I maxed out my credit cards and might have to file for bankruptcy. I depended on them because I was unable to work. Now that I am really thinking about it, why do I want to work and have all the "great things" this world has to offer. Burn myself out at a job that I hate so that I can hopefully vacation once or twice a year. Then have a beautiful family which is most likely to end in divorce, child support, and alimony payments. Forget it. All I wanted was simple existence. I can't even have that now. Thanks God. Not to offend the religious, but a lot worse has happened to me than a lot of other people and I don't think a creator would allow any of his creations to suffer so much as humans do.