Discussion Anyone else feel like they are rejected from this world?

[human909]

I'm about to tell you a fucking story and to tell you why the hell i feel like i'm being rejected by this world.


It started when i had social anxiety it didn't really worsen until april, then i know you gonna think this is ridiculous but i start whispering to myself to help block out intrusive thoughts, but it just gets fucking worse and worse and even worser. I can't stop myself from saying bad stuff about other people, i really really try. I hate myself so much i can't wait until i die and have peace so i don't have to worry about hurting anyone else mentally. I'm also getting weird looks when people are around and that just scares the shit out of me even more and people starting not to like me, i mean everyone my friends turning away from my family and everyone. I really don't want them to drug me with this fucking anti-depression pill. Also everywhere i go im to fucking shy to say i have a medical condition with severe social anxiety, so people start avoiding me and i mean almost everyone.


Does anyone else feel like they have been rejected from this world?

 

[KillingPain267]

Yes, all my life since I was 14 I felt like I don't fit in anywhere. Only the grave and it's worms will accept me.

 

[DNR702]

I'm about to tell you a fucking story and to tell you why the hell i feel like i'm being rejected by this world.


It started when i had social anxiety it didn't really worsen until april, then i know you gonna think this is ridiculous but i start whispering to myself to help block out intrusive thoughts, but it just gets fucking worse and worse and even worser. I can't stop myself from saying bad stuff about other people, i really really try. I hate myself so much i can't wait until i die and have peace so i don't have to worry about hurting anyone else mentally. I'm also getting weird looks when people are around and that just scares the shit out of me even more and people starting not to like me, i mean everyone my friends turning away from my family and everyone. I really don't want them to drug me with this fucking anti-depression pill. Also everywhere i go im to fucking shy to say i have a medical condition with severe social anxiety, so people start avoiding me and i mean almost everyone.


Does anyone else feel like they have been rejected from this world?

I absolutely feel the same way. I have always been shy. Like grossly shy as a child but tried to be more open and friendly as I got older but the more I think people get to know me the more they don't like me. I've gone through phases of my life where I really tried to fit in with people around me, tried being like them but ultimately just didn't. Now I've given up socially on trying to fit in. I have no friends. No family ever contacts me. This world has rejected me too. My only hope is that when I do CTB I will not be reincarnated and sent right back to this shit hole.

 

[VoidAetherium]

Intrusive thoughts is a terrible sensation. I can't never differ when i daydreaming or being assaulted by multiple situations that gives me a discomfort and struggle to the end. One of the reasons i had avoid socializing is because of that since foreseeing certain outcomes that would certainly ended up on a bad situation. Getting or walking around on a multitude of people already make me discomfort too. They look at you and sometimes you can even see that they said things about you and laugh at you back on purpose. It started to feel like breathing changes to a lot of variations, feeling like trapped in a location. thinking to scream up and beat those bastards to so end up in prison or worse or just leave and let it go. Most of the time just listening music or binaural beats at home because getting around home without while listening the voices of the outside neighbors calling out things about you and laughing about you at your back , making my anxiety goes on levels of absurdity like wanting to do something outrageous but then the thoughts arise to give the outcome of the consequences and then i cry with my teeths shut inside while screaming out loud inside. Is one of those moments of desperation and discomfort that my rage uplifts my will to end everything but i know i may fail because the lack of thinking what to do while trying to end up. And to ease this pain sometimes inflicting pain on myself, destroying some object or trying hardly to calm down while listening music.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

In my case, it's me rejecting the world rather than it rejecting me

 

[blackpillhopeless]

Yes, I have a below average face and am autistic, been treated horribly by people my whole life as a result.

 

[Overwhelmed52]

Oh absolutely. Puberty was not kind to me and I lost all of my looks at around age 13 and never got them back. Problems at home, plus my insecurity, plus not having any friends really affected my personality and I am totally weird/awkward when it comes to interacting with people.
I've tried being "funny" to make up for it, but I've come to realize that I'm just obnoxious. I feel like I might have adhd and I tried taking meds for that (hoping it would be like flipping a switch) but they just made my heart race like crazy. I would love it more than anything if I was the kind of person people liked to call or invite over.

 

[RoyalBengalAutistic]

I do

 

[death_bed221]

Yes, all my life since I was 14 I felt like I don't fit in anywhere. Only the grave and it's worms will accept me.

I don't think even worms want me tbh

 

[ClippedWings]

I've been excluded from humanity.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I feel literally the SAME as you... My social anxiety got so bad to the point that I literally cannot do anything I'm not already comfortable doing. I feel like I'm just "unfit" for this world and life itself because I seem to just he incapable of changing this thing. Sometimes I just fuck up talking so much that I end up blabbering nonsense, but most of the time I just freeze and try to evade from any situation. It's terrible.

 

[gummycentipede]

Is anyone else like this, but without the guts to even post on this forum? It's just me, right? I've been around here for almost 2 years and I don't think I even have 10 posts yet. I feel like I'm the only one like this who's still alive. The only one with the gall to lurk so heavily yet fails to contribute anything themselves. Maybe you can feel better knowing that you are nowhere near as bad as me. It takes me hours to feel comfortable enough to spew simple sentences, these included. If I was brought into the world at an earlier time, I feel that I am absolutely the kind of person that dies off to natural selection. Like in this day and age, I was born to be bullied into suicide. That if the people of this site ended up gathering in person, you'd undoubtedly fit in and be welcome while I'd stick out like a sore thumb because it would very apparent that I am the only one that is genuinely pathetic. And that I was only let onto this forum because those handling approvals also want me to disappear. Is anyone else like this? Finding themselves thinking anything like this? Because way too often, I feel like such a massive outlier that I don't even belong on this forum. That everyone else's experiences are relatable or at the very least can be understood, but mine just come across as lies or batshit insanity. I hope I'm not breaking unspoken conventional social rules or any forum guidelines with this, because I just want some way to know that I'm right so I don't come back here anymore

 

[ClippedWings]

Is anyone else like this, but without the guts to even post on this forum? It's just me, right? I've been around here for almost 2 years and I don't think I even have 10 posts yet. I feel like I'm the only one like this who's still alive. The only one with the gall to lurk so heavily yet fails to contribute anything themselves. Maybe you can feel better knowing that you are nowhere near as bad as me. It takes me hours to feel comfortable enough to spew simple sentences, these included. If I was brought into the world at an earlier time, I feel that I am absolutely the kind of person that dies off to natural selection. Like in this day and age, I was born to be bullied into suicide. That if the people of this site ended up gathering in person, you'd undoubtedly fit in and be welcome while I'd stick out like a sore thumb because it would very apparent that I am the only one that is genuinely pathetic. And that I was only let onto this forum because those handling approvals also want me to disappear. Is anyone else like this? Finding themselves thinking anything like this? Because way too often, I feel like such a massive outlier that I don't even belong on this forum. That everyone else's experiences are relatable or at the very least can be understood, but mine just come across as lies or batshit insanity. I hope I'm not breaking unspoken conventional social rules or any forum guidelines with this, because I just want some way to know that I'm right so I don't come back here anymore

:(

Why do you think so badly about yourself? Your profile picture is already the best on-site.

 

[JesiBel]

I understand how you feel. I can't connect with people either, it's like I have an aura or something that makes them move away from me or that makes them reject me.

I was always the weird, lonely, quiet girl...

And I am not a hostile or dangerous person, I have an open mind, I don't like pretending or falsehood, I am.. myself.

 

[NonEssential]

Social anxiety sucks, it's why I didn't have a single friend in high school