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dilapidatedMind

Student
Oct 1, 2020
128
I'm so done with my family who try and come across as so caring while at the same time being subtly manipulative. I'm starting to see that relationships of any kind can't exist without some level of manipulation.
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,868
Yes, I don't care how my family reacts, I don't think they'll be too sad cause im doing something good for them. I don't have any friends, so no need to worry about them. Im hoping to meet an old friend of mine if there is something like an afterlife, if not i can just sleep forever and everyone will forget me soon enough.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,378
I think I'd only kind of care about how my mom would react but there's nothing she could do to prevent it and I hope she would realize that.
 
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deleted

Warlock
Jul 31, 2020
715
I hope this destroys them in the short time that they are in this world
 
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Futile

Futile

Tired of being lonely
Sep 3, 2020
499
Same, I don't care because they don't care
 
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EmptyManForever

My wings were cut and now I can fly no more!
Oct 3, 2020
141
I dont care if my family finds me dead, cuz they have given me nothing but pain all my life,however, if i die,they would go crazy, so i guess the only problem with me dying is i won't be alive to see how they react to my death and just loose their minds!
 
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Lordsudbury

Specialist
Jul 26, 2020
306
My mom would be absolutely shattered she is basically my only family member. She's mentioned so many times that she would not know how to live without me.

But I just don't give a shit anymore. The farther you go into suicide literature and death the more you realize well people die all the time and the world goes on. It's the easiest thing to move on from really.
 
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lostangel

lostangel

Enlightened
Mar 22, 2019
1,051
Yes I do not care because if I was a vegetable they would keep me alive and make me suffer. They wouldn't have mercy on me so why should I care how they react to my death.
 
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please_kill_me

please_kill_me

Member
Oct 7, 2020
54
My mom would be absolutely shattered she is basically my only family member. She's mentioned so many times that she would not know how to live without me.

But I just don't give a shit anymore. The farther you go into suicide literature and death the more you realize well people die all the time and the world goes on. It's the easiest thing to move on from really.
my mum is the same...
 
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Lupgevif

Lupgevif

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Jul 23, 2020
928
I do care about how my parents will react, but not in the sense that it worries me that they'll be sad. Oh no, I care because I am curious to know how they will react once they discover it was not a bluff.
 
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TooConscious

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2020
1,151
I have two nans one would care mostly of her own self interest because I'm the only one that bothers with her daily and my other nan will be more bothered of what to wear at my funeral that they will no doubt make happen even though I've tried to insist I don't have a funeral due to personal choice. I'm not quite sure how my father will react on the news if he'll carry on as usual or use it as an excuse for attention of how I ruined his life in death the same as I did being born. My mother will continue as normal she might shed a tear because that's what people are 'supposed' to do.
The rest of my family are scum that I have no time for they will just slag me off and deep down be amused "my so and so's dead but he was a twat" etc. I wish my immediates the best for their future if they all stop blaming others for their problems they'd be decent human beings, that's where I went wrong I didn't grow out of learning this from them till I was about 26 by the time my life was well and truly done. I'll be in the ground at 29 with only a couple of teeth left to show for it.
 
Buttlerix

Buttlerix

Member
Sep 28, 2020
33
I wish it wouldnt affect my family, I really do.
 
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SelfLiberation

SelfLiberation

Thinking about ctb ever since I can remember
Oct 8, 2020
38
My mom is the only person I worry about, but I can't keep forcing myself to live any longer. And to be honest, when I die I'll won't have to worry about it anymore.
 
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nerve

nerve

fat cringey shut-in
Jun 19, 2019
1,013
I spend a lot of time thinking about the people I'll leave behind. Not wanting to bother or upset them kept me going for so long but I haven't spoken to a lot of these people in years. Once I ctb, they'll probaby find out and feel sad, but it's not like any part of their life will change because I'm not there.
 
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Metalhead

Metalhead

Born slippy
Sep 21, 2020
213
My mom would be absolutely shattered she is basically my only family member. She's mentioned so many times that she would not know how to live without me.

But I just don't give a shit anymore. The farther you go into suicide literature and death the more you realize well people die all the time and the world goes on. It's the easiest thing to move on from really.
I couldn't agree with you more, this shitty world keeps on spinning regardless
 
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TripleA

TripleA

life is a struggle you cannot win
Sep 25, 2020
274
I do care about how my parents will react, but not in the sense that it worries me that they'll be sad. Oh no, I care because I am curious to know how they will react once they discover it was not a bluff.
Same
 
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HappyMstake

HappyMstake

Not so happy as it turns out.
May 29, 2020
170
I mean I care but not enough to actually stay alive. Eventually they'll forget all about it/me and continue living their happy lives.
 
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ready 2 go

ready 2 go

done with life
Apr 16, 2020
50
Don't wanna hurt my family, but deep now I don't really care. I'm not close to them on an emotional level. My pets however, I really can't stand to hurt them. They won't understand why I never came back :(
 
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Deleted member 20852

Guest
I would care how my dad would react and I think his dog would miss me too, but I couldn't care less about anyone else.
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,644
I've been telling my family maybe for about one or two years that I want to be dead and it's my choice. Now they just don't call me. They will be upset, but I just don't want to suffer anymore. Today I'm in pain and I have been bedridden all day and crying. Yesterday bedridden too. No life.
 
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k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,546
No, I'm the opposite. I guess that's a reason I'm still here. My friends and family only ever showed me love and support, and I have intense guilt over how much I'm going to hurt them. It won't be enough to stop me, though.
 
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Serio

Serio

Member
Feb 24, 2020
84
I don't care how it will affect most people in a way. The only ppl
I care about it affecting negatively is my cousin sister and like my one or two friends. Now though I do also care in a way I don't know how to explain it but I do want it to affect some ppl negatively and don't care if it does I care if it doesn't these ppl would be ones I don't like or just people in general simply Bc then it means that no one cared abt me like if it doesn't affect some ppl it means they didn't care it's hard to explain the people I care abt I don't want to b affected by it but the ppl I don't I do so like atleast some ppl cared idk how to explain
 
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PJFord

PJFord

Student
Jul 27, 2020
143
No, not really. If my parents were still alive I would, because I know my Mom would have been particularly hurt and sad. But I only have siblings now. My one concern is making the practical matters easy for them, such as financial matters, selling my car, managing cremation, etc. For the latter I've already taken care of it and paid for it, and specifically chose a provider that handles everything so my sister (my executor) is not burdened.

For the few friends I have, I'm just leaving without notes. Communication has already been limited due to COVID, and only one lives nearby and I haven't seen him since lockdown began in March. My will instructions are crystal clear: no announcements, no social media, no memorial service. I truly just want to leave this existence as quietly as possible.
 
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Xocoyotziin

Xocoyotziin

Scorpion
Sep 5, 2020
402
Idk. Sometimes I think all the sadness I imagine it might give people is just a theatrical, self-congratulatory fantasy in my head that makes me feel more important than I am. I think in reality the few who are still close to me will probably feel relief, both for their own sake and mine.
 
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Klee

Klee

Never play cards with a magician.
Apr 19, 2020
136
Nobody will give a shit, I'm convinced.
I've tried to reach out so many times, to no avail.
At this point I could lop off a limb and wave to them with it, and they still wouldn't notice.
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
I will only care about a couple family members. The rest can go to hell especially my ex. I could care less what others think.
 
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Depressedbitch2020

Member
Oct 10, 2020
29
I don't give a damn about how my death affects others. They didn't give a damn when I was alive then why should I give a damn when I'm dead?
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,621
I care about one person. Enough that it's stopping me doing it. Aside from that no
 
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killmejacee

killmejacee

Member
Sep 25, 2020
5
I care about how some of the people close to me are gonna react, but honestly I feel like they're stronger than me and life will inevitably continuer for them. I always tell them that the sooner they accept that it's going to happen, the sooner they'll find peace in me ctb.
 
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Buffy5120

Death is vital
Mar 19, 2020
614
I'm so done with my family who try and come across as so caring while at the same time being subtly manipulative. I'm starting to see that relationships of any kind can't exist without some level of manipulation.
Not one bit
 

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