Anybody else wants to ctb today?

[fox_wannabe]

I wanna talk

 

[fox_wannabe]

Me. Desperately. No reliable method yet and my stupid SI is crippling me.

Everyone seems to be waiting for the inevitable with me. I just want it over.

I have a rope and everything ready for full suspenison but I am afraid I will doubt myself right before the act. I think I will just practice and visuzalize hanging myself. I do not think I have a strenght to do It today

 

[therealguy1986]

I wanna talk

Same here but i cant private message anyone yet

 

[fox_wannabe]

Same here but i cant private message anyone yet

damn, I am visualizing It and thinking about It. It is just that I am afraid that my life will never change If I do not ctb...
I cannot dm you, we can only speak here

 

[therealguy1986]

I just find everyday very hard

damn, I am visualizing It and thinking about It. It is just that I am afraid that my life will never change If I do not ctb...
I cannot dm you, we can only speak here

 

[fox_wannabe]

I just find everyday very hard

I am lonely af. and bored, and unmotivated.
I tried calling myself lazy but It does not help and describe my state, I feel like I am dead

 

[therealguy1986]

I just find everyday very hard

I'd like to go soon

 

[Tired_only]

Yes want to ctb today, been thinking about it everyday for the last couple of months, ive attempted a couple times but clearly failed. I just need the strength to go fully through with it and be successful.

 

[therealguy1986]

I am lonely af. and bored, and unmotivated.
I tried calling myself lazy but It does not help and describe my state, I feel like I am dead

I'm in a similar position to you, just so unmotivated

 

[fox_wannabe]

Yes want to ctb today, been thinking about it everyday for the last couple of months, ive attempted a couple times but clearly failed. I just need the strength to go fully through with it and be successful.

What method did you do. I send hugs

I'm in a similar position to you, just so unmotivated

I am 22 but I feel very old. I have Asperger's and have mental problems. Depression, anxiety, body dysphoria...

 

[therealguy1986]

What method did you do. I send hugs

I am 22 but I feel very old. I have Asperger's and have mental problems. Depression, anxiety, body dysphoria...

What method are you thinking of?

 

[fox_wannabe]

What method are you thinking of?

Full suspension hanging. I tried partial. I guess I will just have to bear that 10 to 7 seconds of pain. It cannot be that bad. I am afraid of panic or that I will regret it in last seconds

 

[therealguy1986]

Full suspension hanging. I tried partial. I guess I will just have to bear that 10 to 7 seconds of pain. It cannot be that bad. I am afraid of panic or that I will regret it in last seconds

I dont mind pain as long as it works

 

[fox_wannabe]

I dont mind pain as long as it works

I am afraid not of pain but of panic and regret. I wish to be at peace with death and dying. It is important for me..

 

[therealguy1986]

Full suspension hanging. I tried partial. I guess I will just have to bear that 10 to 7 seconds of pain. It cannot be that bad. I am afraid of panic or that I will regret it in last seconds

Can i get some likes to my posts, its so i can message?

I am afraid not of pain but of panic and regret. I wish to be at peace with death and dying. It is important for me..

I just want it over

 

[fox_wannabe]

Sure here you go

 

[therealguy1986]

Sure here you go

Thank you

 

[Stopthepain]

I am afraid not of pain but of panic and regret. I wish to be at peace with death and dying. It is important for me..

Thought about using N?

 

[PDAnnie2610]

I want to but I can't. I am driving everyone else away with the amount of pain I'm in. My ex's mom couldn't handle my pain anymore. She begged me to stop telling her my issue with her son and how badly I want to ctb. 24 is 24 too many days to wait till I can get some peace from my traitorous heart and my body.
Hotel or death in toilet cubicle?
settling my finances this week.
Then time for the ride.

 

[forgotten15]

I want to. Everyday of this crappy existence. But I lack courage, I am afraid of failure but also afraid of what it will be if I do succed. I have so many mixed emotions when thinking about ending my life…Even though I feel I can't go on like this too much, it is still not enough to make me decide on a method and do it.
It is not easy… I hope you find peace no matter what path you will choose

 

[fox_wannabe]

Thought about using N?

I got no money, I can buy sn tho

 

[Bedrock48]

I wish I could. Honestly contemplating getting drunk and phoning a sui hotline but idk if I even have the courage for that.

I'm sorry things suck for you rn

 

[FuneralCry]

I do want to ctb, I want to be free from this world, but it looks like it will not happen for a long time, however eventually I will. I wish it was today. It requires a lot of courage to exit this world. If only there was a way to just disappear. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I always do but I know that I can't yet because there's still things I have to do/experience otherwise it wouldn't feel right. Luckily I should be done with them all by the end of next year though.

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

Give me a button to end my existence and I would press it faster than you could say "good riddance".

I always do but I know that I can't yet because there's still things I have to do/experience otherwise it wouldn't feel right. Luckily I should be done with them all by the end of next year though.

This is pretty much how I plan to continue to live for the time being. I cannot bring myself to hurt my family right now, so for the time being I'll continue this nightmare of existence, and entertain myself to ease the pain.

 

[Yogobro298]

Absolutely. I'm completely miserable and depressed it feels like their is a tightening my grip on my throat and a huge weight on my shoulders. I have no motivation to do anything anymore at this point. I have already ordered SN just waiting on my supplies to arrive. It's the inevitable with me at this point.

 

[Outandproud]

Absolutely. I'm completely miserable and depressed it feels like their is a tightening my grip on my throat and a huge weight on my shoulders. I have no motivation to do anything anymore at this point. I have already ordered SN just waiting on my supplies to arrive. It's the inevitable with me at this point.

When i feel like that (almost everyday) i drink beer and take some pills and fell sleep. Im waiting for something not sure what. A signal of life or death, im just numb.. im new here hello everyone

 

[bed]

not today. I very well could though. I have SN but I'm waiting to get N. If everything goes as planned I should be gone in a few weeks, Nothing ever goes as planned though in my life...so I guess I'll see.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I want to ctb everyday. But I don't have all my affairs in order yet

 

[thisplaceisaprison]

I tried to last week which ended up in me just looking stupid I drank 2 bottles of wine and did 3 grams of H then just ended up banging a hole in my wall.