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SuicidallyCurious

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Dec 20, 2020
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I can imagine as a model, the despair knowing that old age is creeping up and slowly eating away at your treasure. But some models who ctb might not do it for that reason at all. They may just have a mind which is focussed on other worries (somehow)

I'd be curious to see an age at time of suicide distribution study of the suicides of models and similar like actors compared to the general public .

It's got to be especially tough for models .
 
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WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
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I can imagine as a model, the despair knowing that old age is creeping up and slowly eating away at your treasure. But some models who ctb might not do it for that reason at all. They may just have a mind which is focussed on other worries (somehow)
Old age happens to everyone, though. At least they have their beauty at all (which is more than I can say about myself). Ofc, I feel like some that CTB because of work pressure and it sucks.
 
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SuicidallyCurious

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Old age happens to everyone, though. At least they have their beauty at all (which is more than I can say about myself). Ofc, I feel like some that CTB because of work pressure and it sucks.

I fucked a very attractive model a few years back. The model was top tier , had four passports, was loaded with cash. i really don't know how it happened given I'm an average guy.

So of course it was just a one night thing . Well years later I just recently got a phone call from the model and I thought why is this happening now. Well I looked at the clock and realized oh shit the model is probably about to turn 30.

As the looks go downhill they often start to seek validation more and more
 
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WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
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I fucked a very attractive model a few years back. The model was top tier , had four passports, was loaded with cash. i really don't know how it happened given I'm an average guy.

So of course it was just a one night thing . Well years later I just recently got a phone call from the model and I thought why is this happening now. Well I looked at the clock and realized oh shit the model is probably about to turn 30.

As the looks go downhill they often start to seek validation more and more
I still would prefer to be attractive (and female) than not.
 
Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
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I fucked a very attractive model a few years back. The model was top tier , had four passports, was loaded with cash. i really don't know how it happened given I'm an average guy.

So of course it was just a one night thing . Well years later I just recently got a phone call from the model and I thought why is this happening now. Well I looked at the clock and realized oh shit the model is probably about to turn 30.

As the looks go downhill they often start to seek validation more and more
I think anyone in a "face" industry has a really hard time, especially if there's no support system. I would not want to be them, ever.

And not just face, body industry too. Or sports. They understand there's always someone waiting to replace them, and once you lose a step or gain a pound or wrinkle, you're toast.

That's why I love long distance running—you can be a hideous string bean, no one gives a shit. And once you're older, you can run ultras, which is all about conditioning and sheer will. Speed is hardly a factor in races that can go 100 miles or more…
 
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SuicidallyCurious

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I think anyone in a "face" industry has a really hard time, especially if there's no support system. I would not want to be them, ever.

And not just face, body industry too. Or sports. They understand there's always someone waiting to replace them, and once you lose a step or gain a pound or wrinkle, you're toast.

That's why I love long distance running—you can be a hideous string bean, no one gives a shit. And once you're older, you can run ultras, which is all about conditioning and sheer will. Speed is hardly a factor in races that can go 100 miles or more…

The world is littered with washed up face industry people who didn't budget. It's like the (usually) female version of NFL where they didn't save for after the career and have nothing.

Of course all of this is very sad but nothing can stop the passage of time
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
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Not directly, but it certainly doesn't help that I'm ugly but inside and out.
 
Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,875
Old age happens to everyone, though. At least they have their beauty at all (which is more than I can say about myself). Ofc, I feel like some that CTB because of work pressure and it sucks.
Yes I agree (well we spoke before about this lol), definitely better to have been pretty at some point than to never have been pretty.
 
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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
I'm doing it because I'm attractive but can't fucking meet anybody. This antisocial society is awful. Why can't I just approach the women who smile and check me out at the store? Apparently you're not supposed to do that.
 
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SuicidallyCurious

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Dec 20, 2020
1,715
I'm doing it because I'm attractive but can't fucking meet anybody. This antisocial society is awful. Why can't I just approach the women who smile and check me out at the store? Apparently you're not supposed to do that.

You can do it

Being drunk helps

When I was much younger I was a teetotaler throughout my whole life into my college years. During my whole college years I probably would have had no more than like a quarter of a bottle of vodka for the whole college experience.

At that time I was a much different personality I cared a lot more was serious about studying etc.

When you drink much easier to flirt just prepare for it to end in disaster every now and then
 
Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
You can do it

Being drunk helps

When I was much younger I was a teetotaler throughout my whole life into my college years. During my whole college years I probably would have had no more than like a quarter of a bottle of vodka for the whole college experience.

At that time I was a much different personality I cared a lot more was serious about studying etc.

When you drink much easier to flirt just prepare for it to end in disaster every now and then
Carry a flask as I'm grocery shopping? Lol
 
Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
You drink before the social encounter.


You drink before the social encounter.
But I don't always have encounters when I go to the store and drinking before I get out of my car in the store parking lot seems like a bad idea.
 
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SuicidallyCurious

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Dec 20, 2020
1,715
But I don't always have encounters when I go to the store and drinking before I get out of my car in the store parking lot seems like a bad idea.

Oh sorry my bad , I live in a walkable community at the moment so my mind is disengaged from the whole car aspect that's the reality for most of us

Yeh that's not a good idea
 
☆AwaitingEntropy☆

☆AwaitingEntropy☆

Snuffing the Light Out
Nov 6, 2021
208
I'm unattractive and overweight. Even when friends and family compliment me it feels like they're talking to a kid. "Oh, you're adorable/ cute/ funny." Or I have a "wonderful personality." Not to mention, my vocal cords have some issues so I literally sound like I'm always smoking, stuffed up or sick.

While I hate my voice, I don't actually mind my looks at all. But the feeling of "otherness" and alienation by the way people talk to me, or don't talk to me - that's a different story.
I have a hard enough time socializing, but there are a lot of experiences I just don't have that make it hard to relate to people. Like, the one time someone asked me out was as a joke.

I flat out don't feel like a person, just a punchline.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,327
Being physically beautiful would only make me more suicidal, at this point nothing could ever make me want to live. I am past caring about my horrible appearance, I will always look pale and ill. To me, the way that someone looks is meaningless. Nothing really matters, eventually we will all be forgotten about and all our problems will die with us. The thing that is really ugly to me is all the suffering in this world.
 
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quix77

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Apr 29, 2022
29
I've been ostracized my entire life. There's no point in living if you are an ugly ethnic girl. I'm harassed everywhere I go, no matter how nice or accommodating I tried to be.
You are who you are. Fuck the world. Dont be nice or accomodating. Dont take shit from anyone. Other people's opinions dont matter a bit.

Enjoy life while it lasts
 
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Starz

Member
Jan 24, 2020
19
100% relate to this. Good looking people have way more chance of being more successful 😔
 
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Coffeandamug

Words are quite useless, and so am I.
Oct 22, 2020
171
Old age happens to everyone, though. At least they have their beauty at all (which is more than I can say about myself). Ofc, I feel like some that CTB because of work pressure and it sucks.
I wish I was a model looking guy, and I could realize my beauty soon. Even when I'm going to lose it. It's better to burn bright for a short moment than to have never shone at all.
 
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Idkaho2

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Dec 18, 2021
59
I look fine but I have pretty bad psoriasis that is only getting worse from me being addicted to drinking. Not fun looking like a leper.