Anyone else want a suicidal partner?

[Cepi]

Someone that can be there during the dark times and won't make you feel ashamed of your suicidal ideation, but also being able to relate to your situation. Never hiding anything and just being who you are with them and also helping them during their dark times too. Just having a reliable support system that isn't bias but just objective about your situations and accepts our lives for what they are and what we can do in the meantime. That sounds beautiful to me. Anyone else crave that?

 

[Sad Avocado]

This is the description of a good partner. Someone that will be always here for you no matter what

 

[CW36]

That's the best of life and what anyone would want. Ironically, if you found said person, you'd probably suspend the idea of catching the bus indefinitely..

 

[venin]

Someone that can be there during the dark times and won't make you feel ashamed of your suicidal ideation, but also being able to relate to your situation. Never hiding anything and just being who you are with them and also helping them during their dark times too. Just having a reliable support system that isn't bias but just objective about your situations and accepts our lives for what they are and what we can do in the meantime. That sounds beautiful to me. Anyone else crave that?

I don't know if I would still wanna die if I would find that

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

That's the best of life and what anyone would want. Ironically, if you found said person, you'd probably suspend the idea of catching the bus indefinitely..

but depend, i falled in love already.. so its valid for people who are not in love with someone

 

[CW36]

but depend, i falled in love already.. so its valid for people who are not in love with someone

You mean you have in the past or you're in love now? I see. Well I think it would help in ever way regardless. However, that bond would have to be super strong to trust having anyone by your side at the actual attempt.

 

[Unattainable666]

Someone that can be there during the dark times and won't make you feel ashamed of your suicidal ideation, but also being able to relate to your situation. Never hiding anything and just being who you are with them and also helping them during their dark times too. Just having a reliable support system that isn't bias but just objective about your situations and accepts our lives for what they are and what we can do in the meantime. That sounds beautiful to me. Anyone else crave that?

I understand what you are looking for - I'm searching for the same thing but to be quite honest I don't think it exists.

 

[daydreamer52]

Someone that can be there during the dark times and won't make you feel ashamed of your suicidal ideation, but also being able to relate to your situation. Never hiding anything and just being who you are with them and also helping them during their dark times too. Just having a reliable support system that isn't bias but just objective about your situations and accepts our lives for what they are and what we can do in the meantime. That sounds beautiful to me. Anyone else crave that?

I crave for that as well, one of the main reasons of why I decided to register in this site was for interacting with other people that may feel the same way as I feel and eventually finding someone with that same description, maybe if I had someone in my life to care about and who cares about me I wouldn't feel the need to ctb.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

You mean you have in the past or you're in love now? I see. Well I think it would help in ever way regardless. However, that bond would have to be super strong to trust having anyone by your side at the actual attempt.

It was an unrequited love, but i loved only her and i still do

 

[meltskelt]

Someone that can be there during the dark times and won't make you feel ashamed of your suicidal ideation, but also being able to relate to your situation. Never hiding anything and just being who you are with them and also helping them during their dark times too. Just having a reliable support system that isn't bias but just objective about your situations and accepts our lives for what they are and what we can do in the meantime. That sounds beautiful to me. Anyone else crave that?

I have someone like that ( kind of) and its really good. I like that I can just tell them about how fucking bad my mind is and everything because they have the same feeling. The problem comes when they keep telling how we need to keep going and then they too want to die... I just can't say " hey, you need to be alive too" but yeah, if you find someone like that take good care of them!!!!

 

[CW36]

It was an unrequited love, but i loved only her and i still do

Love is the best feeling on earth, but by God it can break your heart harder than anything else.

 

[dingo2345]

I do have that. Since I have no personal contacts I sometimes have that idea that I just pay a prostitute to play videogames with me. Just until the end. Then I could have some memory I could take into my death. In reality it would probably turn out horrible.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Love is the best feeling on earth, but by God it can break your heart harder than anything else.

yes exactly probably even if i didn't get traumatizzed this much by life, and she didn't hate me.. i would still do it because i can't force her to love me

 

[CW36]

yes exactly probably even if i didn't get traumatizzed this much by life, and she didn't hate me.. i would still do it because i can't force her to love me

Is there any possibility things could change? Is that what you hold out hope for, or are you 100% committed now?

 

[Sarros]

Yes, but I would settle for just an irl friend that is suicidal, just to have someone that I can talk to that understands.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Is there any possibility things could change? Is that what you hold out hope for, or are you 100% committed now?

No thing can't change, im hopeless right now

 

[CW36]

No thing can't change, im hopeless right now

I see. Do you have a plan?

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I see. Do you have a plan?

Probably i will do full hanging

 

[CW36]

Probably i will do full hanging

Same. Smart choice.

 

[eashanm]

If you're looking for someone to talk to, you can hit me up. I'm bored these days as I relax before my ctb in a few months.

 

[Cepi]

I don't know if I would still wanna die if I would find that

I'm fucking hopepless then

 

[Ambivalent1]

To die holding hands in locked embrace while crashing toward the earth. Orgasmic

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I want a partner that will CTB with me. We would encourage each other to do it. To sit in the tent with me and help me go though with it.

 

[CantTurnBack]

Perhaps it would be worth referencing the Partners Megathread and Recovery Partners Megathread, if that's something that interests you.

 

[Done_Surviving]

With all due respect no. I do want everything you described, but I assure that you won't find that on a suicidal person, those traits are from compasionate and mature people that knows how to handle their own emotions and helps you get trought yours and is able to see the bright side of things. If I ever get a suicidal partner I think it would get toxic pretty quickly, we would start to "compare pain" to seee who "has it worse", we would bring each other down constantly and if either one of us gets a good day the other would not hesitate to use a trigger to tear the other apart emotionally. We would just both be completly misserable together before commiting suicide. If you want love, find it in hopes to have something so beautiful it makes you want to keep living, not something so tragic and painful it makes death seem like a sweet release.

 

[ipmanwc0]

With all due respect no. I do want everything you described, but I assure that you won't find that on a suicidal person, those traits are from compasionate and mature people that knows how to handle their own emotions and helps you get trought yours and is able to see the bright side of things. If I ever get a suicidal partner I think it would get toxic pretty quickly, we would start to "compare pain" to seee who "has it worse", we would bring each other down constantly and if either one of us gets a good day the other would not hesitate to use a trigger to tear the other apart emotionally. We would just both be completly misserable together before commiting suicide. If you want love, find it in hopes to have something so beautiful it makes you want to keep living, not something so tragic and painful it makes death seem like a sweet release.

No one ever said anything about love.

 

[Pyxel]

100% ctb with a platonic partner puts me at ease.

 

[passivethought121]

I always imagine something like this. Being with someone who's just as tired of living and we'd CTB together or at least assist each other with our own.

 

[girlwithflaxenhair0]

Someone that can be there during the dark times and won't make you feel ashamed of your suicidal ideation, but also being able to relate to your situation. Never hiding anything and just being who you are with them and also helping them during their dark times too. Just having a reliable support system that isn't bias but just objective about your situations and accepts our lives for what they are and what we can do in the meantime. That sounds beautiful to me. Anyone else crave that?

ugh that sounds SO beautiful i rly wish i had someone like that honestly having someone like that would be amazing and maybe probably enough to convince me not to ctb,,,

now im sad that i dont have that T-T

 

[ipmanwc0]

ugh that sounds SO beautiful i rly wish i had someone like that honestly having someone like that would be amazing and maybe probably enough to convince me not to ctb,,,

now im sad that i dont have that T-T

Thats what the partner megathread is for