anyone else wanna cbt bc of a specific person

[schatzbunny]

he ruined my life. the main and only reason i want to die is because i don't want to live with what he did and see him move on in his life and be happy. its too painful. i wanted to live.
im feeling way too emotional right now. if i had the means to do my cbt method i would right fucking now. i hate having to live with this feeling

 

[reki_haibane]

FUCK them fuck everyone else fuck this life and people in it .... I don't know if I even hate myself or the people or my life... Or even if I am just confused I don't know..... I hate it but I will not let pathetic sick people ruin me... I don't know

 

[LakeMungoGirl]

Yes. My mom ruined my life and she isn't even the least bit sorry. It's fucking evil beyond my comprehension.

 

[moonlightbeach]

many such cases. i believe i saw a study once that went over 550 suicides and 40% of the deceased had relationship issues in the past 3 months. i'm sorry that happened to you, you only deserve the best and i hope you find peace.

 

[schatzbunny]

many such cases. i believe i saw a study once that went over 550 suicides and 40% of the deceased had relationship issues in the past 3 months. i'm sorry that happened to you, you only deserve the best and i hope you find peace.

the urge to leave this man the most hateful gut wrenching suicide letter is high

Yes. My mom ruined my life and she isn't even the least bit sorry. It's fucking evil beyond my comprehension.

how can they do this to us and not even feel guilty:(

 

[moonlightbeach]

the urge to leave this man the most hateful gut wrenching suicide letter is high

heyyy i'm leaving my family one of those!! i hope they get to suffer at least 1% of what i suffered. i don't care about moral things anymore. i hate them so much i wish i could run away out of country.

 

[schatzbunny]

heyyy i'm leaving my family one of those!! i hope they get to suffer at least 1% of what i suffered. i don't care about moral things anymore. i hate them so much i wish i could run away out of country.

its okay to not care about being moral at this point. i was initially going to leave a soft note not necessarily pointing to anyone but honestly why should i have to lie, even in my death? just for the sake of the one who pushed me to this?

 

[gunmetalblue11]

Maybe immature of me, but the urge to ctb on my abusers birthday, so that he will never be able to forget me or what he has done is extremely tempting.

I'm sorry you are left in pain like this. I wish you find peace.

 

[LakeMungoGirl]

how can they do this to us and not even feel guilty:(

Man idk :( she sees the damage she wrought yet completely refuses to acknowledge it, even has the audacity to say I'm faking the disabilities SHE caused. It's insanity.

 

[schatzbunny]

Maybe immature of me, but the urge to ctb on my abusers birthday, so that he will never be able to forget me or what he has done is extremely tempting.

I'm sorry you are left in pain like this. I wish you find peace.

idk how much maturity matters when you're literally killing yourself. if you can, do it. he should get that yearly reminder. i can't wait another year as his bday was in this month itself.

 

[moonlightbeach]

i was initially going to leave a soft note not necessarily pointing to anyone but honestly why should i have to lie, even in my death? just for the sake of the one who pushed me to this?

i totally get that!!!! i failed an attempt earlier this year and all i left was a soft note basically saying "i feel bad this world sucks for me" but stretch it over 200 words, only talking about family twice. this time i'm going to give everyone a lesson on how they treated me wrong and common misconceptions about suicide and that we arent obliged to stay alive and that its our choice etc etc etc. i'm really curious how many people are gonna unfollow me and stop being friends with me after i post something like that :P (posting it before ctb just as a blog post)

Maybe immature of me, but the urge to ctb on my abusers birthday, so that he will never be able to forget me or what he has done is extremely tempting.

i love this idea

 

[Claymore7274]

Yes, my big bro, he's always expecting better of me, he wants me to be a successful person like him, and that's okay but he always comes to berate me and humiliate me in front of my family, as the perfect son he is no one bats an eye. He's coming to visit in the weekend and i wanna die so bad.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

Mmmmm. No. That's giving too much power to a person. While the most important people in my life have hurt me, they aren't the reason I'm catching the bus. They factor into my decision, though. People make the world, and the people in my life made it shitty.

 

[lawlietsph]

he is not the main cause of my mental illnesses, i was always suicidal even before i knew him, but he made everything 10x worse. because he gave me hope for a very short period of time.

now i am left with a giant heartbreak that doesn't seem to heal, eventho 9 months has passed.
and he is living his best life, my existence probably never crossing his mind.

 

[ih34rty0u]

yeah, i wanna ctb because of my former best friend. he hurt me so much but i can't live without him. i have no one else left now.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

humans are evil

another reason for me to leave this hell

but i will surpass every human as i go into Non-existence forever .

i will be unable to suffer extremely while all alive humans and animals can suffer extreme torture

they all have to get up and suffer deal with this nightmare called life and this evil world . i won't

we all will die but i won't have to suffer decades as i can skip that torture. i wouldn't even want to exist one second in this hell even if there were no pain but much less with all the extreme torture possible.

everything dies as the universe is Entropy . one of the few certaintities are Death and eternal Non-existence after Death.

everything goes to disorder as the universe is Entropy. all including the universe will die

 

[schatzbunny]

he is not the main cause of my mental illnesses, i was always suicidal even before i knew him, but he made everything 10x worse. because he gave me hope for a very short period of time.

now i am left with a giant heartbreak that doesn't seem to heal, eventho 9 months has passed.
and he is living his best life, my existence probably never crossing his mind.

sounds like we r in pretty similar situations. i hope you find peace.