Discussion Anyone else alone all the time?

[katara]

Title.
I have no friends and I've been alone for years. I'm starting to feel effects of it. Idk if it's a gen z thing bc so many are anti social and leave u the second they get bored. Anybody here have a similar experience? I just hate seeing shit online about people like Luigi Mangione or serial killers, even they had friends! But why can't I? And I really that unlovable? I guess so

 

[nool]

You're not alone.

I haven't had irl friends since I was in my 2nd year of high school. I had switched to a smaller school due to anxiety and left behind my only two school friends there. At my new school, people were friendly but I never had real friends. Then I began homeschooling because I was still experiencing bad panic attacks.

From then to now, I've only had online friends. I had one who I met irl once since he lived in my city for a bit, but his boyfriend hated me so that never panned out.

Even now, I barely talk to my online friends. I reply to tweets and send tiktoks and all that but never one-on-one deep convos. My best friend lives states away and is busy with college and work, so we don't talk much.

I can go days without truly talking to anybody. I'm lonely, but I suffer from paranoid delusions that makes new friendships hard.

 

[Tobacco]

I have a history of being the last one to message people on discord and the 99% don't talk back to me again. I guess I'm just too autistic but at least I have 2 people who I message with semi regularly but nothing like having friends with whom to talk to everyday.

 

[gothbird]

I'm sick most days and it keeps me exhausted, so I barely leave my bed, let alone the house. People drifted away a long time ago, and now it's just me and one or two people who I love. Even the ones who said they cared stopped checking in once I couldn't keep up anymore.

It's strange, isn't it? You scroll online and see the worst people in the world managing to have friends, followers, people who'll stand by them no matter how awful they are and yet here we are. I don't know if it's because I'm unlovable or just unlucky, but the silence around me feels endless.

I wish I could say it gets better. Mostly it just feels heavy. Like the sickness eats at you, and the loneliness eats at what's left.

You're not the only one, though. I guess that's something. Sending you thoughts. May your journey be kind.

 

[Dejected 55]

All...the...time... I'm always alone. I unfortunately understand.

 

[shampoo sniffer]

Yeah. I've never had friends, probably due to autism and poor childhood socialisation. I used to stand in the playground by myself and create imaginary worlds in my mind to live in. My teachers never picked up on this and I wasn't diagnosed with autism until I was 18.

And now, thanks to trauma, I can never form anything past acquaintances because I'm too afraid to form real connections to people.

 

[LetMeOut67]

I haven't seen my "best friend" since 1999
The only contacts I have are with siblings and cousins and those are rare
I spend 95% of my time alone
I don't know if I even want friends , it's hard to make meaningful connections in middle age but that seems to be true for all ages nowadays
This world we've created is horrible really
I don't know what I expected from life but it probably wasn't this
I guess I'll die with so much not corrected and so much not taken advantage of , just piles of regret and untidiness but that's how it was always going to be perhaps

 

[lastsummer_yay]

You just described me. XD I used to listen to podcasts about maniacs and think, "How the hell did he even find someone with the same "interests"? I've been looking for someone like me for years!! What the hell?" Now I realize that for them, it's actually not that difficult.
Yeah. I can't stand loneliness, but at the same time, I've already gotten used to it.

 

[bankai]

I live alone, but I'm not that lonely. When I go to work, I talk to my coworkers, both men and women. I do have friends in real life, but they don't live in my city and they're spread all across the world. Among all these friends, I have only one proper childhood friend that I can trust no matter what. Of course, I still cannot discuss suicide or depression with any of them. That's what you guys are for

So I mitigate loneliness by talking online. And I do talk to people at work.We go to the cafeteria, share meals, drink tea or coffee, et cetera. That takes care of things. And again, that isn't every day. I work from home most of the time. But even when I work from home, I join teams meetings and talk to others,discuss work issues and problems and try to find solutions. So All in all, that aspect is kind of OK for me. I'm also introverted so I don't want someone hovering around me all the time either.

 

[unluckysadness]

Yes I'm isolated too (no friends, no partner, no working place anymore and family doesn't care - just my mother). I'm not interested about people anymore because nobody understand me. Anyway I'm planning to leave soon so I don't give a shit anymore

 

[knickknack81]

A lot has changed for me in the past few years, particularly the last year. The main thing being my partner of 6 years left me and now I realize how alone I am. Most of my really good friends I had over the years have either moved away or we have lost contact, nothing personal just life happens (career, family, other things move you in various directions). I Still have some local friends that I shoot the shit with when I go out but I wouldn't say we have a real closeness. Because of that, I feel my isolated (and I dont have a close family structure) I feel more alone then ever. I spend many of my days in total silence and dont talk to people. I never realized how sad that could be. It's really my motivating factor to consider CTB. I am not quite there yet but each day alone just gets harder and harder.