Hi , I'm new to these forums and I really wasn't expecting to be here but I guess you never know where life takes you.
I was actually living quite a normal life up to a year ago. I did have bouts of depression throughout my life and I've always been a hypersenstive person ie taking things to heart. I had trouble fitting in especially during my teens, I moved around quite a bit during my youth making it difficult to make friends, and I've always been the person to never speak first. After high school, I became a little more confident, hit the gym regularly started partying and meeting new people. During this time I was making friends but also turning to drinking and drugs as an escape. Fast forward in my 30's, picked up a new career met an amazing girlfriend who treated me good and I thrived to be the best I can be. This all changed, I unexpectedly had a severe weed-induced psychosis. Don't want to get to details but I said some pretty terrible things to people around me ended up in a psych ward and slowly started to isolate myself. I stopped everything, exercising, working, and I can't even focus on short videos or have normal conversation. My brain essentially shut off and all my dreams and goals taken away. It's been a rough time and the episode still haunts me to this day. I started looking at these forums and now I'm ready to take the next step.
I was actually living quite a normal life up to a year ago. I did have bouts of depression throughout my life and I've always been a hypersenstive person ie taking things to heart. I had trouble fitting in especially during my teens, I moved around quite a bit during my youth making it difficult to make friends, and I've always been the person to never speak first. After high school, I became a little more confident, hit the gym regularly started partying and meeting new people. During this time I was making friends but also turning to drinking and drugs as an escape. Fast forward in my 30's, picked up a new career met an amazing girlfriend who treated me good and I thrived to be the best I can be. This all changed, I unexpectedly had a severe weed-induced psychosis. Don't want to get to details but I said some pretty terrible things to people around me ended up in a psych ward and slowly started to isolate myself. I stopped everything, exercising, working, and I can't even focus on short videos or have normal conversation. My brain essentially shut off and all my dreams and goals taken away. It's been a rough time and the episode still haunts me to this day. I started looking at these forums and now I'm ready to take the next step.
