onceuponadec
I am a poor wayfaring stranger
- Dec 23, 2022
- 107
Yup I'm hanging on to that hope that I can get some soon. I also promised my sister the stay until her child is born.
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Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,072
I wouldn't wait around for N, it may never be available again. I'd just go with a "Plan B" if you have one.
Venus13
Experienced
- Oct 2, 2022
- 233
Losing N was top 3 worst events of my year. I really wanted it for the suicide I've always wanted. I have sn too. I'll just say I'm grateful for it but not at peace.
I have sn but damn all those failed threads keep me alive. I hate it
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,072
I understand your concerns. But, honestly, there have been more threads indicating success than unsuccess. And, personally, I believe the latest threads indicating unsuccess are very suspicious, to say the least. But, I do get your concern.
LittleBlackCat
Specialist
- Feb 6, 2020
- 316
LaVieEnRose
Angelic
- Jul 23, 2022
- 4,391
Even if a dealer appears it'll still be expensive (who knows if even more so) and there'll still be a real risk of never receiving it as well as legal trouble.
MountainMonkey
Student
- Jun 17, 2022
- 138
I log on routinely and search for N threads. Nothing. My stomach turns with the feelings of helplessness and anger. Seems like it's an unattainable solution. I'm tired of being forced to suffer
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 44,147
At least you have the SN by your side, I think that those with SN are lucky as after all it's a reliable method that so many have ctb with, but I really do understand the wish for N. It sounds so ideal having the option of N and at least to me peacefully passing away would be the best thing possible, I would leave this world as soon as possible if I had it and I so envy those with N. It's tragic how we are denied it, and cannot get it legally in the first place.
I read about someone in my country receiving a wellness check after managing to get N, so I know that N would never be an option for me unless there is some form of legal euthanasia available. I think that if I had the SN I would probably go with that, I mean N sounds way better of course, but even if N is available it sounds complicated and risky trying to obtain it. But I'm so tired of this pro suffering world that makes it as difficult as possible for us to die, of course a peaceful exit from this life should be a human right and we shouldn't have to struggle so much in finding ways to die.
I read about someone in my country receiving a wellness check after managing to get N, so I know that N would never be an option for me unless there is some form of legal euthanasia available. I think that if I had the SN I would probably go with that, I mean N sounds way better of course, but even if N is available it sounds complicated and risky trying to obtain it. But I'm so tired of this pro suffering world that makes it as difficult as possible for us to die, of course a peaceful exit from this life should be a human right and we shouldn't have to struggle so much in finding ways to die.
Never Alive
Death is like the wind, always by my side
- Nov 22, 2022
- 125
I'm waiting as well(more so delaying the inevitable but hoping a peaceful way out will come my way) but just having SN would already put me at ease.
Nitrogen set up been a go for months, its waiting for me, not scared to use it at all, just waiting for the right time
SN is the poor man's N, no one with a choice would go for the former. No failed N threads as far as I know of, plenty of SN horror stories though
LittleBlackCat
Specialist
- Feb 6, 2020
- 316
I don't think so. But it's a possibility in Peru (according to most recent pph). Can't imagine travelling all that way and not being able to get it, though. That would be so awful.
I'm planning to use opiates which are just as peaceful and killed 100000 people last year
