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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Yup. I feel incredibly lonely at times since most of my irl friends are busy most times. I try to use my time by being here, listening to music, scrolling through Reddit and watching anime. Though I admit it is a bit annoying when most friends are "busy" yet I see them posting on Facebook.
 
stygal

stygal

low-wage worker
Oct 29, 2020
1,732
I've never really (besides my partners when I was in a relationship and not even then 100 %) had a friend irl whom I could tell everything that's going on inside my head.
That bothered me when I was younger now I'm used to it.
Most people seem so different to me and preoccupied with insignificant stuff I don't give a shit about.
 
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Willdieby30

recently unbanned
Aug 21, 2018
174
I've never really (besides my partners when I was in a relationship and not even then 100 %) had a friend irl whom I could tell everything that's going on inside my head.
That bothered me when I was younger now I'm used to it.
Most people seem so different to me and preoccupied with insignificant stuff I don't give a shit about.
i fall in love with someone every so often, and after a week or so, the flame goes out it seems, and i lose my mind. i need to die
 
Antigonish

Antigonish

Mage
Sep 19, 2020
593
i lost a friend recently who said outright i depress them and they dont want to talk to me. lol and i used to get told to not worry about telling the truth about myself. i need to die
That's how it always is for me. When ever I start saying what's on my mind people begin to hate me or think to much. It's like I'm a vampire or a zombie munching on brains. But yeah life be better if I never existed. I wish my mom would've got an abortion or took birth control.
 
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Willdieby30

recently unbanned
Aug 21, 2018
174
That's how it always is for me. When ever I start saying what's on my mind people begin to hate me or think to much. It's like I'm a vampire or a zombie munching on brains. But yeah life be better if I never existed. I wish my mom would've got an abortion or took birth control.
i am waiting for this new relationship i am in to end. maybe it won't, chances are it will.

my mom had a c-section because i tied the umbilical cord around my neck. i wish she didn't
 
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OpheliasFlowers

OpheliasFlowers

Specialist
Apr 2, 2019
348
Yes I fell really alone, I had some people in my life but they left. Maybe they ended sick of me being disabled and depressed
This is my situation too. People always disappear from my life if I even open up to them just a little bit. It's happened so many times but every time still hurts as much. Even if I don't open up to them much at all verbally, once they discover or realize just how physically a mess I am (which means I'm not someone who a) has a job and has money to go do things; and b) I am basically housebound) they disappear. No matter what these people claim about "caring"...they DON'T. Apparently no one wants to deal with a person with mental illness and/or chronic physical illness or disabilities. It hurts. Sorry I'm not 'good enough' for you assholes (meaning those 'friends' who have disappeared on me). :(
 
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Willdieby30

recently unbanned
Aug 21, 2018
174
This is my situation too. People always disappear from my life if I even open up to them just a little bit. It's happened so many times but every time still hurts as much. Even if I don't open up to them much at all verbally, once they discover or realize just how physically a mess I am (which means I'm not someone who a) has a job and has money to go do things; and b) I am basically housebound) they disappear. No matter what these people claim about "caring"...they DON'T. Apparently no one wants to deal with a person with mental illness and/or chronic physical illness or disabilities. It hurts. Sorry I'm not 'good enough' for you assholes (meaning those 'friends' who have disappeared on me). :(
it's like life itself is a stigma. i can admit i'm not good enough to live it successfully, but yet i get stigmatized further for that?
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,382
it's like life itself is a stigma. i can admit i'm not good enough to live it successfully, but yet i get stigmatized further for that?
Very true... I don't belong in this world and don't want to, I'm not someone who can work the daily grind, yet they won't let me leave.
 
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Antigonish

Antigonish

Mage
Sep 19, 2020
593
Very true... I don't belong in this world and don't want to, I'm not someone who can work the daily grind, yet they won't let me leave.
You do belong. You just have to find your tribe. A place to fit in. Instead of trying to fit in with people nothing like you.
 
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Willdieby30

recently unbanned
Aug 21, 2018
174
You do belong. You just have to find your tribe. A place to fit in. Instead of trying to fit in with people nothing like you.
i am pretty sure that i dont belong. everything that hasn't ended in failure, is tough and not funded
Very true... I don't belong in this world and don't want to, I'm not someone who can work the daily grind, yet they won't let me leave.
i relate, well put
 
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Fizz

Fizz

Member
Dec 3, 2020
29
I take a lot of comfort in dark humour on this topic and the memes are great for putting distance between my feelings and the reality of depression., Not having someone to share it with can be very lonely though.
 
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Willdieby30

recently unbanned
Aug 21, 2018
174
I take a lot of comfort in dark humour on this topic and the memes are great for putting distance between my feelings and the reality of depression., Not having someone to share it with can be very lonely though.
yeah, there isnt a lot of sharing
 
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Lotus

Lotus

Experienced
Dec 17, 2019
234
Yes, I don't know what I would do without this community. I feel kinda lucky in that way, since there is always someone here to talk to and most people here are so lovely and kind. But of course, I would like to have some close friends irl. Sadly, I guess I'm not a very likable person. I try, but when I do that it's just not me, and why bother doing that.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,165
At first, I did.
Now, I don't give a sh*t! I find love and friendships pointless although I do recognize that having people who support you (for real) helps a lot.
 
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Willdieby30

recently unbanned
Aug 21, 2018
174
At first, I did.
Now, I don't give a sh*t! I find love and friendships pointless although I do recognize that having people who support you (for real) helps a lot.
im really lonely. i make friends, and they seem uninterested eventually
 
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Symbiote

Global Mod
Oct 12, 2020
3,102
You are all my friends and you help me get through the day. This is the only place where my wife doesn't have access to or sees what I talk about in here.
 
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Willdieby30

recently unbanned
Aug 21, 2018
174
You are all my friends and you help me get through the day. This is the only place where my wife doesn't have access to or sees what I talk about in here.
i am glad you find solace somewhere
 

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