Discussion Anyone else wants to leave a "pretty corpse"?

[Young]

This sounds pretty stupid, but I like the idea of people finding a "healthy" corpse. I will try my best to lose weight. Take care of my skin, everything. If I'm dead it shouldn't matter, but still.

Worst case scenario, I'm going to be in better shape.

 

[TheHolySword]

I want to look pretty and at peace.

 

[cherrypitlover03]

No, I get what you mean. I literally want to get a tattoo before I die that says "die young, leave a beautiful corpse -Alison Dilaurentis", a quote from my favorite show Pretty Little Liars. Why not, right? Part of the reason I want to die is because I feel like I'll only be more worthless to men as I get older, so I might as well be remembered as a pretty 21 year old. And in the meantime, I'm obsessed with skincare, haircare etc just because its fun and nothing else brings me joy LOL. but you're definitely not alone

 

[harlow-paige]

honestly, same. it's one thing that's really stopping me from going through with anything; not having an accessible clean "pretty" method. i basically survive (barely) by constantly masking and keeping up my curated personas and throwing that away just fills me with a dread that everything i've done has been pointless, even more than usual

 

[j.rez729]

I would actually use this as an opportunity to analyze what attachments you may still have to this life. If you're concerned with how you look while dead, you're still closely attached to people's opinions (IMO) so perhaps you're not yet ready. Not that it's my place to tell you that you're not ready, but I mean, the chances of completing when someone is still actively and frequently thinking of what others think of them seems pretty low. There will continue to be something within you that isn't ready to depart yet - some people always have an audience in their head, whether it's an imaginary individual or individuals, which are typically versions of real people they know, and often even when not conscious of it the wannabe suicider will feel a pull in some way shape or form to stay here due to that mindset. Be radically honest with yourself. I have worked hard to get rid of this tendency. I have radically forced myself to stop caring what others think and it's to a point that I'm wearing sweatpants in public, something I never thought I'd do, lol. Being ready most likely isn't a "pretty" site, but it's the best launch pad and IMO involves completely letting go of caring about others' opinions. It's a good first step at least.

 

[LukaParrot]

I liked the idea,.... but wait.... exercises, better body, it can kill my depression....

PS: Sorry... black humor.... exercises always help and you can fit in a cloth you want to be dressed.... i'm sooooorrrrry.... my mind is very dark today.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I have feelings about this too. I don't want to traumatize people.

 

[abndnd33990]

That's what I like about SN. Hanging, gunshot, train and jumping leaves a terrible mess that'll traumatize whoever finds you. With SN you look somewhat normal. Of course it'll still be traumatizing, seeing someone dead always affects people's psyche.

But besides that, I want to die with makeup on, in my favorite shirt, in bed. I want to look and be comfortable. I want to lose some weight before I do it but that's not something I have to do. It'd be nice if could but I'll be fine if I don't. I just want the person who finds me to see that I'm at peace.

 

[RosebyAnyName]

Not at all. People finding me "pretty" and "attractive" is what traumatized me. I hate the so-called "positive" attention people gave me. I wish everyone would just stop looking at me forever. My most ideal method would be to physically disappear completely.

 

[ugly777]

I really wish I would look as though I were merely sleeping when I ctb.

 

[FindingVeritas]

Currently on a diet for my death lmao
I distinctly remember reading "Die young, make a pretty corpse" while playing one of the Doodle God of all games when I was 9 and deciding it was a motto I wanted to live by. Even back then I knew I'd probably wind up taking my own life and had been fantasizing about it, so reading that quote really struck me. I'm pretty sure I wrote it in a few suicide notes.

I'm even going to fast a few days leading up to the day I ctb so I can minimize what I'm going to be expelling from myself once I'm just meat. I'm more than likely not going to have many people at my burial, but my face should be covered with the burial shroud (i don't think my face will be very pretty after I've hung myself, and my confidence has never recovered after breaking a front tooth so I don't mind) so all that I'll be is a silhouette under cotton.

 

[_Gollum_]

I used to want this but lately I've actually been wanting to be fat and ugly when I die just to spite everyone. Maybe get them to reflect on how ugly people are invisible and uncared for in society.

 

[Pryras]

killing myself is an escape from living in a world where I'm objectified and treated differently / perceived better for how I look. I won't be dressing up or looking good for anyone to find me

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Part of the reason I want to die is because I feel like I'll only be more worthless to men as I get older, so I might as well be remembered as a pretty 21 year old.

Who the fuck gives a shit about what men think? Who the fuck gives a shit about what anyone thinks? You shouldn't base your worth on men and their opinions on you, especially since their opinions on you will vary since men aren't some sort of monolith. The types of men who see you as worthless for being older are the types of men who would still feel the same way about you at your current age. If your worth to others is completely dependent on both your age and attractiveness then you were never really worth much to them to begin with. You were never a person in their eyes, only an object. If they saw you as someone with worth then that would be due to who you are as a person, not due to your age or beauty.

 

[J&L383]

I want to look pretty and at peace.

Me too. Of course that's why people spend a lot of money on embalmers and mortician makeup when there's an open casket.