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almostoutofhere

almostoutofhere

Living in the past
Dec 27, 2022
163
Hoping to ctb in the next couple days as the thought of going into the new year like this repulses me. Hanging being the only method available currently, trying to gather up courage to finally get it over with/find a good location.
 
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Szinuus

Szinuus

I see the bus...I can almost see it
Aug 19, 2022
211
I will wait till the next year because one of my family members has a birthday on 30 th and my best friend on 31 th and I dont want to ruin this with my ctb.
 
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SeenMoreThanEnough

Student
Sep 16, 2022
128
Hoping to ctb in the next couple days as the thought of going into the new year like this repulses me. Hanging being the only method available currently, trying to gather up courage to finally get it over with/find a good location.
If done correctly, whether it's full/partial, you will be 'out' in under 15 seconds. You will pass the point of 'no return' in 3-5 minutes. Make SURE the cord/rope/anchor point does not fail, make SURE you are not found, leave NOTHING to chance, and you will be successful. Good luck.
 
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almostoutofhere

almostoutofhere

Living in the past
Dec 27, 2022
163
If done correctly, whether it's full/partial, you will be 'out' in under 15 seconds. You will pass the point of 'no return' in 3-5 minutes. Make SURE the cord/rope/anchor point does not fail, make SURE you are not found, leave NOTHING to chance, and you will be successful. Good luck.
Even after researching the method quite thoroughly and practicing, my si always kicked in last second and I wasn't able to commit before. However I'm pretty determined to go. All that's left is to find a good location (which is complicated as I don't live alone). But I'm preparing for tonight
 
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Mofreeko

Mofreeko

Arcanist
Apr 7, 2019
478
I've actually been planning to go in the next couple days. I don't want to enter a new year.
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,274
Hoping to ctb in the next couple days as the thought of going into the new year like this repulses me. Hanging being the only method available currently, trying to gather up courage to finally get it over with/find a good location.
I'd love to CTB on the 31st but I'm currently abroad and my SN is at home. I wished I could have brought it with me.
 
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almostoutofhere

almostoutofhere

Living in the past
Dec 27, 2022
163
I'd love to CTB on the 31st but I'm currently abroad and my SN is at home. I wished I could have brought it with me.
I had that date in mind as well, but there's a high chance of being discovered for me, as there's gonna be a lot more people outside then usual.
 
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almostoutofhere

almostoutofhere

Living in the past
Dec 27, 2022
163
SN. I was planning to go in mid september but I've been kicking the can down the road.
I can relate, I was supposed to be gone months ago
 
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tilly17

Member
Dec 23, 2022
67
SN hoping to get the courage before January 4th for my next Dr appointment who's trying to get me to see psychiatrist when I can barely get out of bed. Don't know how I'm going to finally go through with it but I can't go on any longer living this miserable life that physical and mentally will not get better. Been trying to get courage since October. But now times a ticking as my family has medical power of attorney I was tricked into signing to Be put under anesthesia for my fourth feeding tube placement this past year.
I get relieve thinking it all be over soon and it's only a few hours till you pass on, but committing the actual act and prepping everything becomes reality real quick and questioning everything hits hard. How do you get passed this when you know you can't go on any longer?
 
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reverse03

reverse03

Departing. Goodbye
Sep 11, 2022
153
Wanted to go before Christmas and new year. But there's always someone at the house. My mim also took a week off from work so she is always here. Cannot leave the house for a long time without raising alarm and cops being called because I am on high alert after my breakdown last 2 weeks ago.
 
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onceuponadec

onceuponadec

I am a poor wayfaring stranger
Dec 23, 2022
107
I made a promise not to go before June. Every day I think about the sweet bliss that awaits. Hanging on hurts, but my word is my bond.
 
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almostoutofhere

almostoutofhere

Living in the past
Dec 27, 2022
163
I made a promise not to go before June. Every day I think about the sweet bliss that awaits. Hanging on hurts, but my word is my bond.
Out of curiosity, why June?
 
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Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
826
I was planning on going early in the morning (like 1 or 2am) of the 31st. Because of the latest threads regarding a few failures of SN, I'm freaked out. Now I'm afraid that my SN won't be potent enough and am too afraid of failure to go through with it.
SN hoping to get the courage before January 4th for my next Dr appointment who's trying to get me to see psychiatrist when I can barely get out of bed. Don't know how I'm going to finally go through with it but I can't go on any longer living this miserable life that physical and mentally will not get better. Been trying to get courage since October. But now times a ticking as my family has medical power of attorney I was tricked into signing to Be put under anesthesia for my fourth feeding tube placement this past year.
I get relieve thinking it all be over soon and it's only a few hours till you pass on, but committing the actual act and prepping everything becomes reality real quick and questioning everything hits hard. How do you get passed this when you know you can't go on any longer?
You have to have a feeding tube? Oh honey, I'm so sorry that you are suffering. I hope you can find freedom from your pain.
 
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almostoutofhere

almostoutofhere

Living in the past
Dec 27, 2022
163
I was planning on going early in the morning (like 1 or 2am) of the 31st. Because of the latest threads regarding a few failures of SN, I'm freaked out. Now I'm afraid that my SN won't be potent enough and am too afraid of failure to go through with it.
From what I've gathered on this forum, SN failures happen mostly due to being discovered or calling for help. It seems like if you prepare multiple doses in case of vomiting and follow the correct guide posted here you should be successful.
 
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onceuponadec

onceuponadec

I am a poor wayfaring stranger
Dec 23, 2022
107
Out of curiosity, why June?
My sister is having her baby in June. I'm supposed to meet them. I think she's hoping by seeing the baby I might change my mind.
 
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Decided98

Decided98

“All life is a near death experience.”
Dec 27, 2022
210
Can't go to April next year and I'm not fully set up with my SN plan
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
Not me. But I hope next year is my last. I don't know how many times I said that I want X year to be my last.
 
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violetday

violetday

🖤
Nov 30, 2022
439
I would love to go before 2023. Unfortunately I just haven't gotten the courage to do it yet. Unless it's spontaneous I will probably still be here next year. I don't have a date set. Hoping in the next 2-3 months is my time.
 
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tilly17

Member
Dec 23, 2022
67
I was planning on going early in the morning (like 1 or 2am) of the 31st. Because of the latest threads regarding a few failures of SN, I'm freaked out. Now I'm afraid that my SN won't be potent enough and am too afraid of failure to go through with it.

You have to have a feeding tube? Oh honey, I'm so sorry that you are suffering. I hope you can find freedom from your pain.
I was on a feeding tube for 5 months. It came out 4 times and I had to have it put in while awake except the last time as I chocked and pulled it out while they were putting it in. I have no Appetite whatsoever but force food down usually only dinner .. but it's getting harder and harder by the day to keep food down and next time they'll place the tub in my stomach with a peg port to feed through abdomen instead of the nasal passage and I cannot go through that as it's so painful from
What I'm told and I have a spinal pain pump (had a major nerve in pelvis cut when they went to drain an ovarian cyst -so I was bedridden for 12 years till pump gave me back my life for 11 years and then 19 months ago I went into serotonin syndrome and ever since my brain has been so messed up like so have had a stroke or symptoms like MS or ALS but MRI and tests show nothing and the neuros can't find anything . it's caused my body to have stopped responding to any medications opioids, bp pills, anti histamines and pretty much everything we tried. I only sleep 2 hours a night if I'm lucky and that's with heavy sleeping pills. My brain got so messed up after Cymbalta for migraines That didn't (which didn't help). Now I'm just miserable 24/7 without any medicine working. So you can imagine how scared I am to take the SN as I have all the SN, propanolol, tagamet, benzos, meto, phenerghan and zofran for everything including sleeping pills but nothing works for me so I'm scared that I'm going to suffer and throw up 🤢 non stop and wonder if I'll remain conscious longer than most etc… I'm kinda freaking out as I want to and need to just do it in the next few days. I'm so exhausted from not sleeping for months on end, and nothing helps. I just can't bring myself to actually follow through but each day is getting harder and harder to survive.
Planning on Sunday or Monday night. But getting my nerves getting the best of me.
How do you get the guys to go
Through with it when the pain is so bad? My fear of failure is getting to me just as bad as what I'll endure, but I'm determined this has to happen as I can't take anymore.
Anyone got any advice how to push through the fear and just make it happen. I failed twice with tons of opioids, benzodiazepines, and sleeping pills which only made me sleep for 6 days. My family just thought I was sick so I never went to The hospital but ended up with liver damage for several months.
Anyhow looking for some encouragement to finally make it happen this weekend!
My family will be here on New Year's now so I'm thinking of the 1st or 2nd.
I too am afraid after the latest posts of failure but like most say it's that protocols weren't followed.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
I wanted to, but it looks like i will do it afterwards. Oh well, I fulfilled my promise to my mother that i'd stick it out until the end of the year, which i gained nothing from except 70 lbs.
 
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Monkeyman

Monkeyman

Member
Dec 27, 2022
46
I thought about it, but I won't be able to be home alone for enough time to not risk being "saved" until the end of January, which was a bit unexpected. Also don't want to ruin my friends' festivities if I did CTB and they found out right away.
 
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time2fly

time2fly

Cowboy
Dec 20, 2022
82
going nye over here. would love to chat. hit me up
 
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Agon123

Agon123

Member
Sep 26, 2022
27
Yes, tomorrow.
My method is SN.
 
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