Anyone else feel so much worse and that ctb feels unusually scary when you’re in your room?

[Kramer]

I’m in my room all the time. I feel chained to my bed almost. When I’m out in public, everything feels unreal but also sad in a strange way.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

I’m in my room all the time. I feel chained to my bed almost. When I’m out in public, everything feels unreal but also sad in a strange way.

I can definitely relate to that.

 

[Kramer]

I can definitely relate to that.

How many years?

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

Just one. I go to work, but I do my best to isolate socially as much as I can while I'm there. And the feeling of unrealness and sadness is always there.

 

[NodusTollens]

I’m in my room all the time. I feel chained to my bed almost. When I’m out in public, everything feels unreal but also sad in a strange way.

I can relate. I make it to work a couple days a week, but not without pain killers &a lot of limping.

 

[MizzShadows]

Yes, but it might be internet related. Ironically, I feel better when I'm on sites like this for some reason maybe my mind shuffles things around.

 

[Deleted member 23586]

Kinda but not really. Mostly no. My room has always been my safe haven. I call it my Throne Room/Tomb. I've been stuck in my room most of my life. Sometimes tho, I do have that urge to just not be in there, like its a trap. Like the walls are closing in on me and I feel suffocated with depression and anxiety. I usually feel those things anyways, but sometimes its the room itself. I am so sorry for your experiences tho.

 

[_Kaira_]

The room I stay in is a prison but also a sanctuary for me...I feel constantly stressed and panicky in public, I even hate being anywhere else in the house. It takes so much effort and energy to do anything 'productive' :\

I feel trapped which fuels my many reasons to CTB, but also, the only place I feel at ease.

 

[Kramer]

Kinda but not really. Mostly no. My room has always been my safe haven. I call it my Throne Room/Tomb. I've been stuck in my room most of my life. Sometimes tho, I do have that urge to just not be in there, like its a trap. Like the walls are closing in on me and I feel suffocated with depression and anxiety. I usually feel those things anyways, but sometimes its the room itself. I am so sorry for your experiences tho.

Yeah I get that trapped feeling sometimes

The room I stay in is a prison but also a sanctuary for me...I feel constantly stressed and panicky in public, I even hate being anywhere else in the house. It takes so much effort and energy to do anything 'productive' :\

I feel trapped which fuels my many reasons to CTB, but also, the only place I feel at ease.

I feel exactly the same. I rent a room and don’t feel comfortable walking around the house around people who are pretty much strangers

 

[Deleted member 23586]

The room I stay in is a prison but also a sanctuary for me...I feel constantly stressed and panicky in public, I even hate being anywhere else in the house. It takes so much effort and energy to do anything 'productive' :\

I feel trapped which fuels my many reasons to CTB, but also, the only place I feel at ease.

It's like we live the same life. Like everything you said. Everything you said. Especially about being in other parts of the house. Tysm for sharing. I'm sorry you relate tho. But I'm so glad to have someone who simply understands.

 

[Kramer]

It's like we live the same life. Like everything you said. Everything you said. Especially about being in other parts of the house. Tysm for sharing. I'm sorry you relate tho. But I'm so glad to have someone who simply understands.

Yeah I thought it was just me too. It’s a freakish nonlife

 

[muffin222]

Not particularly. I savor my solitude and the peace of mind I achieve from being alone and out of sight of other people. Solitude is the only time I truly feel aligned with myself

 

[Unlucky Self]

I’ve grown fearful of suicide after years of entertaining and multiple attempts. However, strangely, I have dreams in which I feel fearful of death. Maybe it’s my subconscious.