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Cara7177
Trying to end it all
- Feb 9, 2024
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Can't afford food as it is, so I might as well embrace the starvation and use it to my advantage.
Oh as it is I never sleep, I won't miss sleep (cuz I never get it).Dying from starvation takes a long time and it's miserable. I've done longer water fasts (I'm in recovery from anorexia nervosa) and they sucked. I felt cold and weak all the time, couldn't focus on anything else than food and sleeping was almost impossible.
right then, I need a better way,A long time. Your body will fight it. I've had anorexia for a long time. Your body will first eat away at your fat supply. This alone take a long time to induce. Then it will eat away at your muscles. This will affect your heart eventually, because it depends on the contraction of your cardiac muscle to pump blood. When that muscle is weak enough, which again takes a long time (because that muscle will not be your body's first choice), your heart will go into cardiac arrest. It is really impossible to know when this will happen because every body is unique. All in all, it's lengthy and risky as people do survive heart attacks. If you survive, you'd probably be identified as having an ED and sent to treatment. And you don't know when your heart will fail. Sure, you might be alone, or you might not. You never really know. Wouldn't recommend personally, there are better ways.
TL;DR you will likely go into cardiac arrest before dying of malnutrition, because our bodies are hard wired with backups to fight malnutrition.
Living IS mentally draining, which is why I'm looking for a way to die.You can go very very long without eating any food at all, it would be very mentally draining. as if living isnt allready bad enough.
I don't want hugs, I want a reliable suicide methodOh as it is I never sleep, I won't miss sleep (cuz I never get it).
right then, I need a better way,
I've tried VSED before but I had to give up after 2 days due to the thirst. I've tried fasting multiple times unsuccessfully (because I love food haha), but I might try again because I just want to get out of this world.
Well I just thought since I can't afford food AND I wanna end it all, I could kill two birds with one stoneits hard bro not easy at all