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Jumper Geo

Jumper Geo

Life's a bitch and then you die.
Feb 23, 2020
2,910
What's depressing for me is not having any photos of when I was happy. Or any photos at all really after age 10.

What depresses me is not having any photo;s of when I was a child they were destroyed in a fire and the one's survived was stolen by family members the sick fucks
 
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MartyByrde

MartyByrde

Experienced
Mar 15, 2020
286
I watch past pictures of me in Facebook and I get really depressed I was happy back then I was thin I had my relationship my work now I have nothing
I was literally just doing that same thing. It felt like I was looking at someone else's photos. Then I saw the friend I thought I'd had for decades, deleted the one photo of us from her collection of photos...after years of having it posted. Why would someone do that?

So my feelings went from not great to heart broken. I know it's just a pic on facebook, but it still meant a lot to me. I want to ask about it, but I know it's pointless.

I really need to just delete my fb profile, and try to forget I was ever connected to anyone.
 
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Weightoftheworld

Weightoftheworld

Let me burn.
Apr 19, 2020
258
When I was what?
Happy? Never heard of such a thing.
 
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Jumper Geo

Jumper Geo

Life's a bitch and then you die.
Feb 23, 2020
2,910
Tell her if she is a good friend to put it back up if you can't you know why it;s gone, sorry you haven't kept in contact.
 
darkhorse256

darkhorse256

Student
Mar 10, 2020
112
Yes, it makes me depressed. I remember when I had my excellent memory and my family was proud of me. I remember when I was successful and now, I can barely read due to this "mental block" in my brain from trauma. I remember when I didn't have PTSD and hallucinations of my abuser. All this just solidified my desire to CTB because I feel like a failure and I don't think I can get any better.
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,321
All the time. Worst thing is I didn't know I was happy. Maybe I never was...
 
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Lethe

Lethe

Fey
Sep 19, 2019
670
I was always dour-looking even at 5 years old, no thanks.
 
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Khyber

Member
Apr 6, 2020
31
I read an interesting article on this recently. The gist of it was that it's more about how you're feeling in that moment than the actually memory that impacts your emotion. Therefore, being depressed when recalling a good memory will negatively impact your perspective. If you think of the same memory when you're in a better place mentally, then the emotion it invokes will probably also be more positive.

I've definitely noticed a difference that coincides with my mental health at the time. Worth testing it out.
 
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blivogade

blivogade

Member
Nov 7, 2019
88
Absolutely. Nostalgia is bittersweet.
 
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Makethispaingo

Makethispaingo

Member
Mar 29, 2020
20
Definitely. I've deleted most of the pictures as they pop up on my "memories" on Facebook just to make it a little easier
 
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toomuchtimetodie

"to be overly conscious is a sickness"
Mar 13, 2020
296
None exist. Though i get depressed seeing my fake smile plastered on... hell, my face, it's enough to depress anyone.
 

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