NSFW Anyone else here deal with pornography addiction?

[SectOfValtiel]

Its been a part of my life since maybe 6th-7th grade
I think the only time I really quit was when I started dating for the first time, but even then it didnt really last
To be completely honest its one of the biggest reasons I hate myself, I think it even helped land me in the ER a few times with a priapism (though that also seemed to be medication based)
And it wasnt until I think late last year I was even able to admit it fully to a therapist

Even then, I havent really found a way to stop... or even slow down
Even antidepressants didnt stop me- just made it harder to get there
My therapist suggested some support groups but my social anxiety is way too rough to even attempt that, I havent read anything that has helped either
At this point I think hes given up on it, too

I tried using this app called MDF (man dont fap) but Id always relapse after a day and eventually the frustration made me just stop trying

Im at a loss
I hate this aspect of myself and that its one of the only things that brings me any kind of stress relief
Still Id give it up cold-turkey if I knew how
And Im not of the opinion its inherently evil or anything- I dont want it all erased from the internet, its not all bad
I just dont want this addiction anymore

 

[FallFadesIntoWinter]

It's a pretty hard thing to give up (pardon the pun, I'm not making fun of this), I've tried more than a few times in the past to give it up too.

At the end of the day, I realize I can't give it up 100%, I can only successfully do it less.

If you aren't hurting yourself or anyone else and you're still able to be productive and social, don't feel guilty for doing it. Maybe instead of every day, you do it every other day, then slowly get to every 3rd or 4th day. That way, you don't give it up (unless you really, really want to give it up completely) and you still get lots of things done and it's not as guilt-heavy for you either.

Masturbation isn't shameful or wrong, even with porn, it's just pretty time consuming if you're addicted to it. So instead of slaying the beast completely, maybe think about trying to keep it away for 2-4 days at a time.

 

[[HNO]]

i've porn addiction too. cooming since 5th grade and in these last years i went downward to really sick and degenerate content and switched from short coomings to long edging sessions that waste my already ruined life and frying the brain from excessive stimulation. vanilla doesn't turn me anymore. as for now im on NNN and it gave some sort of momentum to end with this beast.

there's a methodology to beat porn addiction which is titled the easypeasy method but i've too low attention span to read it consistently without interruptions so i plan just to stick to cold-turkey. it's much easier to finish off addiction when stimuli and in this case sexual cues are removed you might need to avoid any social media esp instagram and tiktok if use, generally you need to avoid all sexual content on the internet, delete apps, accounts, remove bookmarks etc. tbh i don't believe that gradual decreasing of consumption or keeping intervals between sessions even work you need to bring this to conclusion once for all

also using psychotherapy for porn addiction is a joke unless they put you on libido suppressing drugs it's more reasonable to meet optimal daily intake of essential nutrients needs(zink, vitamins, antioxidants etc) and consuming excessive amounts of proteins, avoiding junk and processed foods especially ones that have soy, seed oils and enormous amount of sugars and trans-fats (i.e avoiding neurotoxic products) and exercising to restore brain to its normal state doing so while practicing dopamine detox if willpower allows so. they can offer only drugs and CBT which could have no use bc after all porn addiction is neurological and working on it from lower levels (hardware) is safer, faster and cheaper

also blocking sites by adding them in hosts file and offing images in a browser helps a lot

 

[👁️👃👁️]

Yeah, since I was 9 years old. I'm 27 now. For me personally it only feels good until it doesn't, and is not a form stress for me for me whatsoever. If anything when I'm constantly watching pornography and masturbating every day I'm even more stressed out more anxious lack motivation tired etc etc. If feels like my astral body is in a very fucked up situation from constantly abusing this energy and that section of my body, and not raising those energies.

 

[vexxed]

kinda, I have crazy high libido, but have learned to manage it really well. For reference, in my teens i was jacking off up to 6-8 times a day.

I would recommend to try and start targeting the reasons for why you are ashamed of it, are you watching porn that you don't feel comfortable with when you're not horny? Are you feeling urges to do it in situations that are inappropriate? is it getting in the way of your regular activities? (not the feelings about it, specifically the masturbation itself)

If these conditions aren't met, you likely aren't addicted, you probably just have a high libido. If they are met, therapy and a specific focus on those features may help more than trying to stop altogether.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

Sharing my experience the one thing that helped was, Detoxing/cleansing my body. I'm done all sorts of cleanse dude. Candida diets. Water fast. Parasite cleanse. Stayed away from sugar that included anything that turned into it. February for most breads pastas etc. Started exercising and doing stretches or walking in nature. Anything to keep myself busy and not just sit around all day and jerk off. Lol. I learned to discipline myself, it was doing a pretty good job until I discovered amphetamines. (The illegal kind) in fucking Eugene, I was doing fine when I was in Ashland. I think it really begun when I was somewhere close to Northern California. Around reading. I've always done with the p*** thing for a very long time but I started began studying a bunch of esoteric and I called text and other spiritual text and realize that masturbating all the time was highly detrimental to My overall sought out development. When I went to Ashland started doing really really good. Once I got to Eugene it went downhill from there.
Not to mention. Since everyone here is science-minded they've already done studies on the effects of pornography has on the brain.

 

[BruhXDDDDD]

My advice is to try not to confuse masturbating with porn consumption. Jacking off without porn is actually a lot more enjoyable than I expected it to be. Not optimal, but also far from bad once you get good at it. I personally don't give a shit so i use porn almost all the time, but if you're trying to quit porn it's nice to remember that you don't have to go nofap to do it.

 

[makethepainstop]

AS long as its not kiddy porn, enjoy, you only live this life once.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

If you aren't hurting yourself or anyone else and you're still able to be productive and social, don't feel guilty for doing it. Maybe instead of every day, you do it every other day, then slowly get to every 3rd or 4th day. That way, you don't give it up (unless you really, really want to give it up completely) and you still get lots of things done and it's not as guilt-heavy for you either.

Productiveness and being social arent things Im capable of but I think thats something entirely out of the addictions control
Ive definitely tried to cut down a lot, it just never seems to work so honestly I would not even know how to begin there
Maybe I lack willpower and I definitely lack self control

Masturbation isn't shameful or wrong, even with porn, it's just pretty time consuming if you're addicted to it. So instead of slaying the beast completely, maybe think about trying to keep it away for 2-4 days at a time.

If you have a normal relationship with masturbation I agree entirely
Theres nothing inherently wrong with it and the only reason I would stop flat-out if I could is because my relationship with it really couldnt be further from healthy
Like I said, it helped land me in the ER, honestly theres still a chance I have permeant tissue damage because of it
And Im a virgin so thankfully I havent had to do it in person, but explaining to people why my dick looks like I jerk off with sandpaper never is easy
I appreciate what youre saying, still

i've porn addiction too. cooming since 5th grade and in these last years i went downward to really sick and degenerate content and switched from short coomings to long edging sessions that waste my already ruined life and frying the brain from excessive stimulation. vanilla doesn't turn me anymore. as for now im on NNN and it gave some sort of momentum to end with this beast.

Yeah, thats exactly the part of it that makes me hate myself- its like any other addiction and that means youre constantly chasing an unattainable high
You start looking at increasing degen porn because thats all that works sometimes and it never stops ramping from there
I just dont want to be that anymore, I really really dont

Ive tried NNN a few times but I lack the control to stop
I get an urge and Im already opening up incognito mode, the whole time reminding myself I said i wouldnt
I find a way to justify it every time, or I just flat out refuse to care until after its done and the guilt hits

there's a methodology to beat porn addiction which is titled the easypeasy method but i've too low attention span to read it consistently without interruptions so i plan just to stick to cold-turkey. it's much easier to finish off addiction when stimuli and in this case sexual cues are removed you might need to avoid any social media esp instagram and tiktok if use, generally you need to avoid all sexual content on the internet, delete apps, accounts, remove bookmarks etc. tbh i don't believe that gradual decreasing of consumption or keeping intervals between sessions even work you need to bring this to conclusion once for all

I have a pdf of that saved somewhere but I lack the attention span too, I never made it very far

I wish I could cold-turkey but I seem incapable of it
I just cant seem to get myself to win over those urges

I only really use tiktok occasionally and my feed is pretty clean of thirst traps so I think Im good there
Honestly there isnt a lot I do that involves anything sexual
I guess I can delete some accounts though... I havent really tried that yet, thats fair

I would recommend to try and start targeting the reasons for why you are ashamed of it, are you watching porn that you don't feel comfortable with when you're not horny? Are you feeling urges to do it in situations that are inappropriate? is it getting in the way of your regular activities? (not the feelings about it, specifically the masturbation itself)

If these conditions aren't met, you likely aren't addicted, you probably just have a high libido. If they are met, therapy and a specific focus on those features may help more than trying to stop altogether.

Theres a lot of content I wish I didnt like, things that gross me out to think about after the fact but in the moment work the best, thats definitely where most of the shame stems from
Sometimes those urges do happen in less than appropriate places, yeah
And yeah, I spend more time jerking off than I do really anything else, often times pausing games Im playing or rushing content just so I can alt-tab and get off for example
And that happens several times a day every day

Its an addiction, Ive known that for awhile yeah

Sharing my experience the one thing that helped was, Detoxing/cleansing my body. I'm done all sorts of cleanse dude. Candida diets. Water fast. Parasite cleanse. Stayed away from sugar that included anything that turned into it. February for most breads pastas etc. Started exercising and doing stretches or walking in nature. Anything to keep myself busy and not just sit around all day and jerk off. Lol.

See, a lot of that is stuff I cant get myself to do anymore because of my increasing depression
I think I *did* jerk it less when I was going on walks but now Im borderline agoraphobic and only leave the house when I need to
The sheer amount of free time I have alone in my room makes it so much harder to quit, I know that for sure, I just cant figure out how to fix that either
Its just an ouroboros of disinterest and low energy I cant escape from

I learned to discipline myself, it was doing a pretty good job until I discovered amphetamines. (The illegal kind) in fucking Eugene, I was doing fine when I was in Ashland. I think it really begun when I was somewhere close to Northern California. Around reading. I've always done with the p*** thing for a very long time but I started began studying a bunch of esoteric and I called text and other spiritual text and realize that masturbating all the time was highly detrimental to My overall sought out development.

Funny, I actually live really close to the Ashland area, too
But the only drug I ever got into was weed personally- and thats a miracle, my dad was on meth constantly growing up so I know that shit can do awful things to a persons mind

Heres hoping we can both get someplace better with it

My advice is to try not to confuse masturbating with porn consumption. Jacking off without porn is actually a lot more enjoyable than I expected it to be. Not optimal, but also far from bad once you get good at it. I personally don't give a shit so i use porn almost all the time, but if you're trying to quit porn it's nice to remember that you don't have to go nofap to do it.

Its a lot of both going hand-in-hand for me
The only times I really have jerked off without porn, someone else was involved so... sexting is arguably just personalized porn in a way, Im not sure that counts as being without

The masturbation is the bigger issue though I guess, without it the porn would fade out too Im sure
I can still appreciate theres an art to a lot of porn

AS long as its not kiddy porn, enjoy, you only live this life once.

Its one of the reasons I dont want to live this life in the first place

 

[Disappointered]

Something is wrong but we don't know what. Something is missing and irretrievable but we persist in life by lying. And that's when the pusher shows up. The Liar will badger you incessantly. Too bad every religion is bullshit or we'd be able to lie more easily using that stuff instead of other copes. Other addictions to escape. To make believe life for us isn't what we've lived. Everyone has to die. We should be habituating ourselves to the notion that managing that inevitable eventuality by precipitating it is a rational being's normal reaction. Because no one who needs to escape that badly should suffer having to come back from temporary flight because of a taboo about suicide.

 

[UnlimitedPain]

I have suffered with this and still am to this day. Started very young.
Shamefully I also would say at times this may have bordered self harm from way too much masturbation.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

I have suffered with this and still am to this day. Started very young.
Shamefully I also would say at times this may have bordered self harm from way too much masturbation.

Thats where Im at, too, to the point where going until it hurts and sometimes even past that is the norm
And its always been something I hated about myself
But my trips to the ER really made me scared- I havent experienced a lot that is more terrifying than having up to 9 needles in your dick, its given me a phobia of medical facilities in general to be honest

I hope we can both learn to have a more healthy relationship with masturbation
I did end up deactivating a bunch of my old porn accounts the other day, any I could think of, so fingers crossed that makes a difference and maybe that suggestion could end up helping you too

Either way, good luck

 

[WhatPowerIs]

Have you looked into the easypeasy method?

 

[SectOfValtiel]

Have you looked into the easypeasy method?

I have, yeah, but its a long read and I lack the willpower to actually get through it all to be honest
Ive heard its effective just really difficult for me personally to even get to that point

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I have, yeah, but its a long read and I lack the willpower to actually get through it all to be honest
Ive heard its effective just really difficult for me personally to even get to that point

Yeah I get that. It takes a lot of willpower to overcome any addiction. Good luck, this is something a lot of people struggle with, and there's really no telling how warped your mind becomes after you've been exposed to these things for such a long time.

 

[deadliftEnjoyer]

I also started consuming porn at an early age, but I really got addicted during my last reltionship, to cope with our dead bedroom.

After the relationship ended, I was so depressed, that my libido was nonexistent,even for porn. A blessing in disguise, maybe?

Then I just stopped fapping, just like that... And i don't miss it.

 

[Un-]

Yeah. Not as bad as you've described it, but I'd say I'd have 14 sessions a week. Which is more than average.

I don't think I'll ever shake it off. The best I can do is manage it, so it doesn't ruin my life - kind of difficult ruin a dilapidated building, but whatever.

I imagine it's due to my head.. Self harm problems.. Instead of torturing my body with blades, and my mind with gore videos, my body has resorted to this. Oh well.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

Yeah. Not as bad as you've described it, but I'd say I'd have 14 sessions a week. Which is more than average.

I don't think I'll ever shake it off. The best I can do is manage it, so it doesn't ruin my life - kind of difficult ruin a dilapidated building, but whatever.

I imagine it's due to my head.. Self harm problems.. Instead of torturing my body with blades, and my mind with gore videos, my body has resorted to this. Oh well.

I feel you on that, unfortunately I do most of the above along with the addiction as well

 

[Tortured_empath]

Yeah

 

[Quinlor]

If you are single and alone I don't see any problem in using photos and videos to masturbate, say twice a week. Now, of course, if you think about it every day, 24 hours a day, and your dick is hurt from so much masturbating with it, then it's really a problem.

 

[Rocinante]

No

 

[jackie_boy1337]

I wouldn't really call it an addiction... probably more of a "very strong like of"...

 

[Altvtysp]

I consumed way too much porn when I was a teenager and then moved on to a crazy sex addiction throughout my 20s and 30s. After my last serious attempt at killing myself in 2018 my libido almost entirely died and I haven't been able to get it going much either with others or jerking off. I feel very broken in this regards and it's probably a factor in wanting to CTB. If I was able to look at porn more frequently now I wouldn't be so worried about it but I don't like going through the trouble of it.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

I consumed way too much porn when I was a teenager and then moved on to a crazy sex addiction throughout my 20s and 30s. After my last serious attempt at killing myself in 2018 my libido almost entirely died and I haven't been able to get it going much either with others or jerking off. I feel very broken in this regards and it's probably a factor in wanting to CTB. If I was able to look at porn more frequently now I wouldn't be so worried about it but I don't like going through the trouble of it.

Theres a part of me thats jealous, I just want this aspect of my life to be over with
But I can see how thatd be equally frustrating
Neither side of the extremes seems very great to deal with

 

[jodes2]

I've had to quit because my gf sees it the same as cheating. I have trouble having sex with her, low drive for that. Porn was always easier, I feel like an arsehole for it so I stopped. I still get urges though, it's a bit draining.