LifeOfTheCursed

LifeOfTheCursed

It is what it is
Jan 3, 2024
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Three in the morning as i am writing this, i tried CTB by drinking bleach but it wouldn't even go past my lips.

The impulse to do it is pretty much gone, today would have been the perfect day but i guess not. I want reliable as in easy to acquire, i can go ahead and setup a whole plan on how to do it but when it comes to the final act i freeze and after 20 minutes of pause the impulse is gone

Guns would be pefect, but i live in Romania so i can't grab one at the corner shop. Common medicine is easily accesible but i can't just overdose on paracetamol and wait god knows how long for the bus

I need something that i can acquire somewhat easily and the final act is quick and snappy. If it kills me instantly it's great, but i wouldn't mind 30 minutes of pain before dark or whatever afterlife has in store for me
 
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edu0z

carried away by a moonlight shadow
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death note?... well, I guess is not easy to acquire, you need a shinigami first
 
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breezeboy

breezeboy

To infinity and beyond
Dec 8, 2023
404
Sorry to hear about your situation.

This compilation of methods should be able to help you find a solution.
 
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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

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May 5, 2022
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Grab a tv remote, go out at night, act crazy, and run at the cops with your remote.
death note?... well, I guess is not easy to acquire, you need a shinigami first
lol dumbass. šŸ˜†
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Kill me
Nov 26, 2023
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Yeah don't do bleach man, that's a VERY agonizing death that usually fails with terrible permanent damage. I'm not gonna provide you with a method but please PLEASE look into it and never ctb on impulse.
lol dumbass. šŸ˜†
Light yagami over here
 
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DreamEnd

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Aug 4, 2022
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Shotgun. Jumping. Hanging if executed properly.
 
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LifeOfTheCursed

It is what it is
Jan 3, 2024
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Yeah don't do bleach man, that's a VERY agonizing death that usually fails with terrible permanent damage. I'm not gonna provide you with a method but please PLEASE look into it and never ctb on impulse.
When i say impulse i mean that final finger twitch to pull the trigger. You've bought the gun, the bullet, the gun is loaded, pointed to your head, the last thing is that impulse, that finger twitch. You are fine with death, you made peace with it, but there is something that just cut the nerve off your finger, and before you know it your arm is tired of pointing a gun at yourself
 
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Funeral Crasher
Dec 13, 2023
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honestly this might be the best idea i can think of. suicide by cop would be instant if they shot to kill and landed the shot, and costs nothing. takes a lot of willpower and dedication to cause so much of a scene that the cops feel the need to kill you i guess, though. i had an internet friend who lived in romania when i was 16, and he died because some guy stabbed him in the stomach with a lawnmower blade on the way home from school. sounds like people can kill over there without too much fuss, so the cops probably have itchy trigger fingers
Grab a tv remote, go out at night, act crazy, and run at the cops with your remote.
 
LifeOfTheCursed

LifeOfTheCursed

It is what it is
Jan 3, 2024
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death note?... well, I guess is not easy to acquire, you need a shinigami first
TECHNICALLY you don't NEED a shinigami, you just need his notebook lmao
Sorry to hear about your situation.

This compilation of methods should be able to help you find a solution.
Also thanks, i'll look into it, Night Night seems interesting. I certainly will NOT be using any gasses. I'd rather not risk someone else's health if they happen to stumble in my apartment
honestly this might be the best idea i can think of. suicide by cop would be instant if they shot to kill and landed the shot, and costs nothing. takes a lot of willpower and dedication to cause so much of a scene that the cops feel the need to kill you i guess, though. i had an internet friend who lived in romania when i was 16, and he died because some guy stabbed him in the stomach with a lawnmower blade on the way home from school. sounds like people can kill over there without too much fuss, so the cops probably have itchy trigger fingers
Not too likely tbh, i doubt one will give me a clean shot. At best they'll put me in an ambulance and die on the way to the hospital but i am not placing all my luck on them, i'm all out of luck lmao
 
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DreamEnd

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TECHNICALLY you don't NEED a shinigami, you just need his notebook lmao

Also thanks, i'll look into it, Night Night seems interesting. I certainly will NOT be using any gasses. I'd rather not risk someone else's health if they happen to stumble in my apartment

Not too likely tbh, i doubt one will give me a clean shot. At best they'll put me in an ambulance and die on the way to the hospital but i am not placing all my luck on them, i'm all out of luck lmao
Idk if you are in US most cops are trigger happy
 
Sleeper System

Sleeper System

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May 5, 2022
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honestly this might be the best idea i can think of. suicide by cop would be instant if they shot to kill and landed the shot, and costs nothing. takes a lot of willpower and dedication to cause so much of a scene that the cops feel the need to kill you i guess, though. i had an internet friend who lived in romania when i was 16, and he died because some guy stabbed him in the stomach with a lawnmower blade on the way home from school. sounds like people can kill over there without too much fuss, so the cops probably have itchy trigger fingers

Hypothetically, i'd make the 911 call myself. Frantic. There is a man running in the street shooting at buildings. Tell them you heard very loud gun shots and are hiding behind a car. He's yelling that he is going to kill anyone he sees. I garantee they will rush in in force. Bad luck if they taze you first. but yeah. That would be a wild way to go. but quick. It's all luck.
 
AshClouds

AshClouds

In time I started growing inward.
Apr 10, 2023
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Plenty, although all of them are very messy. You wouldn't want anyone to discover you because it would leave everyone traumatized.
 
LifeOfTheCursed

LifeOfTheCursed

It is what it is
Jan 3, 2024
28
Plenty, although all of them are very messy. You wouldn't want anyone to discover you because it would leave everyone traumatized.
Kinda hard in a big city, either way there WILL be traumatised people, no matter if the body is found or not
 
breezeboy

breezeboy

To infinity and beyond
Dec 8, 2023
404
Plenty, although all of them are very messy. You wouldn't want anyone to discover you because it would leave everyone traumatized.
Well I guess there goes my method. Can't blow my head off if someone might feel traumatized
lol
 
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DreamEnd

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Aug 4, 2022
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Well I guess there goes my method. Can't blow my head off if someone might feel traumatized
lol
Can always do it somewhere in the woods where the animals will eat you
 
Sluggish_Slump

Sluggish_Slump

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Mar 29, 2023
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Can always do it somewhere in the woods where the animals will eat you
Wondering alone in the woods to get lost there does seem appealing when you enter them with a suicide method
 
breezeboy

breezeboy

To infinity and beyond
Dec 8, 2023
404
Can always do it somewhere in the woods where the animals will eat you
It'll be somewhere pretty in nature or a hotel.

I was making a joke. To say you can't do a method because someone will be traumatized is ridiculous.
 
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ScubaCTB

Student
Jan 1, 2024
131
I'm hoping I execute the SCUBA mask/nitrogen method to perfection so I'm unconscious after a few breaths, then dead in a few minutes. Looks like I'm going to spend about $1,000 on all the equipment to do it, including my hiking gear to do it in a remote place so nobody finds me for a long time.

The only truly quick, reliable method is unfortunately impossible to obtain ("N"). I'm in the U.S. You can buy guns in local pawn shops. But I doubt I could ever do that. It's quick and 90%-plus reliable to anywhere in the head/under chin/mouth. But not my cup of tea. I contemplated jumping. That's also quick and reliable if you're over 85 feet (25 m) in the air and land on hard surface or 110 feet landing in water.

Happy to hear that your body wouldn't let you drink bleach. That would be an awful death, and even worse if you survived.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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"Instant death" without pain is almost impossible. Dying is a process in any case. Like @eashanm already suggested, cyanide is a good way, almost instant but painful according to available literature. Full suspension hanging, especially if you can perform long drop is instant, too.

I'm sorry you are struggling so much. I hope u find peace.
 
breezeboy

breezeboy

To infinity and beyond
Dec 8, 2023
404
I contemplated jumping. That's also quick and reliable if you're over 85 feet (25 m) in the air and land on hard surface or 110 feet landing in water.
150ft for land and 250ft for water. People do 100 foot jumps into water for fun
 
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IWishToDie

I check notifications once per week
Dec 31, 2023
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honestly this might be the best idea i can think of. suicide by cop would be instant if they shot to kill and landed the shot, and costs nothing. takes a lot of willpower and dedication to cause so much of a scene that the cops feel the need to kill you i guess, though. i had an internet friend who lived in romania when i was 16, and he died because some guy stabbed him in the stomach with a lawnmower blade on the way home from school. sounds like people can kill over there without too much fuss, so the cops probably have itchy trigger fingers
Suicide by cop is only instant if the tactical unit unloads on you using rifles. Standard police pistol to the chest might be agonising or leave you crippled and behind bars. Would not recommend that method whatsoever.
 

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