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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
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Over the last month ive begun to notice a steady decline in my physical health and I didn't think it would come so soon (im only 20).

Sadly, I think my 10 year rugby career in my adolescent years is catching up with me, or at the very least, has been a significant contributing factor to the state im in at the moment.

I suppose I shouldn't be complaining too much, it's mainly just annoying niggles and aching pains that last a couple of hours at a time, however it does scare me what's in store for me in the future. I've found that it's mainly areas that I injured/hurt during my playing days that give me the most strife. Some mornings I wake up with these weird cramps in one of my right groin/thigh/calf region, which doesn't go away for a solid 30 minutes, I get aching pains in my ankles and knees from time to time which isn't helped by how far I have to walk to get to and from work each day, i've always had lower back issues ever since my teen years but it has been more common as of late, but the worst pain would have to be in my right wrist which I broke really badly about 6 years back, when I get the pain, it's so bad that I can't rotate my wrist and I can feel it further up my forearm and near my elbow.

I wonder how the CTE heads who've played contact sports their entirely lives at the professional level can even stand on their own two feet without assistance, I'm assuming that they're drugged out of their minds most of the time to numb the pain.

It's bad enough living with chronic depression and all the other shit in my life, now my health is slowly deteriorating. I could only imagine how bad i'm going to be if I live until im elderly, hell, even if I live into middle age I don't think ill be able to live with the pain.

Anyone else facing the same problems?
 
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DunnoWhyButYeah

DunnoWhyButYeah

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Apr 3, 2020
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Well I'm already 35 so not young anymore, but the last 10 years have been a downturn. I have never been able to run or jump (not even when I was kid) and now I can only walk 100 meters before I have to get to sit. There is many things what I can't do, but this is something what I hate most in my life... I can never again find someone who can love me and live with me, because I need so much help and I can't always do same things than others. I'm even ok with my chronic pain, but not with this. Healthy body is something what I never had and never can get.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
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Well I'm already 35 so not young anymore, but the last 10 years have been a downturn. I have never been able to run or jump (not even when I was kid) and now I can only walk 100 meters before I have to get to sit. There is many things what I can't do, but this is something what I hate most in my life... I can never again find someone who can love me and live with me, because I need so much help and I can't always do same things than others. I'm even ok with my chronic pain, but not with this. Healthy body is something what I never had and never can get.
I'm sorry to hear that.
 
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UselessMF

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Dec 4, 2020
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Feeling you about that, I played (American) football for 8 years, I'm 33 years old now. Broke my ankle in a bad way still feeling it, some concussions and I have daily back pain, but it's not that bad I'm just feeling a bit older than I am.

But my bad mental health is really harder to live with, it drains way more energy and power of will. You may have the healthier and stronger body you want, if mental don't follow you won't do anything.

That being said, I can't imagine whats it's really like to have severe chronic pain cause i'm not in that situation. I understand it can affect someone mental health with all the problems it can cause.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,615
Health problems can be one of the worst things about life as there is no limit as to how bad it can get. The body can become a prison. I am 20 and I have spent most of my teenage years being ill. I think it was linked to stress. I have tinnitus and visual snow and my body has not recovered fully after taking the wrong medication. My body does ache sometimes but it is not that bad. I know health tends to get worse as you get older and I am dreading the future. I'm sorry you are suffering.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

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Sep 9, 2018
2,984
Yeah I've been sick for 7 years now. Brain fog, dizziness, chronic fatigue, feeling totally out of it and semi-delirious 24/7. No answers from health care people. My GP is clueless, the specialists can't find anything. Only unemployment, isolation, and a mountain of medical debt to show for it.
 
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HomesickAlien

HomesickAlien

Vicious Cycle
Nov 5, 2019
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Given your age, I really hope it's not arthritis!
An obvious suggestion, but, have you seen a doctor about this? Perhaps all you need is to stay away from rugby for a while and better sleeping habits and/or a better mattress.
the worst pain would have to be in my right wrist which I broke really badly about 6 years back, when I get the pain, it's so bad that I can't rotate my wrist and I can feel it further up my forearm and near my elbow
Perhaps this didn't heal properly or a small fracture developed, again can you tell a doctor and have it examined?

I also have back issues and a number of minor pains, due to hard toil during my teenage years and later long-distance running, which I did as a mechanism to cope with anxiety, and decades of awful posture. I'm more than twice your age though.
I wish those were my worst problems anyway, they are not nearly as bad as my cognitive decline, my messed-up brain chemistry and the fact that those are irreversible.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
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Given your age, I really hope it's not arthritis!
An obvious suggestion, but, have you seen a doctor about this? Perhaps all you need is to stay away from rugby for a while and better sleeping habits and/or a better mattress.

Perhaps this didn't heal properly or a small fracture developed, again can you tell a doctor and have it examined?

I also have back issues and a number of minor pains, due to hard toil during my teenage years and later long-distance running, which I did as a mechanism to cope with anxiety, and decades of awful posture. I'm more than twice your age though.
I wish those were my worst problems anyway, they are not nearly as bad as my cognitive decline, my messed-up brain chemistry and the fact that those are irreversible.
I haven't seen a doctor yet but ill go and get it checked out if the pain becomes unbearable, also I haven't played rugby since I was 16.
 
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insomuchpain316

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Sep 19, 2021
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Yeap I am ready to go. Every night I hope I won't wake up and then I do. :(
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
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My heart is 50 years old in comparison to the average, my penis is 90, and my brain 4.
 
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lotus11

lotus11

Specialist
May 18, 2019
344
Meeeee... 11 years of anorexia bulimia laxative abuse...I'm 29 my body is fucked. Constantly in pain.
 
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BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

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Apr 7, 2019
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I'm 27 and I have seizures, blood clotting problems, lung infections, a back injury (from bridge jumping) and a hole in my inner ear that gave me permanent vertigo and pain. These are all the results of extreme abuse I put my body through. I live in fear of what life will be like for me if I ever make it past 40...
 
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