Anyone else not want to be dead or alive?

[Volatile]

i don't like any of the options. I want pre-birth. Why can't I have stayed there?

 

[Phro]

I'd prefer not to exist.... dead or alive.

 

[Smilla]

Would very much have preferred never to have been born.

My parents thrust me into consciousness and I was just fine without it, as far as I can remember.

To paraphrase Mark Twain "I didn't exist for 3.5 billion years before my birth and didn't suffer any inconvenience for it"

But now, because we are here, the only option left is to either "get life" or "get death". Limbo land is painful—it's a slow death, I'd prefer to get it over with as soon as possible since my suffering is unbearable, my life will no doubt get worse, and death happens to us all—just a matter of time, place, and circumstance.

 

[Volatile]

I

I'd prefer not to exist.... dead or alive.

It sucks that we have to die (suffer more) to get eternal peace. IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY

 

[Volatile]

Would very much have preferred never to have been born.

My parents thrust me into consciousness and I was just fine without it, as far as I can remember.

To paraphrase Mark Twain "I didn't exist for 3.5 billion years before my birth and didn't suffer any inconvenience for it"

But now, because we are here, the only option left is to either "get life" or "get death". Limbo land is painful—it's a slow death, I'd prefer to get it over with as soon as possible.

i feel like I've been in limbo for so long. Every day I feel less of a connection with everything. It's just one more step to go

 

[Smilla]

I

It sucks that we have to die (suffer more) to get eternal peace. IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY

Yes me too. Shitty end to a shitty life is how I see my own life and death.

You have a right to feel angry.

 

[Smilla]

i feel like I've been in limbo for so long. Every day I feel less of a connection with everything. It's just one more step to go

This alienation/lack of connection is one of the necessary requisites for a successful suicide.

 

[useless]

i feel like I've been in limbo for so long. Every day I feel less of a connection with everything.

Do you ever wonder if you died already, and you're stuck here?

 

[Volatile]

This alienation/lack of connection is one of the necessary requisites for a successful suicide.

Then it's a blessing :)

 

[Volatile]

Do you ever wonder if you died already, and you're stuck here?

When I go unnoticed by most people, i feel like I died. I realized today at the store that will only increase with age. I've always been dismissive of middle aged adults and the elderly. Im nearing 30 and am becoming invisible too. It's a living death

 

[bigj75]

idk. I just wish I did one thing different.

 

[useless]

i feel like I died.

No I mean, do you ever seriously consider this is hell and even if you kill yourself here you'll wake up again because you can't die?

 

[bigj75]

No I mean, do you ever seriously consider this is hell and even if you kill yourself here you'll wake up again because you can't die?

I've actually thought of that. It definitively feels like hell.

 

[RacilyDank]

No I mean, do you ever seriously consider this is hell and even if you kill yourself here you'll wake up again because you can't die?

I've often wondered if there is an afterlife will you just be stuck feeling the way you did before you died.

It's a terrifying prospect

 

[dartanian]

I've often wondered if there is an afterlife will you just be stuck feeling the way you did before you died.

It's a terrifying prospect

damn. I thought about it also. It is one of the reasons I didn't ctb yet. I really hope not

 

[Volatile]

No I mean, do you ever seriously consider this is hell and even if you kill yourself here you'll wake up again because you can't die?

No

 

[shortjoke]

Have you guys heard of the philosophy called antinatalism?

 

[Smilla]

Have you guys heard of the philosophy called antinatalism?

Yes and I am a fan.

I'm ashamed to say I went through a fairly brief period in my early-mid thirties when I wanted a "family" which was odd because I was a committed no-holds-barred "childfree" person in my twenties. Not sure what changed in either scenario but I can say for sure that the best non-accomplishment of my life was never having a child. I'm almost 39 and when I hear about a pregnancy I squirm with horror.

Biology and society compells us to reproduce. I woke up, thank "God".

I see "parents" as deluded narcissistic idiots who decided to have kids for their own narcissistic, lunatic and deranged reasons.

A mini-me. A reason for living.

Yuck.

 

[shortjoke]

Yes and I am a fan.

Same here :)
Only if everyone knows and understands this philosophy, my life would have been much easier.

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

I would rather just live in a kinda parallel universe different enough to make it where I'm happier, I'll still have the same friends and family and all that but I'll just not be depressed, and I would like for the world not be so cruel. If eaven is real which I would like to believe it is, that would be all I would want from it.

 

[Maravillosa]

I would rather just live in a kinda parallel universe different enough to make it where I'm happier, I'll still have the same friends and family and all that but I'll just not be depressed, and I would like for the world not be so cruel. If eaven is real which I would like to believe it is, that would be all I would want from it.

I tend to agree with you. If I could, I would like to live in a world where I was a successful published novelist, where I did not have to be my poor mother's caregiver, where the political situation was less volatile, where I never had any episodes of either depression or dysthymia, where my late father never acted inappropriately towards me in a sexual manner (my psych diagnoses are major depression with psychotic features, persistent depressive disorder and PTSD).

I also want to believe in Heaven, but I suspect that Heaven for me would also include befriending the historical figures who have fascinated me through the years. I also want to have enough posthumous fame that I will be regarded with fondness and admiration by thousands (if not millions) of people who live centuries from now -- if there are any people left centuries from now. I want to have enough posthumous fame to have at least one compulsively readable full-length biography written about me. How silly I am! If I don't ctb, I would rather like to be on the path to canonization after I die, God willing Of course, if I do ctb, canonization is out of the question -- but I would still like to be admired posthumously.

 

[Paulsmith]

I prefer to be dead.

 

[Jaded]

I'd love to not wake up and suffer life.

 

[2211264]

I'd like to just disappear, from everything around me and disappear from myself as well. I'm not sure exactly how to do it though?

 

[PeakyBlinder]

I tend to agree with you. If I could, I would like to live in a world where I was a successful published novelist, where I did not have to be my poor mother's caregiver, where the political situation was less volatile, where I never had any episodes of either depression or dysthymia, where my late father never acted inappropriately towards me in a sexual manner (my psych diagnoses are major depression with psychotic features, persistent depressive disorder and PTSD).

I also want to believe in Heaven, but I suspect that Heaven for me would also include befriending the historical figures who have fascinated me through the years. I also want to have enough posthumous fame that I will be regarded with fondness and admiration by thousands (if not millions) of people who live centuries from now -- if there are any people left centuries from now. I want to have enough posthumous fame to have at least one compulsively readable full-length biography written about me. How silly I am! If I don't ctb, I would rather like to be on the path to canonization after I die, God willing Of course, if I do ctb, canonization is out of the question -- but I would still like to be admired posthumously.

I liked what you are describing here. It sounds good and romantic in a way. It's also a escape for me to read about historic figures. But I wouldn't want to be remembered.

If only we could be inspirational to ourselves and just a couple people around us and change the world for the better. That's the thing, I don't know what to do with my life. Sometimes I still have the ideals of becoming a teacher to help, to do something worth living for.

So sorry to hear you've been the victim of nasty evil behaviour of your father. Those kind of people make my blood boil, wouldn't hesitate to pull the trigger on such scumbags.

 

[MAIO]

Would very much have preferred never to have been born.

My parents thrust me into consciousness and I was just fine without it, as far as I can remember.

To paraphrase Mark Twain "I didn't exist for 3.5 billion years before my birth and didn't suffer any inconvenience for it"

But now, because we are here, the only option left is to either "get life" or "get death". Limbo land is painful—it's a slow death, I'd prefer to get it over with as soon as possible since my suffering is unbearable, my life will no doubt get worse, and death happens to us all—just a matter of time, place, and circumstance.

If it makes you feel any better this notion we have one life is probably wrong. At least most of the molecules in your brain/body are replaces many times through out lifespan. Ie a copy of you is a copy not you-or is the same as death. Ego and couscous was probably work fundamentally than we think, the more we learn the more meaningless and not special we realize human life is etc.

 

[MEoDP]

"Better Never to have Been" - David Benatar

 

[Mynameisnotimportant]

Wish I was never born. I don't want to live but I don't know if I have the balls to ctb

 

[throwaway123]

I can't believe that I am still here.

 

[bigj75]

I can't believe that I am still here.

same