Anyone else filled with anger and hate?

[MEoDP]

I used to in the past,when I was getting bullied on a regular basis. Thankfully,fighting and bullies are no longer a part of my life,and the years of peace(and the fact that I got a happy ending in high school. I beat up the biggest bully of the school,one of the happiest and proudest moment of my life)has allowed me anger and hate to subside.

I still have a degree of self-loathing however for my shortcomings,and there's a lot of things I really hate/dislike about the unfair world that we live in. Now,the only thing I hate is college,and I hope I'll be done with it soon.

 

[RM5998]

I used to in the past,when I was getting bullied on a regular basis. Thankfully,fighting and bullies are no longer a part of my life,and the years of peace(and the fact that I got a happy ending in high school. I beat up the biggest bully of the school,one of the happiest and proudest moment of my life)has allowed me anger and hate to subside.

I still have a degree of self-loathing however for my shortcomings,and there's a lot of things I really hate/dislike about the unfair world that we live in. Now,the only thing I hate is college,and I hope I'll be done with it soon.

This is eerily similar to my life. Where are the hidden cameras?

On a more serious note, how do you deal with the feelings of inadequacy while in college? I've given up on all academics, and am just trying to get through what's left of my life. I study for very little time - barely enough to remain slightly above average, but even that part is slipping away. I can't muster up the energy to do anything.

 

[MEoDP]

This is eerily similar to my life. Where are the hidden cameras?

On a more serious note, how do you deal with the feelings of inadequacy while in college? I've given up on all academics, and am just trying to get through what's left of my life. I study for very little time - barely enough to remain slightly above average, but even that part is slipping away. I can't muster up the energy to do anything.

I can probably respond with more detail tomorrow,but its not all that different from what you do. I'm just trying to get by,studying only a little,hoping that luck will continue to carry the day for me.

Now I really gotta sleep,just had to log back in one more time. Good night.

 

[Lara Francis]

I grew up with it. It's all I've ever known. I used to yearn for love but now I just want to end it.

More so than ever before my life.

 

[Nightmare]

anger and hatred are perhaps not feelings at all... its just sadness

 

[Nem]

Well, I probably should've broken a few people's arms and legs...and snapped their necks like a twig. Yes, that would've been a beautiful sight indeed!

 

[Nem]

Yes I'm constant shouting with torture in and shouting the Dr did this to me is murderer and shouting because no one believes what happened and shouting because rest society don't seem to care. Filled with rage. Was last person to be like this before. If I see my neighbour I can pass as normal and sweet maybe but if they are hear in my shouting maybe they are scared idk..

I believe you!!!

 

[Wantingpeace]

I believe you!!!

Thank you!! What happened to your brain?

 

[Nem]

Thank you!! What happened to your brain?

You're welcome. I suffered a severe reaction to medication and I've never felt the same since, harder to think and the depression is much worse.

 

[Wantingpeace]

What was it though?

You're welcome. I suffered a severe reaction to medication and I've never felt the same since, harder to think and the depression is much worse.

 

[Ella Disenchanted]

I think if I could ever feel truly angry at the people who deserve it rather than myself then maybe I could have made it.

 

[Wantingpeace]

You're welcome. I suffered a severe reaction to medication and I've never felt the same since, harder to think and the depression is much worse.

It is so terrible but have awful thoughts regarding the psychiatrist that any less awareness I would probably attack her such is the rage and contempt I have for her. It is bad enough but to deny anything happened is rubbing salt in wound.

 

[Wantingpeace]

I think if I could ever feel truly angry at the people who deserve it rather than myself then maybe I could have made it.

I'm sorry

 

[Nofaith]

Seething anger and hatred at myself and the world. And when I say the world, I mean those who treat others like sh*t. The apathetic bunch who don't care how their actions impact on others. As long as they themselves, are alright.