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iloverachel

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No matter where I go, I always feel like an outsider, never accepted, never fit in, completely alienated, ostracized and treated like dirt.

However, when I am at the cemetery, I get a warm feeling and sense of belonging. I fit in with the dead. I want to join them and finally find a place I belong

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I love looking at photos of cemeteries. Its like I am shopping and searching for a new home
 
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kogareteru

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i'm in a country with majority being muslim. everytime i go, i see all of those tombstones with people's names and poems written for them by their closest ones.
i feel like when i die and get in a grave, another person like me will come and look around to see nothing but tombstones. he will miss the fact that all of the buried had their lives and their relatives.
everytime i visit my grandfather's tombstone, i feel like i will die like him, by jumping off from a high place after praying. but instead, i will make him proud.
 
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FuneralCry

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Yes and I very much envy those people, they are so fortunate to now be unconscious for all eternity and no longer burdened with this existence. I'm certainly only meant for the peace of eternal nothingness, I don't deserve something so hellish and futile as having the ability to exist, I was never meant to exist and never should have existed at all.
 
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