Venting Anybody else who cannot live and cannot die?

[Black wizard]

I want to ctb every single day but when I plan it all out I just start crying endlessly. I love my family even if they don't care about me and I don't want to leave them or hurt them even though death is objectively the right thing for me. I am stuck between life and death. I am not living but I am afraid I cannot die either. Does anybody else feel this way?

 

[nowhere123]

I feel the same, I'm trapped in these feelings every day.

 

[deadpornstarr!]

there's still this bit of hope in me that things are going to get better , and that i really should stay around to see that , but a lot of the time i really just wish it would go away already . the things its dragging me through are too painful most of the time .

im just kind of exhausted . it sucks

 

[Jamylap]

i live exactly the same... i cry everyday and i smile all day but since i am alone i start sh or crying, and i don't manage to open up to my psychologist... i have to talk but my friends have their own problems... and can't die but i can't live like this anymore... you know, i would juste like to pause my life... it would be great, you see, nothing during a time... and dying is the best way, but i can't because of the people who love me it is soooo difficult to take a decision !!

 

[diazepam23]

I personally don't get this. I never asked for
this life so why should I feel in debt because two people decided to procreate especially since they tell me regularly that they "owe me nothing"? Ridiculous in my opinion unless your family is extremely supportive.

Everyone will eventually have to lose a family member so it makes no difference if it's now or in the future.