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Mr.Nobody

Mr.Nobody

Student
Jan 30, 2020
108
That's what exactly I have been doing for years.
 
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Bauhaus

Bauhaus

Specialist
Jan 18, 2020
388
That would be my life for the last 20 years. Movies & TV series are my form of escapisme, though it gets harder and harder to concentrate anymore and enjoy them.
One thing I sorely regret is I didn't make a list of favorites when I first started downloading, I mean I have around 10,000 movies but I forgot largely which ones were good or even which ones I already watched.
Now in late autumn & winter I play videogames, it's the only time of the year I feel better and more focused and playing videogames have a mild antidepressant effect.
 
okaoki

okaoki

last
Aug 4, 2018
251
Sadly i no long could enjoy any Tv/Movies , i can't game cuz i don't have gaming pc , only watch youtube vids
and people game on twitch etc. having a hard time to focus on anything. and there's the count down to something
that going to happen everyday just suck all the energy i have to do anything.
 
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ready 2 go

ready 2 go

done with life
Apr 16, 2020
50
All I do is sleep or watch TV. Nothing else. I'm not living, just existing
 
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Hopeindeath!

Elementalist
Dec 7, 2019
800
I practice escapism.
 
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RedFoxSwims

Member
Oct 8, 2020
43
Video games, reading, tv shows and movies are why I've been alive so long. Been wanting to ctb since I was 11 years old. Now I can't even feel joy which leaves me wanting to ctb sooner rather than later.
 
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sui4

Member
Oct 11, 2020
41
I can't live like this anymore. It's been years. I started a new therapy that could help my issues. I don't think it will though. I'm running out of things to do to occupy myself. I wish I could work and meet women like I did in my 20s, but I feel that's over.

Suicide feels more necessary now. My feelings about it are mostly sadness because I never wanted to be pushed into it, but my alternative is miserable.
I can't live like this anymore. It's been years. I started a new therapy that could help my issues. I don't think it will though. I'm running out of things to do to occupy myself. I wish I could work and meet women like I did in my 20s, but I feel that's over.

Suicide feels more necessary now. My feelings about it are mostly sadness because I never wanted to be pushed into it, but my alternative is miserable.
I understand feeling like its a necessity, and I totally get what you mean about not wanting to be pushed into it but the alternative is miserable. My sentiments precisely. Don't want to be forced but it has to be done..
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,443
This is all I've done for 15 years since I was 13. I haven't developed like a normal person.
I was bored of my life years ago
 
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Frauw

Frauw

Nothing lasts
Oct 31, 2020
166
Yep, pretty much just bounce from video game to video game bored out of my gourd.
 

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