I have been struggling with anhedonia for 4 years now , I believe I got it from psych meds or something else I did ,i dunno for sure , but i have it and it's the worst thing ever ,I used to enjoy life to the fullest, now nothing is enjoyable anymore, I have lost all my abilities and talents, like for example i used to sing and play guitar , right now I cant even do that , my sex drive is also like zero , cant enjoy anything anymore, to make things even more worse , I have no one to talk to, everyone has given up on me including my family and friends, because they have no idea what's going on with me , they think I'm normal , but only I know the struggle with anhedonia, its hell , to make things even more worse I cant find the motivation to ctb even , I dunno how I am supposed to live another 50 years or something like this , I'm only 25 now , anyone else with anhedonia? If so how do you people cope with life ?
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Yes, last year I experienced anhedonia and I thought I would never get over it.
Thus, I started looking for every possible new hobby and interest I could find and fortunately, I found out that I was very interested in learning more languages. I'm learning japanese and portuguese now and having fun by learning motivated me to do more stuff such as working again and try to save some money to visit Japan.
It's easier said than done but I think that's the only way to be interested in "life" again. Still, I might ctb someday but for now, I'll live.
However, a life without goals and activities you enjoy is not a life at all.
Anyway, you're really young. I hope you can get out from the anhedonia zone someday. You don't deserve to feel this way. There are so many things to do!
Thus, I started looking for every possible new hobby and interest I could find and fortunately, I found out that I was very interested in learning more languages. I'm learning japanese and portuguese now and having fun by learning motivated me to do more stuff such as working again and try to save some money to visit Japan.
It's easier said than done but I think that's the only way to be interested in "life" again. Still, I might ctb someday but for now, I'll live.
However, a life without goals and activities you enjoy is not a life at all.
Anyway, you're really young. I hope you can get out from the anhedonia zone someday. You don't deserve to feel this way. There are so many things to do!
BeansOfRequirement
Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,801
Hell ya, I gots the 'donia. It makes me have to use a lot of willpower and calculation to arrive at things to do, although there are some exceptions (gym, food). Once I just stood in the kitchen for an hour straight since I didn't get any signals to do anything lol.
Yep its horrible. I struggle with it. So much so that death seams more inviting than living. An absolutely evil illness.
I'm definitely experiencing anhedonia. I get absolutely no joy out of life anymore. I'm much older than you, 59, and it feels like I'll never be able to pull myself out of this deep dark pit I've dug myself into. You're still young and there may still be hope for you if you have the strength and resiliency to overcome it.
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NotHuman
Member
- Jul 8, 2018
- 43
Even eating food is a chore requiring Herculean effort. The worst part of it is how totally it isolates you from the human race. Healthy, normal people who never had to question a single thing in their lives just tell you that you haven't "found" your "thing" yet and to just keep flailing yourself against brick walls and toiling pointlessly until you encounter this gamechanger as if God were hiding Easter eggs and thought it'd be funny to put your secret passion for macramé or collecting medieval travel manuscripts under a rock in the Gobi Desert.
It's maddening how few people understand that motivation just does not work this way! No normal person had to embark on an epic journey to figure out what in life interested them, they just naturally gravitated towards trends readily available within their immediate cultural vicinity. No normal person achieved authentic joy and relationships from faking it and forcing themselves to memorize trivia in order to ingratiate themselves to others, they instead became trend-setters and formed up their own social bubbles with others who got caught up in their passions.
It's maddening how few people understand that motivation just does not work this way! No normal person had to embark on an epic journey to figure out what in life interested them, they just naturally gravitated towards trends readily available within their immediate cultural vicinity. No normal person achieved authentic joy and relationships from faking it and forcing themselves to memorize trivia in order to ingratiate themselves to others, they instead became trend-setters and formed up their own social bubbles with others who got caught up in their passions.
EmbraceOfTheVoid
Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
- Mar 29, 2020
- 689
I've been anhedonic as far back as I can remember thanks to being traumatized. The only thing that gives me genuine pleasure is ASMR and even that's a rare occurrence.
It's a meaningless and empty existence is what it is. I'm pretty sure if I could give my anhedonia and the rest of my issues to a normie for a day that they'd steer their car into incoming traffic by the end of of it.
It's a meaningless and empty existence is what it is. I'm pretty sure if I could give my anhedonia and the rest of my issues to a normie for a day that they'd steer their car into incoming traffic by the end of of it.
Yes - exactly the same for me, but not related to meds. 35 years of emotional abuse from my wife has finally numbed me completely. I can't even feel sadness or resentment anymore, just no feelings at all. I used to make music, be a very good engineer, build things, etc. Now, I'm just a puddle of goo.
Makko
Iä!
- Jan 17, 2021
- 2,430
I have it. I think that's what I have? I've always felt this way so I have nothing to compare to.
I do things through willpower alone, disregarding what I feel and don't feel about them.
I do things through willpower alone, disregarding what I feel and don't feel about them.
Celerity
shape without form, shade without colour
- Jan 24, 2021
- 2,729
Yes, but it's not as extreme as it was during the worst year of my life. Even when I was a kid, I just didn't get the same joy from life as everyone else. Even good things were just OK and something I could take or leave. When I was completely anhedonic and lost 40 lbs in 6 months because even food didn't taste good anymore, I was the closest I have ever come to catching the bus. I wish I had then. I had the strongest will for it. Took so many risks with my health and safety.
LonelyBrazilian
Just a boring guy.
- Oct 21, 2021
- 180
If you guys need any help with portuguese just PM me, i can help.
Yes!! Work, educate, stabilize = peace to some extent. Not as fearful, anxious or depressed. Exercise, healthy food, vitamins. Cleaning your body of toxins. Progress. Always progress or tumble down a hole with no ability to comprehend digging out
estou doente e pobre, ansiosa, cansado. muito beber.
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Insomniac
𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
- May 21, 2021
- 1,357
sometimes I panic and watch 12h Calculus III videos on youtube.
It's just, idk. the boredom.. it's lethal.
It's just, idk. the boredom.. it's lethal.
ow. i get panic and study compusively, as well.
nothing that difficult.
tax stuff, qa, excel stuff. and afraid to work, cannot find one ;(
nothing that difficult.
tax stuff, qa, excel stuff. and afraid to work, cannot find one ;(
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,358
In my case, I have no interest in living. Everything is boring to me. I cannot enjoy anything. I struggle to concentrate. For me it is like I have already died but I am still breathing. I just spend most of my time wishing I was not here. It is painful to live a empty existence.
That's exactly the same as me. I feel dead. Perhaps we are dead and this is actually hell. It sure feels like hell if hell exists.
meetapple
Mage
- Jun 3, 2021
- 585
same. That's why I enjoy sleeping so much, because it's the closest to not being alive there is
LADY007
Specialist
- Feb 25, 2020
- 373
Yup, I understand fully. I used to ride fast horses, loved ziplines, etc. Since becoming about 60 years old (I am 70 now) a person starts to slow down. I quit riding because my reflexes aren't as fast and didn't want to risk getting hurt. You become much more cautious and that stops you from doing things you used to love. There is an emptiness that comes from losing things and people that you used to make you happy. Used to love kick-boxing but now doing just gym workouts. If you were strong all your life, you had confidence that you could defend yourself (especially women) Now there is an element of concern that wasn't there before. It's an increase in the feeling of vulnerability that is new and uncomfortable.
mackav31i
Member
- Sep 10, 2021
- 6
I am really struggling with this as well I can't feel my emotions, and have no interest
