violetrot

violetrot

Member
Jan 23, 2023
17
A lot of my suicidal ideations are based on morality. If I find myself being a bad person I feel much more deserving of not just death but a painful one. Ever since my depression has come to light and my family has reached out, I have failed them. I’ve gone from wanting to die peacefully and quietly to wanting to be brutally murdered. I’m scared. There’s a small part of me who’s still an innocent and confused kid who just wants to be a good person. She’s scared and feels like she doesn’t deserve to die, but if I don’t kill her I can’t get rid of myself. I’m scared.
 
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SamTam33

Warlock
Oct 9, 2022
728
I wouldn't necessarily say that I don't deserve one, but it's likely that I won't receive one.

If I could manfiest peace in death, then I'd just as soon manifest it in life.

I see it as highly unlikely, therefore it's not something I spend time longing for.

I'll take death in any form. Death is my goal. Peace and pain-free is optional. Not required.
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
649
If life and other people have been monsters to us, the least we deserve is a problem free passing.
 
theboy

theboy

Enlightened
Jul 15, 2022
1,818
It makes sense. However, you are a sweet person who is suffering unjustly. A peaceful death
 
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Envixit0

Envixit0

Still cleaning up the viruses you had left
Feb 6, 2023
112
We all deserve a painless, peaceful death. We've walked through hell enough to be entitled to such.
 
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RYOKAN

Member
Mar 15, 2023
6
The thing to bear in mind is you didn't choose to be born. Your parents brought you into this world, so like anybody else you deserve to either live or die in peace. I don't understand why you would want to die a horrible death. Is it because you can't forgive yourself for something you might have done?
 
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PoisonousPotato

Member
Feb 1, 2023
33
i really don't think i deserve a peaceful death. i think that if hell is real there's a place for me there. not sure how to explain why tho.
 
Kanashii

Kanashii

Somehow living, not dead yet.
Mar 16, 2023
18
If it wasn't up to me, I don't think I deserve a peaceful death. There's too many bad things I've done which make me not worthy of just dying as peaceably as possible.
 
Akira Tendou

Akira Tendou

Student
Mar 9, 2023
108
I want my ctb to be as gruesome and bloody as it can be. But I guess I can't because I'm scared of pain