Anyone else here with no friends?

[ringo99]

I literally have zero friends. I've deliberately cut myself off from everyone in school and college. I barely interact with my family anymore and the only people I talk to outside family are my work colleagues. I dislike most of them and the feeling is mutual.

Just to clarify I have no desire whatsoever to reconnect with anyone from my past or make new friends. This isn't a cry for help or anything. I'm just curious to see if there's anyone else here in the same boat.

 

[Darkover]

i've had no friends for 8 years, the only person i talk to is my mother every day on the phone i've fell out with most of my family

 

[shadow999]

Yeah, I don't really have friends. I had psychosis and I was just so delusional I lost everybody.
I have 2 people I have reconnected with, an ex and a friend. It just isn't the same anymore though.
I can't feel a sense of connection anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd never wish for such anyway, I know I'm not meant to exist and I have no interest in the futile and torturous burden of human existence, I find it so undesirable to exist.

 

[Flameboyant]

I have 0 irl friends, I only talk verbally with my mom. I do however have alot of online friends but no deep ones.

 

[assistedsuicidelove]

Yeah me

 

[AbusedInnocent]

 

[nowhereknow]

I cannot comprehend how to actually make friends. Everyone who's stepped into my life feels like an acquaintance. At most I might ask to hang out every now and again only to get rejected or left on read.

 

[BoulderSoWhat]

Cut myself off from my family over a year ago. My one friend from my home area I stopped communicating with. He was actually a good friend, but my mental turmoil and turbulence made it hard for me to feel like I could enjoy the moment when we would catch up and go to concerts and stuff. He deserved better, I hope he's well.

I attempted ctb beginning of June. I guess survival instinct kicked in and my body reacted against my attempt, but my mind never faltered in being certain it was what I wanted. Anyway, I voluntarily called 911 and went inpatient afterwards. When I left, I reconnected with a coworker from my previous job and pretty much said, "hey, I'm very sorry to contact you out of the blue, but could I talk to you about some pretty intense stuff I just went through?" Met up with them, talked and it was actually really good. They're a very supportive person that I've been keeping in touch with ever since and there is a friendship there.

But in terms of friends like people who I regularly see and hang out with outside of work whether in real life or online, no I don't have anyone like that.

I've actually been going to a local NAMI group once a month and there's some familiar faces I'm starting to see there. So I guess, there's supportive people that I'm finding in the aftermath of everything. I just started a new job this week and the workplace is surprisingly non-toxic lol. I actually really like and am impressed with the place.

While these things are starting to come along for me, the struggle of "okay but how do I meet new people and maybe make friends to hang out with even just once in a while," that's something that I'd like to try to work on for myself.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Yeah.

 

[Hollowman]

Zero friends, I can't connect anymore.

 

[Adûnâi]

I for one do suffer from loneliness. The only person whom I can talk to in my voice is my mom, over the phone. Online, I have two folks on Discord, and my future gf. But that's it. Terribly lonely. Def one of good reasons for suicide. Can't talk to anyone, hence sometimes writing threads here which get no fucking responses.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't have any irl friends (nor have I ever made any in my life) but I do have some online friends

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

No one.

Once in a while someone will try and make friends and we do the 'yes, let's go for a drink' and it goes nowhere.

It'll be one less thing to think about instead of my task list of CTB. I've given up after decades of trying to be friends. I trust animals and planets but never humans. If you don't open up you won't get hurt or betrayed. It's safer that way. Forums will have to keep me going until my plan can start.

I don't believe in saying 'fuck people'... it's more 'I do not belong on your planet, so I will back away slowly and exit now'.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

By grade 11 I cut all of my friends out of my life. I haven't had a true friend for years now. I have had some more casual relations with some of the men I used to sext but I wouldn't consider any of them to be true friends. I have my family and my bf and that's about it.

 

[thereisnoone]

I feel so drawn out of it all, its tiring to try

 

[CatLvr]

Nope. I have always connected with animals better than with people. I'm not a furry by any stretch of the imagination, but I'd much rather hang out with my cats than with any person on the planet.

 

[Kmpa]

I for one do suffer from loneliness. The only person whom I can talk to in my voice is my mom, over the phone. Online, I have two folks on Discord, and my future gf. But that's it. Terribly lonely. Def one of good reasons for suicide. Can't talk to anyone, hence sometimes writing threads here which get no fucking responses.

I have gotten a dog, and they certainly help a lot when I feel lonely, maybe one could make you feel better. I hope you find good people in your life and make great friendships. I'm hoping for the same thing for myself, and I hope it's soon. Else, loneliness will out-live me. Good luck!

 

[Aloneandinpain]

Have a few family members left. A few people I chat to online, at best I might meet up with one of them once per year. No work colleagues.

 

[L'absent]

I no longer have anyone and this will help me close every door to this world. I hope soon.

 

[hopeless302]

I haven't had any friends in almost 7 years. Besides, even when I was in more social settings, I'd always be the weird one. The one who mysteriously never got any invites. The one people would constantly make little snide remarks about. The one who was hardly ever spoken to. After all that, I think it's better that I be alone.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I made a post about this topic yesterday, and we'll, yeah. I have no one, and the reason I wish to have at least a few people is nothing more than seeing if people in this day and location where I live are capable of offering me a support as much as the one I get online, that has some physical barriers and limitations, of course.

I don't have faith I'll succeed but I wish I could. It's very complicated for me for more than a reason and I lost all my former friends. I'm at 0 and I feel disgusted by how people around me constantly shit talk each other, hurt each other and similar. It makes me lose hope in them but surely there will be at least ONE good person? I shall see...

But the pain is burning me down day by day as my hope slowly fades. Burning me like acid in my broken soul. It's... Painful...

 

[Steff1337]

Don't have any friends, and never did.

 

[xxxxt]

I havent had friends for a long time Most people and I don't fit in I cant socialize with them forever

 

[Ol Messier 87]

I cut ties with all my friends except one, when one of them committed suicide, I don't know how to explain that.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I don't have any friends. Literally zero. No family, either. It is what it is

 

[fuyacore]

I literally have zero friends. I've deliberately cut myself off from everyone in school and college. I barely interact with my family anymore and the only people I talk to outside family are my work colleagues. I dislike most of them and the feeling is mutual.

Just to clarify I have no desire whatsoever to reconnect with anyone from my past or make new friends. This isn't a cry for help or anything. I'm just curious to see if there's anyone else here in the same boat.

I always feels like an empty shell. It's all just a mask. When i have the energy, i would pretend to be someone else, so people find me entertaining, useful, friendly, and many good social traits. When I don't have energy (which is 70% of the time now), I quietly leave everyone to be alone.

I feel like everyone would always reject my inner self. I hardly have friends, and when i have new people, they won't last really long. I'm just that unstable.

It's safe to say, from the period (age):
- 0 - 20: no friend at all (irl and online).
- 20 - 23: online friend, and professional connection.

I'm getting better. Yet I'm also getting worse. Sometimes i feel like i belong somewhere online, only to be disappointed that feeling of belongings short-lived and digging a bigger hole inside me.

 

[PixelPlant]

i have no friends. i have people where i can communicate once in a while but not really friends. im not planning to make friends either. the main reason is that i don't have the energy to do so and just the thought that everyone hates me. i'm not meant to exist because i don't have friendship to offer.

 

[fatladysings]

I'm really sorry to read that so many of you don't have friends. Reading these posts has made me feel lucky, but also very sad. I don't like to think about anyone being stuck with no friends at all.

I do have friends, but in order to keep them, I have to pretend to be a lot more social than I am. I get invited to do things with cousins and friends and I say yes, but inside I'm just wishing that everybody would just leave me alone. I think I have social anxiety disorder because I'm profoundly antisocial towards my friends and family. I just find socialising with friends to be very stressful.

I hope that those of you who don't have friends can count people in this forum as your friends.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

I literally have zero friends. I've deliberately cut myself off from everyone in school and college. I barely interact with my family anymore and the only people I talk to outside family are my work colleagues. I dislike most of them and the feeling is mutual.

Just to clarify I have no desire whatsoever to reconnect with anyone from my past or make new friends. This isn't a cry for help or anything. I'm just curious to see if there's anyone else here in the same boat.

Likewise no point in getting into detail, but again, likewise.