Just curious really.
Mine developed after my most recent attempts (propranolol OD and yew tree poisoning). I can't help but feel like it's my fault somehow - that I damaged something and gave myself seizures. I could have been having them in a smaller form for years, but it's uncertain. It's probably not PNES for me (I'm still under testing) because my episodes change my heart rate and have significant effects on my functioning both before and after. I don't know. They'll probably slap me with that diagnoses regardless because of my mental illness history.
It's definitely making the suicidal ideation worse. I hate dealing with doctors.
Mine developed after my most recent attempts (propranolol OD and yew tree poisoning). I can't help but feel like it's my fault somehow - that I damaged something and gave myself seizures. I could have been having them in a smaller form for years, but it's uncertain. It's probably not PNES for me (I'm still under testing) because my episodes change my heart rate and have significant effects on my functioning both before and after. I don't know. They'll probably slap me with that diagnoses regardless because of my mental illness history.
It's definitely making the suicidal ideation worse. I hate dealing with doctors.
