Anyone else got to the conclusion that the only person that really understand you is your own self?

[Nipuedoniquiero]

Not my mother, not my father, even before I got sick of my head, no one has sincerely tried to see things through my point of view and not judge it by saying anything. And comprehend me cause that person really believed in me and wanted my peace of mind and happiness. It's sad when you come to realize it. And I mean someone that is really special for you, not anybody.
It's awful cause you know deep down you don't deserve it and feel such frustration, pain, anger, disgust and loneliness cause you absolutely love your company except for the moments when you feel like shit and you don't get to share that good side of you with someone you really appreciate and love ( company, personality, etc...) It kills you inside, not only that in my situation. Firstly what makes me feel like shit is my state of mind, then this and other things. Anyways...
Definitely life isn't for everybody.

Tomorrow I got an appointment with my psychiatrist and won't tell him any of this.. What for? Talking doesn't make me feel any better, it's just him giving me somehow a certain diagnosis of BPD, maybe another personality disorder , anxiety and depression. No magical cure.
And what makes me angry is that he thinks that by being diagnosed with that, my personality is not mine and I'm like what??? So what I like, what I don't, what makes me happy, what makes sad, my beliefs, everything I know it's really ME and not my diagnosis, for most psychiatrists or psychologists is not?
How sad is that? They even want to resume the "all of you" into mental illness. They try to take away the things that you love about yourself and mix them with the ones that don't define who you are, to make a point cause Hey " I'm the one who studied 9 years or more so I know more of what you do and feel than you"
When actually it's me who's in pain for it.
I should know the difference between mental illness symptoms and my REAL personality.

So freaking mentally tired of my little world and what surrounds it.

Esta vida es un suplicio.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

Others dont know or understand how we feel. Cant blame them. Its just how it is. Were on our own. Maybe we get lucky and find similiar ppl to us, but trust me its hard.

Hang in there

 

[meerpasta]

It's neglect, you're not being treated like the person you should be treated as and this is something that scars many of us permanently if we face it consistently throughout our childhood. It's the cause of many mental disorders, which is why therapy doesn't work for these cases. You need real support and connections, not a paid visit every now and then. BPD, anxiety, depression and other disorders often and I'd probably argue close to most of the time stem from how you were treated growing up, it's not just "lol ur brain is just broken" which diminishes the bigger issue of a lot parents being incapable of nurturing a child mentally on top of bad environments that also do you no favors while you're developing as a person.

I hope you can at least feel better knowing there are many others of us in the same situation that understand you, you are your own person not a generalised list of symptoms without nuance or reason.

 

[Chiyuki99]

I've always envied people who have a super close relationship with their parents or siblings and who can share literally everything with them. Unfortunately there is not a single person who I've fully opened up to, not even my boyfriend nor my psychologist.
I think I just have huge trust issues and I'm scared of being judged for my messed up thoughts.

 

[Bct]

It's neglect, you're not being treated like the person you should be treated as and this is something that scars many of us permanently if we face it consistently throughout our childhood. It's the cause of many mental disorders, which is why therapy doesn't work for these cases. You need real support and connections, not a paid visit every now and then. BPD, anxiety, depression and other disorders often and I'd probably argue close to most of the time stem from how you were treated growing up, it's not just "lol ur brain is just broken" which diminishes the bigger issue of a lot parents being incapable of nurturing a child mentally on top of bad environments that also do you no favors while you're developing as a person.

I hope you can at least feel better knowing there are many others of us in the same situation that understand you, you are your own person not a generalised list of symptoms without nuance or reason.

Thanks for sharing this. What is the book that talk about this matter?

I've always envied people who have a super close relationship with their parents or siblings and who can share literally everything with them. Unfortunately there is not a single person who I've fully opened up to, not even my boyfriend nor my psychologist.
I think I just have huge trust issues and I'm scared of being judged for my messed up thoughts.

Me too. Parents & siblings are just like people who live under the same roof while friends are just acquaintances. Grew up feeling neglected by family & betrayal by people I considered best friends twice just made me really hard to open up due the fear of not being good enough. I can also be an asshole so no wonder people don't want to get close to me.

 

[SpottedPanda]

I think it's a seemingly impossible task to understand another, even when we try really hard, even though it feels frustrating at times when we're not understood.

I've given up on making others in real life understand me, a sort of resignation that leads to as much freedom as it does disconnection from society.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

Not my mother, not my father, even before I got sick of my head, no one has sincerely tried to see things through my point of view and not judge it by saying anything. And comprehend me cause that person really believed in me and wanted my peace of mind and happiness. It's sad when you come to realize it. And I mean someone that is really special for you, not anybody.
It's awful cause you know deep down you don't deserve it and feel such frustration, pain, anger, disgust and loneliness cause you absolutely love your company except for the moments when you feel like shit and you don't get to share that good side of you with someone you really appreciate and love ( company, personality, etc...) It kills you inside, not only that in my situation. Firstly what makes me feel like shit is my state of mind, then this and other things. Anyways...
Definitely life isn't for everybody.

Tomorrow I got an appointment with my psychiatrist and won't tell him any of this.. What for? Talking doesn't make me feel any better, it's just him giving me somehow a certain diagnosis of BPD, maybe another personality disorder , anxiety and depression. No magical cure.
And what makes me angry is that he thinks that by being diagnosed with that, my personality is not mine and I'm like what??? So what I like, what I don't, what makes me happy, what makes sad, my beliefs, everything I know it's really ME and not my diagnosis, for most psychiatrists or psychologists is not?
How sad is that? They even want to resume the "all of you" into mental illness. They try to take away the things that you love about yourself and mix them with the ones that don't define who you are, to make a point cause Hey " I'm the one who studied 9 years or more so I know more of what you do and feel than you"
When actually it's me who's in pain for it.
I should know the difference between mental illness symptoms and my REAL personality.

So freaking mentally tired of my little world and what surrounds it.

Esta vida es un suplicio.

All these stupid privileged people just don't want to get sucked into our "negativity" or "drama" they think they're better than us because they don't feel like crap or have "issues" like we do. When really they're just doing better solely BECAUSE they're privileged. Thats why SS exists, because people are fucking ignorant and selfish and we need to get away. I hope ctb is fast and painless for you, me and everyone on this site. My only wish these days is to just fall asleep and not wake up.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course, the reality is that we are all alone as other people cannot experience existence in the same way, it would be impossible for them to really understand.

 

[autistocracy]

It's neglect, you're not being treated like the person you should be treated as and this is something that scars many of us permanently if we face it consistently throughout our childhood. It's the cause of many mental disorders, which is why therapy doesn't work for these cases. You need real support and connections, not a paid visit every now and then. BPD, anxiety, depression and other disorders often and I'd probably argue close to most of the time stem from how you were treated growing up, it's not just "lol ur brain is just broken" which diminishes the bigger issue of a lot parents being incapable of nurturing a child mentally on top of bad environments that also do you no favors while you're developing as a person.

I hope you can at least feel better knowing there are many others of us in the same situation that understand you, you are your own person not a generalised list of symptoms without nuance or reason.

Quiet as it's kept nowadays before all this pseudo-eugenicist "genetics" bullshit, it was common knowledge in the mental health field that the most mental disorders come from repeated childhood abuse and/or neglect. Especially complex disorders like eating disorders and BPD. Not sure when mainstream psychiatry abandoned this.

All these stupid privileged people just don't want to get sucked into our "negativity" or "drama" they think they're better than us because they don't feel like crap or have "issues" like we do. When really they're just doing better solely BECAUSE they're privileged. Thats why SS exists, because people are fucking ignorant and selfish and we need to get away. I hope ctb is fast and painless for you, me and everyone on this site. My only wish these days is to just fall asleep and not wake up.

This is so true, especially if you live in the US. People love to bask in the misery of others.