Any other australians?

[g357]

It feels like australias going to absolute shit and is only going to get worse and worse forever as far as finding and affording rentals. Im terrified ill end up homeless one day on the streets, im terrified of not being safe one day. I can only imagine what would happen to me on the streets as a woman

My parents are still alive, I have friends, I have other family (although we are not close at all) for now i wont end up on the streets

What happens one day when I have no one?

Its all i can think about and ive been in crisis for a month about it. Its where the depression and suicidal ideation has started this fear. And I think its here to stay, I was quite mentally healthy before full of hope. Its all gone

I spend hours at a time, 5+ maybe googling reddit threads about australias future. About paracetemol overdoses. Trying to find a method that i can use when the time comes, trying to find peace knowing i can just choose to stick around, live my life, struggle through it and then when the time comes that I have no backup i can opt out rather than suffer on the streets. Because there is basically no resources for getting people off the streets and safe, no help. More and more homeless by the day

And there will be even less help in the future

Then one day when im old and my parents are gone (I cant kill myself and do that to them, I cant. It would destroy them especially my mother) I can do it. I can opt out rather than suffer

I can't fucking find anything. Apparently its impossible to die

Ive never dealt with suicidal ideation like this. Its all consuming

I realize this post is all over the place I just cant find the energy to fix it. I wish I was never born so fucking badly

 

[infinitelove]

Sydney here. Felt every word. Us aussies need a chat group or something for resources to share. Without getting the vendor banned by lurkers here stalking and targeting links shared. Happened to often in the past. Something will come up. Be patient and be meticulous with the information and plan of exit. Big hugs, many of us are in the same realisation esp living in Australia although most of the world is in shit. You will find a resource. Be patient and hold steady.

 

[g357]

Sydney here. Felt every word. Us aussies need a chat group or something for resources to share. Without getting the vendor banned by lurkers here stalking and targeting links shared. Happened to often in the past. Something will come up. Be patient and be meticulous with the information and plan of exit. Big hugs, many of us are in the same realisation esp living in Australia although most of the world is in shit. You will find a resource. Be patient and hold steady.

Im sorry that youre feeling it too

I agree, an Aussie chat would be great

When you say vendor do you mean a way to buy SN?

 

[clarity]

I'm from Australia. It's sad to see other Aussies on here, although somewhat comforting for me to know that I am not alone.

I had to move locations because of the rental crisis. I'm not currently working and can barely afford to rent in Sydney.

 

[testtraveller]

From Brisbane here. I'm glad but also sad at the same time to see other Aussies on here. Times are definitely tough, I understand where you're coming from. Cost of living is becoming ridiculous and all these empty promises from government. The struggle to find methods which are actually peaceful and accessible is real too. I recently posted on here about finding an SN vendor who ships here but is international. Very difficult to find SN vendors from here if that is a method you are also interested in...

I find it so depressing that the government goes all these lengths to restrict all these methods from us and force suicidal people, lots with unbearable pain and no other choice with little to no treatment options, to go through more violent means which have higher likelihoods of permanent injury if you survive or of traumatising someone else. It's messed up and I'm sorry you are feeling this way too.