anyone else feel SN is too good to be true?

[butterfly3]

I ordered sn and cancelled the order stupidly because I got scared that police would come or my family would find it and accidentally consume it (I was really overthinking, I know).
But at the same time it feels too good to be true. I mean it's quite affordable, legal, relatively painless compared to other methods and doesn't do severe damage on the long term when the attempt fails.
Makes me feel a little suspicious/distrusting tbh.

 

[CommitSudoku]

Probably the best part about SN is that it is legal many places and thus the police shouldn't be able to do much. I don't really see it as too good to be true aside from the fact I was actually able to obtain it easily which was unexpected from trying to go other routes before this. It's still a poison and I expect my body to react as such since I don't have all the proper drugs to make it any better, not to mention I think I'd get sick regardless knowing I ingested a poison. What scares me is it makes it feel like I have a truly reliable way out, but then I know there are cases where people do survive and I'm not sure if I'm ready to go on some days. Some things seem worth it, yet they're out of my grasp.
I honestly trust it can kill me if I take enough and don't call for help. And if I do take it and it doesn't work and the things/people who make it seem worth it are still around, maybe I'll take that as a sign to give living one more shot. But no idea what I'll do really, that's somewhat what scares me now that I have SN.

 

[Glowarm]

I was a bit suspicious too when I first read about it. But then I read A Lot about it and it really does seem to be legit.

 

[brashwriting]

I'm not worried that the police will track me down from some order. Police (despite what you see on TV) are just not that sophisticated.

I am worried that SN produces a much stronger vomit reaction that what has been said, so I'll fail in my next attempt.

 

[BigG91]

I ordered sn and cancelled the order stupidly because I got scared that police would come or my family would find it and accidentally consume it (I was really overthinking, I know).
But at the same time it feels too good to be true. I mean it's quite affordable, legal, relatively painless compared to other methods and doesn't do severe damage on the long term when the attempt fails.
Makes me feel a little suspicious/distrusting tbh.

I've got Everything i need for the SN method.
After that I've felt " Wow that was easy"
Now I'm always thinking " Will i really die if i do it "
Because it kinda seems harmless and I feel i might fail somehow.

 

[Bong-Hit-Transplant]

I came to this community post the discovery of SN by Exit International, so I kind of forget how big of a deal it is, but it really is amazing.

No other easily attainable substance can cause a painless death in a similar way. The other best method before the discovery (besides N) was the exit bag method, which was expensive, finnicky, and hardly the most comfortable way to go out.

 

[HubbaHubba]

I am still researching but so far, the issue is not obtaining SN but obtaining anti-emetics (Metoclopramide or any of it's commercial names, like Reglan/Primperan).

The vomiting (at least in my case) may very well resulted in not CTB. THEN it'll be hell for me because I will be committed, will lose my job, home and ended up homeless. That's worst than dying IMHO.

 

[lofticries]

the exit bag method, which was expensive, finnicky, and hardly the most comfortable way to go out.

so true. it was a dream method a few months ago but having thought of it in grand detail i'm like 'nope' now.

 

[its-about-time]

No. Not too good to be true. Just the best of a really shitty situation. I appreciate having found and acquired a method that's more acceptable to me than previous options but it's still something I wish I wasn't even considering taking.

 

[butterfly3]

No. Not too good to be true. Just the best of a really shitty situation. I appreciate having found and acquired a method that's more acceptable to me than previous options but it's still something I wish I wasn't even considering taking.

No I totally agree. That's what I meant, I worded my post really wrong. I wish that it didn't have to come to this in the first place.
But for me at least I've found a decently comfortable way out

 

[Zeus35]

so true. it was a dream method a few months ago but having thought of it in grand detail i'm like 'nope' now.

What made you change your mind?

 

[LittleBlackCat]

Just be careful because I was contacted by the police.

After further research I decided on N. I'm going to wait until I have the money, if D isn't around by then I'll go to Peru or wherever I need to go, book a nice hotel and go there. Obviously I hope D remains in business.
SN is the cheaper more accessible method but i just think I'd freak out with the vomiting and racing heart

 

[headspin]

I ordered sn and cancelled the order stupidly because I got scared that police would come or my family would find it and accidentally consume it (I was really overthinking, I know).
But at the same time it feels too good to be true. I mean it's quite affordable, legal, relatively painless compared to other methods and doesn't do severe damage on the long term when the attempt fails.
Makes me feel a little suspicious/distrusting tbh.

It does seem too good to be true. I have mine though. I want to test it. It will be awful for those I'm leaving behind, but I can't live like this any longer. They are all neurotypical and engaged in life. I wish I was. I don't really want to die, I just can't envision a future that will get any better. I can barely function. But, that said, it will be really, really much worse if the attempt doesn't work. Most likely back to the hospital, and then returning to an even worse situation.

 

[sharky]

I have a little suicide box with SN and AE and everything needed. Good to have it nearby. But I still feel like I don't trust it fully.

 

[Shu]

I have a little suicide box with SN and AE and everything needed. Good to have it nearby. But I still feel like I don't trust it fully.

Did you buy it like that ot put it all together?

 

[lofticries]

What made you change your mind?

Quite a few things but the main thing was the risk of unconsciously ripping my mask off.

 

[Zeus35]

I have a little suicide box with SN and AE and everything needed. Good to have it nearby. But I still feel like I don't trust it fully.

The only ones that fail are the ones that don't follow Stan's guide correctly, don't use the correct medications or call the ambulance. No one who has ever took a second drink of SN has survived. I'll be making two SN drinks. Most people here make two SN drink s just to ensure they definitely ctb

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

There's around 20 pages dedicated to SN in the PPeH, which is one of the most trustworthy publications on ctb out there. Between that and Stan's Guide, it seems pretty kosher to me (although I agree that it does seem a little too good to be true).

I have a little suicide box with SN and AE and everything needed. Good to have it nearby. But I still feel like I don't trust it fully.

Yeah, I've made a couple of these kits myself, filled with the stuff recommended in Stan's Guide, along with a sealed bottle of SN. I have two kits in case my first attempt fails and the kit that's on me is found and the SN is confiscated.

I also have a couple of other kits that I made for other methods. Knowing that I have them gives me a great deal of comfort.

 

[sharky]

Did you buy it like that ot put it all together?

No. You have to get the AE from a doctor. Everything else OTC

 

[Shu]

No. You have to get the AE from a doctor. Everything else OTC

Ah you made the kit yourself okay.

 

[Jess]

Just be careful because I was contacted by the police.

After further research I decided on N. I'm going to wait until I have the money, if D isn't around by then I'll go to Peru or wherever I need to go, book a nice hotel and go there. Obviously I hope D remains in business.
SN is the cheaper more accessible met?

Why were you contacted by the police? Where are you from?

 

[Shu]

There's around 20 pages dedicated to SN in the PPeH, which is one of the most trustworthy publications on ctb out there. Between that and Stan's Guide, it seems pretty kosher to me (although I agree that it does seem a little too good to be true).

Yeah, I've made a couple of these kits myself, filled with the stuff recommended in Stan's Guide, along with a sealed bottle of SN. I have two kits in case my first attempt fails and the kit that's on me is found and the SN is confiscated.

I also have a couple of other kits that I made for other methods. Knowing that I have them gives me a great deal of comfort.

20 pages? I see like 3 or 4

 

[pikku.tiikeri]

I don't know if SN sounds too good to be true. There seem to be instances where people threw up after drinking it.

It's the nembutal thing that seems too good to be true to me. Has everyone succeeded after drinking N? Is it as peaceful as they claim it to be? I wish I had the money to purchase nembutal. Even if I did, I'm not sure it will reach me.

 

[Judy Garland]

I am still researching but so far, the issue is not obtaining SN but obtaining anti-emetics (Metoclopramide or any of it's commercial names, like Reglan/Primperan).

The vomiting (at least in my case) may very well resulted in not CTB. THEN it'll be hell for me because I will be committed, will lose my job, home and ended up homeless. That's worst than dying IMHO.

I've been homeless and it isn't fun. Shelters are no fun either. I will either take my SN to the woods to cbt upon being homeless again, or I will do it in my apartment where I am now, before I become homeless. I just know it is inevitable because I am an invalid.

 

[sharky]

I don't know if SN sounds too good to be true. There seem to be instances where people threw up after drinking it.

It's the nembutal thing that seems too good to be true to me. Has everyone succeeded after drinking N? Is it as peaceful as they claim it to be? I wish I had the money to purchase nembutal. Even if I did, I'm not sure it will reach me.

Nembutal is as peaceful as it can be. Also super reliable. I would get it, but customs will most likely seize it so I won't bother.

 

[Foresight]

SN will kill you. I don't feel it's too good to be true in that sense at all.

N is not too good to be true either. Best of the best. These are legitimate suicide methods and there's a lot to read on both.

 

[HubbaHubba]

I've been homeless and it isn't fun. Shelters are no fun either. I will either take my SN to the woods to cbt upon being homeless again, or I will do it in my apartment where I am now, before I become homeless. I just know it is inevitable because I am an invalid.

@Judy_Garland I am so sorry to hear that. I live in US Western Coastal areas and homelessness is a big issue. Crimes, drug OD, rapes, etc. are rampant in many homeless camps and there's not much assistance from the government.

I may sound like a hypocrite (since I am planning to CTB myself), but I hope things are getting better and you're not homeless now (or in danger of being homeless again).

 

[Judy Garland]

@Judy_Garland I am so sorry to hear that. I live in US Western Coastal areas and homelessness is a big issue. Crimes, drug OD, rapes, etc. are rampant in many homeless camps and there's not much assistance from the government.

I may sound like a hypocrite (since I am planning to CTB myself), but I hope things are getting better and you're not homeless now (or in danger of being homeless again).

Thank you for the kind words. No, I'm not homeless now and it would be at probably Christmas time where I'd be in danger of being homeless, so most likely I'll cbt in my apartment. I might go out to the woods because I don't want to feel boxed in when I cbt. I want there to be lots of light, and nature sounds good to be around too. But who knows, I may just do it in my Livingroom during the day where I can see the sky through the window. It's going to be soon. There is no reason for me to keep going. Nothing is keeping me here. Hope things are going well for you. Thank you again for your kindness.

 

[iwillforyou]

I am still researching but so far, the issue is not obtaining SN but obtaining anti-emetics (Metoclopramide or any of it's commercial names, like Reglan/Primperan).

The vomiting (at least in my case) may very well resulted in not CTB. THEN it'll be hell for me because I will be committed, will lose my job, home and ended up homeless. That's worst than dying IMHO.

^I'm there already, now CTB is even more difficult. —unless I'm up for train/jumps and boy oh boy are those my least preferred methods.

The mental health regime in the country is despicable and demeaning.

 

[harshbarger]

People do warn potential users of this method about the potential for discomfort and the need to use / benefit of using additional medications as part of the process. Most of those substances are controlled in the UK, which adds a degree of difficulty.