, tbh i mainly considered it because it also falls under the category of gifts from my sisters, lol. it even says "love you sis" on the back of the tag. i think it would be sorta sweet or cute to have that little message with my corpse. and it's some level of comforting, too.
Awww that's really sweet, really wish i had something like that
 
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HungryBeast123Food

Member
Jul 14, 2026
14
Hi how do i make a post? Is it normal I cant find a search bar to find specific posts? The UI is like 4chan 😭. It isnt like reddit's ui where there isna search bar and easier to post.
 
Braindead Girl

Braindead Girl

Alice (she/her)
Jul 16, 2026
44
Hi how do i make a post? Is it normal I cant find a search bar to find specific posts? The UI is like 4chan 😭. It isnt like reddit's ui where there isna search bar and easier to post.
there is like post thread at the top of the screen if your on mobile and pc
 
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mutsu

mutsu

wanna get zappy?
May 17, 2026
96
i think i'd probably want to keep my estrogen, be wearing one of my jfashion coords, have my box cutter, and also my guitar!! im very attatched to my guitar its one of the few things i enjoyed doing in life

collar is also a good idea i might take mine as well but it doesn't have any special symbolism to it
 
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InfatuatedLove

End begets Becoming
Jul 16, 2026
20
i think i'd probably want to keep my estrogen, be wearing one of my jfashion coords, have my box cutter, and also my guitar!! im very attatched to my guitar its one of the few things i enjoyed doing in life

collar is also a good idea i might take mine as well but it doesn't have any special symbolism to it
sounds super cute
 
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Braindead Girl

Braindead Girl

Alice (she/her)
Jul 16, 2026
44
sounds super cute
Honestly i want my corpse to look super cute so i'll put on my prettiest dress and makeup and i hope whoever discovers my body thinks of me as a girl when they see it
 
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InfatuatedLove

End begets Becoming
Jul 16, 2026
20
Honestly i want my corpse to look super cute so i'll put on my prettiest dress and makeup and i hope whoever discovers my body thinks of me as a girl when they see it
sounds lovely af!!!
 
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Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless Doll
Apr 20, 2023
200
Honestly i want my corpse to look super cute so i'll put on my prettiest dress and makeup and i hope whoever discovers my body thinks of me as a girl when they see it
i also want my corpse to look really pretty lol, glad i'm not the only one,,
 
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mutsu

mutsu

wanna get zappy?
May 17, 2026
96
Honestly i want my corpse to look super cute so i'll put on my prettiest dress and makeup and i hope whoever discovers my body thinks of me as a girl when they see it
same here,,, i wish to be pretty even in death, it matters a lot to me

i hope whoever has to discover my corpse at the very least does not have to look at something ugly

oh also side note but i think its funny how many people there are on here with mizuki profile pictures

my beloved mizuki akiyama ive cosplayed her quite a few times
 
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Braindead Girl

Alice (she/her)
Jul 16, 2026
44
same here,,, i wish to be pretty even in death, it matters a lot to me

i hope whoever has to discover my corpse at the very least does not have to look at something ugly

oh also side note but i think its funny how many people there are on here with mizuki profile pictures

my beloved mizuki akiyama ive cosplayed her quite a few times
Yes i love Mizuki sm i'll have my ita bag of her with me when i go and maybe i could wear the cosplay i have too and like my first cutter is decorated with stickers of her too
 
mutsu

mutsu

wanna get zappy?
May 17, 2026
96
Yes i love Mizuki sm i'll have my ita bag of her with me when i go and maybe i could wear the cosplay i have too and like my first cutter is decorated with stickers of her too
omg wait i have an ita bag of her too!! i'm also going to bring it when i go <3
 
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Braindead Girl

Braindead Girl

Alice (she/her)
Jul 16, 2026
44
omg wait i have an ita bag of her too!! i'm also going to bring it when i go <3
I would dm you a pic of my ita bag if i had access to the feature rn but yes it's a essential item :3
 
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slowlybreaking

I couldn't save you...
Jul 9, 2026
35
All the gifts my boyfriend gave me, and a plushie I intended to buy for him but by the time I had money I wasn't sure due to us being no contact at the time. I'm definitely going with his shirt on, too.
 
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100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

forever sorry
Jul 6, 2026
102
honestly should i have given this more thought, i didn't really think about it the first time. i did choose to put on a citrine bracelet that my mom bought for me, she told me it's for good luck or something and that citrine is really hard to find. i thought about bringing the rosary that my mom hung on my bedroom door but i decided to just leave it there.
 
broken serenity

broken serenity

Student
Sep 26, 2025
155
Having my estrogen with me sounds kinda nice. A lil bottle of Valerate on a necklace would be cute.
 
meowpuppy

meowpuppy

valerie | she/they | puppygirl
Jul 11, 2026
284
aside from my plush kuromi, and maybe my plush my melody, if i can find her.. i'll probably be reading a book while i die, so i'll also have that on my person. aside from that, i don't have many material things that i enjoy. oh, and obviously i'll be wearing a dress lol.
 
burninghill

burninghill

Specialist
Dec 2, 2025
397
I always have the stuff on me that I don't want my parents to find by default. So, razor blades, my notebook, cigarettes, DXM and DPH, I'll probably also carry ibuprofen and paracetamol aswell as alcohol.

When I had interests I was very into sonic and I had imagined carrying all of my plushies and action figures in a bag with me haha. I'm not sure if I'll bring anything sentimental with me. I have a hard time walking as it is so my bag has to be light. If I could choose something, though, I'd probably take Serious Weakness or The Last Days of Judas Iscariot because I love those books.
 
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