Anyone else utterly disgusted with their bodies?

[kissmegoodbye]

i really hate how i look too, i feel just so fat and like my proportions are off when i look in the mirror and my face looks so distorted and different everytime, i hate my body and ive tried to fix it my losing some weight, i know i am underweight but i just don't look it.. i wish i didn't have this body

 

[greebo6]

Yes, absolutely .

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I hear you. My body has never been all that but post childbirth/breastfeeding it hit new lows. I'm overweight and could change that but eating what I want feels like the only reliable pleasure I actually have. Do I deny myself that and have nothing?
As for my face, well I'm 50 now so I have thread veins and frown lines. My nostrils are so huge I look like I have a coke habit. Now also having dental problems too that affect my smile.

 

[Orc]

I used to dislike my big nose (since I was always bullied for it when I was younger by my family members and by other kids in school), which took a toll on my self-esteem growing up, getting a rhinoplasty used to be a dream for me (until I decided to develop thicker skin and stopped caring about what others thought of my nose).

Facially I wouldn't call myself attractive but not extremely ugly either (my nose fucks up the rest of my otherwise decent features).

My body overall is decent (I'm not overweight nor underweight, don't have many health issues either except for two: I suffer from myopia and occasional heart pains (even as a kid I've had heart pains, just never told anyone about them in real life).

I also wished I was taller (I'm around 5'8-5'9", my dream height is 6'3") I've never been called short, but I've never been called tall either.

 

[dragonofenvy]

I hate looking at the bruises under my eyes I've had since I was 8 and how sunken they look. How pale my face is. How no matter how much I try I just can't seem to quite get rid of the 5 o'clock shadow my upper lip and chin have.

I've been called short (I am 5'9", average male height, and taller than 90% of the world, yet people in the US think if you're not in the top 5% of height you're short for some reason), scrawny, weak. My friends called me emaciated and that I looked like a meth-head when I finally felt the courage for the first time in my life to come out of my shell and show people what I looked like. I've received 1 compliment about my appearance in my entire lifetime when I was 12 as we were washing our hands before school lunch. Yep, it's really true what they say about how guys always remember what girls say about them for life.

Given the standards people have for beauty (remember what I said about average male height being short?) I don't see any point in doing anything because it's standards I'll never fulfill. Plus I don't know how to change my face to make it look better but if anyone knows hit me up. In a weird way, knowing that I'll never meet the standards liberated me. I just don't really care what people think. I'm ugly, they think I'm ugly, and that's really about it.

"I'm ugly and I'm proud" -Spongebob

 

[untothedepths]

im ugly af but now personally im well passed the point of caring. i throw clothes on this corpse because people dont want to see anyone naked at the very least. i would prefer to go bald, but thats not socially acceptable (still have to bullshit for others)

 

[LukaParrot]

I dont know why i'm telling you this but...

I worked with a woman in a big company, she worked hard, was very good at her work.

She accepted dating a divorced guy, this guy was like 45yo, treat her bad and his children too.

She thought that... she was very ugly, she was very fat. I think she take out the frustrations of love by eating.

After 10-15 years, I met her again. She started to do diet and exercites, took a long time but she did when there is still time. She has a very beautiful face now and very nice body. That was not easy.

If you are disguted with yourself, in terms of body, it will depend on you to work out.

My advice is try, soon as possible. I know it's hard when your mind doesnt work well. But when it's too late, you wasted the best years of your life.

 

[ClippedWings]

Ya, my spine raped my soul.

 

[NonEssential]

I've had self-esteem problems all my life and always hated when someone took a picture of me. I extremely rarely take a picture of myself. I can't pinpoint exactly what exactly I hate about myself, I just do. One fortunate thing about it is that there's pretty much no pictures of me on the internet.

 

[regular john]

i am genetically different. very small percentage of people are born like that. this is the reason why im here

 

[internetyamero]

yeah, i feel like this most (if not all) days, and it's escalated to the point i hardly ever leave my house. it takes so much work to maintain and take care of a body, and you're telling me i also have to try and make myself look presentable to other people on top of that? maybe in my dreams!

 

[windows7enjoyer]

I see my body as a flesh prison idk

 

[regular john]

i was given different nervous system when compared to other people. Normal people are not born like that. I wish I was like others but I will never be. I am only similiar to normal people. I can't change my genetics. My body works in weird way. It is not like normal body works.

 

[sammiechzxv]

Always

 

[Message In A Bottle]

Ohh I can go on and on about this…

And it's not like I don't try to improve it…I workout, manage my protein intake…etc. But in a hyper sexualized world where there is a certain threshold on female attractiveness, who can compete? I have way too many flaws that are deemed undesirable by those ludicrous standards.

You can't exactly change certain features of your face or make it to where you're more evenly proportioned. Not without surgery…but who can afford that? Surely not a depressed person who can hardly get out of bed in the morning.

 

[cme-dme]

I hate my male features which means I hate most of my body...fun! I just try to avoid looking at mirrors for too long.

 

[Pluto]

 

[CallmeWill4719]

Every time I look at myself in the mirror I'm disgusted that the freak I am. I am so fucking ugly. I don't even want anyone to love me or care about me because I despise myself.
Honestly, the people who don't hate me outright I look at with suspicion, because I am so detestable from the get-go.

yeah often i have to remember it's literally my own fault I'm like this. oh well

 

[Lola18]

Think my face is ugly, tried so many treatments for my acne and I'll always have jawline acne. I miss my anorexic body, and now I'm a fat pig that can't stop stuffing its face. Before I was just depressed and now I'm fat and depressed because of my uncontrollable binge eating.

 

[yellowjester]

I'm only disgusted by my hair. Luckily I'm a guy and can shave it off without getting an weird stares.

 

[monolog]

stop looking yourself at the mirror or taking pictures

 

[Rabscuttle]

Ebbs and flows. Right now I dislike my appearance, as I have lost a lot of weight due to illness. When I'm underweight I notice my 'undesirable' features more, my big nose and chin, tiny eyes, long face, very pale. Trying to practice more inner kindness, as basing my sense of self worth on my physical appearance is a slippery slope, as sooner or later age will catch up to me. It's a tough world, especially with social media and the internet as a whole expanding on the damage that TV and movies and magazines have done in terms of convincing us what is and isn't 'attractive'.

 

[I'm scared]

the only things i like about myself are my green eyes and my long brown hair

For me it's my blue eyes.
My body is burnt from excessive hot water bottles to try soothe the pain in my torso
My face is old and ruined
I did like my body 15 years ago when I was at my happiest,an athlete with the body I wanted.
Deadinside is my gamer tag! And my 38 Yr old son is Billy!

 

[manicstreetbeeper]

i'm not satisfied with my appearance but i'm working on changing it. i gained a ton of weight years ago after an antipsychotic and lost it all. my worst fear is putting it back on so i haven't been eating to maintain my weight and probably won't for awhile. i don't recommend it but for me losing weight is one of my only reasons for living.

 

[sick.faery]

yea, my body is nasty asf. i have a bmi of 25, i'm a bed rotter who almost never sees the sunlight so i have no muscle mass anymore (i'm all flask) and am very very pale, i have stretch marks and cellulite from weight gain, i have a lot of sh scars on my arms that never faded , i have small boobs, i kinda have hip dips, i have slight lines on my neck, tmi but i have an outie..., i'm 5'8 too..

 

[FoxSauce]

All the time. No matter how much I exercise.