
violetrot
Member
- Jan 23, 2023
- 17
A lot of my suicidal ideations are based on morality. If I find myself being a bad person I feel much more deserving of not just death but a painful one. Ever since my depression has come to light and my family has reached out, I have failed them. I’ve gone from wanting to die peacefully and quietly to wanting to be brutally murdered. I’m scared. There’s a small part of me who’s still an innocent and confused kid who just wants to be a good person. She’s scared and feels like she doesn’t deserve to die, but if I don’t kill her I can’t get rid of myself. I’m scared.