Anyone else not want to be dead or alive?

[Trashcan]

I would have preferred to have never been born. The only thing that would make me accept life is if I got to restart but this time I get to write the script for it. Basically get to choose every detail from when and where I was born to when and how I die. Every detail in between. Every detail about the people in my life, etc.

 

[GoingSoonish]

Not be born > dead > alive

 

[Wantingpeace]

Yes i know ..whatnis the other option??

i don't like any of the options. I want pre-birth. Why can't I have stayed there?

 

[Wantingpeace]

Do you ever wonder if you died already, and you're stuck here?

Something really bizarre happened to me 3 yrs ago after drug damage..Something has happened to consciousness..feel stuck totally alone somewhere ..no existence..no people..nothing..feels like limbo..

 

[wanttodie]

I prefer to be dead.

 

[useless]

Something really bizarre happened to me 3 yrs ago after drug damage..Something has happened to consciousness..feel stuck totally alone somewhere ..no existence..no people..nothing..feels like limbo..

It's like you're a ghost, right? You can't touch and feel anything, and it's like you're spectating in a dream, never really there? Do all the people around you seem like dolls?

 

[Wantingpeace]

No i had that before ..Is More bizarre than that..would prefer not to discuss it openly further

 

[Laggy]

Totally and absolutely wish I didn't exist. That would be so much better than committing suicide. No pain to anyone else. It would be perfect, yo.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

It sucks that we have to die (suffer more) to get eternal peace. IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY

What makes you think there's an eternal peace?

 

[Nova]

I would rather never been born.

 

[bayarea]

Yes I kind of wish there was somewhere in between, neither death or life. but i dont know if that's survival instinct though
Im scared to ctb because I dont want to get admitted to a psych hospital and get fined if I fail

 

[Painted Bird]

Fined for (failed) suicide attempt? Do you mean the bill for a psych ward stay or an actual fine?

 

[bayarea]

Fined for (failed) suicide attempt? Do you mean the bill for a psych ward stay or an actual fine?

Bill for psych ward
Ive heard stories of people paying thousands of dollars after being admitted into the ward. there was a story about an Oklahoma man who had a $93000 bill after attempting suicide so I havent told anyone that I am suicidal. it's too risky to be reported to the police or call a hotline

Man shows shocking health care cost of his attempted suicide

An attempt at suicide could cost you more than your life: An Oklahoma man shared an image to Twitter of his one-week, $93,000 hospital bill after an attempt to take his own life. Oliver Jordan, 21,…

nypost.com

 

[Painted Bird]

OK, I get it now. That would be a terrible outcome.

 

[Brainpain]

Perpetually asleep would be ideal. No pain in my sleep and I have a lot of fun dreams

 

[Painted Bird]

Perpetually asleep would be ideal. No pain in my sleep and I have a lot of fun dreams

Good for you. My dreams are no fun at all. Probably should try lucid dreaming training again to gain some control...

 

[Hel]

Being in coma would be good. Until my problems could be solved. So I guess it would be forever because it's impossible to have what I need. But at least I wouldn't be suffering and well, it would be a way to my family and friends to cope with my death step by step. If I could induce one to myself (and no one knew that it was on purpose), I'd do it. I just want to stop suffering.