Kramer
Nervous wreck
- Oct 27, 2020
- 1,398
Looking at pictures of people who died by suicide is comforting because they look like people you see every day. But normally I feel strange when I'm planning out my death.
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ecmnesia
the only thing humans are equal in is death
- Aug 30, 2020
- 766
not much to add, but yes
to be fair, when i look in the mirror i dont think i look like someone who'd ctb, but guess nobody does
WornOutLife
マット
- Mar 22, 2020
- 7,183
Kinda. The thing is I've always felt different from the rest of the ordinary human beings.
"Study, work, have children, buy a house and die as an old grey man"
That's too basic and boring for me. I prefer being the weird guy and experiencing rare stuff during this short life.
Kramer
Nervous wreck
- Oct 27, 2020
- 1,398
Oh many have the look. The chronically depressed who don't hide it, those who wear baggy clothes to make them "invisible", etc.
Is that you in your pic?
WornOutLife
マット
- Mar 22, 2020
- 7,183
hoping to lose hope
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- Nov 14, 2020
- 848
Everyone kills themselves I am certain that if we were immortal suicide would be done by everyone.
I do not feel strange for the reason you mentioned though just freaking out over death.
Kramer
Nervous wreck
- Oct 27, 2020
- 1,398
You look normal and like people I've seen
That's an interesting perspective
WornOutLife
マット
- Mar 22, 2020
- 7,183
Oh those are just my outer looks. I'm weird in any other sense such as hobbies, being a neet, otaku, learning japanese, hating human beings for being "basic" for the reasons I said above and so on.
I don't want to work my ass of until I die neither have children, only those two things make me atypical lol
hoping to lose hope
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- Nov 14, 2020
- 848
WornOutLife
マット
- Mar 22, 2020
- 7,183
hoping to lose hope
<3 Message me to trade music <3
- Nov 14, 2020
- 848
Waifuism is good and pure hopefully be with waifu in afterlife.
hoping to lose hope
<3 Message me to trade music <3
- Nov 14, 2020
- 848
Who we are has little to do with what we look like notthat you cannot draw some conclusions from peoples looks that are likely true.
Try not to judge yourself too much for not looking like a mess.
A lot of peoplestruggle that do not fit the stereotype of looking like it.
Deleted member 17949
Visionary
- May 9, 2020
- 2,238
I definitely look like the kind of retard that has no life and is destined to kill himself so nah don't feel that weird ngl
PNKPNDA
Member
- Mar 8, 2020
- 70
yeah i dont wanna work til i die either it really is just an endless cycle lol as much as i want kids i worry i will pass my shitty brain genetics onto them and i would hate to have something that has come from me to feel as shit as I do about life u kno
Kramer
Nervous wreck
- Oct 27, 2020
- 1,398
I’vehadenough
Elementalist
- Sep 15, 2018
- 847
MrBigSad
Experienced
- Sep 30, 2020
- 262
One of my friends died of heroine overdose. I'll never know if it was intentional or not. Yeah he was a beggar. He'd been pure scum of the earth in most folks eyes but I always felt like he had a good heart. I'll never know for sure now. Life is long. Cold and harsh, they say "you won't know till you've tried" but we've tried all our lives.
They say it'll get better when it doesn't.
I hope he went peacefully anyway.
When you break it down statistically you've probably walked past literally hundreds of people that will commit suicide but you won't know. Because their problems aren't yours after all.
bov
Arcanist
- Aug 26, 2020
- 405
bov
Arcanist
- Aug 26, 2020
- 405
Sometimes I wonder what suicidality in the absence of unhappiness would mean: intense curiosity about the other side? Craving an end to the suspense of how life ends?
MrBigSad
Experienced
- Sep 30, 2020
- 262
waterstrider
cold
- Nov 29, 2020
- 400
I think those people who actually go through with ctb (because nobody notices beforehand) are always those who blend in the most.
I am happy not to be the most noticeable person and therefore I'm often overlooked. Neither friends nor family suspect me being suicidal and thus I don't get treated like a criminal but like a "normal" part of society.
AltFoxx
Member
- Nov 27, 2020
- 42
Feeling suicidal half the times feels more rational than anything so I can't say it's that strangeWeird, no, embaressed yes, only because I haven't gone through with CTBing yet. I continue to try to give myself a validation for living but really there isn't one and realize I continue to lie myself that things will get better.
bov
Arcanist
- Aug 26, 2020
- 405
Kramer
Nervous wreck
- Oct 27, 2020
- 1,398
bov
Arcanist
- Aug 26, 2020
- 405
I’vehadenough
Elementalist
- Sep 15, 2018
- 847
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