I make you want to lock me up? That's a very odd thing to say! Yes, I am planning on taking that ride! If you are determined to do so, I hope you find what you're looking for.
Peace!
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I make you want to lock me up? That's a very odd thing to say! Yes, I am planning on taking that ride! If you are determined to do so, I hope you find what you're looking for.
Peace!
Ougizh
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- Apr 9, 2020
- 53
Yes I'm crazy so I can't be a normal person, I always died from a rayo? How say that in English? A ray?
Yeah of course I get that. I just got a feeling from that thread that he was well known and thus likely to be sincere. But you're absolutely right, there's no definitive evidence..
There are threads from people with <50 posts just saying that they will do it and maybe what method and then they never reply and the thread dies with 10 replies or so wishing the OP the best. Those are the people who actually CTB. You can't see the people who do it, because they won't camp on the forum to reply.
Look at the amount of postings that people made that replied to you in this thread and you see it.
If someone is around here for a year and has a few hundred postings, it's very unlikely that he will actually do it, no matter how much he claims that he will.
Look at the amount of postings that people made that replied to you in this thread and you see it.
If someone is around here for a year and has a few hundred postings, it's very unlikely that he will actually do it, no matter how much he claims that he will.
Ougizh
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- Apr 9, 2020
- 53
18 I just some not have my mind right, I'm no eat too much and I been dealing with a lost of my crush I'm just fuck but I feeling hype ans the same time deeply sad I don't know what happen to me and maybe I sound stupid and with low iq(for sure I got low) for my way of express but I'm no speak English I'm just speak from I learn from my sources
GoodPersonEffed
Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
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Ougizh
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- Apr 9, 2020
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because nobody here is obliged to kill, or has changed his mind, he will know. I also wonder about it
wanderinglost
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- Mar 22, 2020
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it is a massive thing to do, whoever said suicide is cowardly is talking bs ,the human will to survive is amazing and my god are you all strong to be here .
If you are 99 percent sure, I would not do it. I want to be 110 percent sure before I go because I will not fail when it is right and I dont mean yeah i have had a total bastard of a day so I am off,
For me personally it would be ideally after a decent sleep and before I have taken any meds I am on...rested and clear mind then I know it is time. Another cliche but things do always feel different after sleep, even the physical rest of body and mind can make a new day look a little differently.
Then you start winding those springs and cogs up again in your head and often it is yet another bastard of a day.
Someone I know, a friend they are a shopaholic especially after he is stoned lol he has more shoes than any woman I know, how many high quality brown leather brogues do you need? He said to me one day if I get to this stage in my life , achieve that then I will be happy as Larry (who the fuck is Larry anyway because I need to get his Doctors number , he is on some good shit)
So he used to say this kinda thing often like a throwaway comment , I said I know what you do have 3 things you have that 75 percent of the world do not and those are a roof over your head, a flushing toilet and electric fridge. All things you and I use and take for granted ...anyway he is a flat earther, stoner looney but he makes me laugh and humour gets me through some tough times. And I can laugh at the silliest thing then forget what it was but lol some more
Until I am 110 percent though, I might hang around a little longer.
sorry for the major waffle
Just because someone is here for a year or more means absolutely nothing as to whether or not they will eventually ctb. People wait to ctb for all kinds of reasons. Suicide the hardest decision someone can make and many people are in no rush. People like myself are in limbo..I don't want to live but I have a lot to think about in my decision to ctb. Having this community of like minded non judgemental people to talk to in the mean time is helpful. Also some people recover and just stay to give kindness and support to others and thats great.
GoodPersonEffed
Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
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Between your CO2 comments on the ReBreather thread and now here, you're sure racking up the angry reacts.
The OP of this thread is trolling all over the forum, including on a goodbye thread ffs.
Maybe there's a magical troll forum somewhere out there for the two of you to hold hands and skip off to together so you crap on other people to your hearts' content. Sheesh.
Ougizh
Member
- Apr 9, 2020
- 53
Don't be like that, I'm no troll. First of all I'm on pills. 2. I'm hardly can speak English so I say shit without nonsense. Aight?
GoodPersonEffed
Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
- Jan 11, 2020
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Don't be like what? Honest and direct? I'm not about to change for you when it's served me well for years.
Your behavior is not aight. You're not dumb, just insensitive and happy to treat others like crap.
Say hello to my ignore button.
Ougizh
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- Apr 9, 2020
- 53
I'm not treating nobody bad I'm just can speak well English men, I'm just trying to start some conversation with somebody, I'm from Colombia we dont have acces to much study barely can't speak what I pay atenttion on class, class just close for coronaviruses
wanderinglost
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- Mar 22, 2020
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Ougizh
Member
- Apr 9, 2020
- 53
Not you not, I just wondering this question cuz I have the same feeling of go but after just no knowing nothing is like I just was wondering if some people here really left us. Thanks for answering
Ougizh
Member
- Apr 9, 2020
- 53
You look beautiful don't take you life plz, I can't do really nothing but are you feeling suicidal too?
Give the kid @Ougizh a chance to figure this out, he might have bi-polar or something causing him to be erratic.
Of course many people are gone that used to be on this site. And it's terrible. No one wants to be dead. Nobody. Even people that wish they were dead wish they didn't feel that way. I don't understand why (particularly young people) find the idea of suicide to be so casual and flip. It's awful. It's a situation no one want to find themselves in. There are physically ill people here, mentally tortured, even older people who just have failing bodies. There are also a lot of people that seem to be wasting their lives over nonsense about killing themselves when they have every opportunity to turn it around. It's maddening.
Fightingsioux is gone, for example. I talked to him when he was in Switzerland. He was very nice to me as I navigated decisions between Pegasos and other self deliverance methods. He was a man in his 70's that wrestled between life and physical degeneration. Quality of life questions that many people don't have to wrestle with. There are many people backed into corners on this site that will find themselves face to face with a final exit. There are many people with the gift of youth and health that should be using it to LIVE. My two cents.
Fightingsioux is gone, for example. I talked to him when he was in Switzerland. He was very nice to me as I navigated decisions between Pegasos and other self deliverance methods. He was a man in his 70's that wrestled between life and physical degeneration. Quality of life questions that many people don't have to wrestle with. There are many people backed into corners on this site that will find themselves face to face with a final exit. There are many people with the gift of youth and health that should be using it to LIVE. My two cents.
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@Ougizh, please go get yourself checked out by a doctor. I understand you are confused but you are young and it is possible your condition could be treated medically.
Ougizh
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- Apr 9, 2020
- 53
Beautiful... I really want to have a postive exit i cant, before I can get my life together, now is just like try to ignore something real and i cant fix, hope you are well dude
I'm really messed up man, I need money to pay a doctor where i love it's hard get a job, poor and small town from southamerica
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Donk
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im not a young cat but i dont think age has anything to do with it. just because a person is young doesnt mean their reasons for wanting to ctb can be invalidated. ie people who were sexually harrassed when they were a kid. can you blame them for thinking life is cruel and unfair? having said that i do advocate seeking all options available before comitting to ctb. do not jump to the conclusion that there is no hope without reaching out for help.
I know Columbia is very poor, can you go to an emergency room? Surely people there get into danger and are seriously hurt and have to be taken somewhere?
Yes I agree age doesn't be anything to do with it but he seems arratic and confused and people would just prefer to attack him instead of offering solutions.
All I know I say that at that age I may not have been self aware and knowledgeable enough to seek out the resources.
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Ougizh
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- Apr 9, 2020
- 53
Yeah but you need a type of "IPS" what's mean have a secure or something like that, 1 month ago I was forced to the hospital for suspect trying to suicide me, but police when caught me give me a beat up for that, this is a country where you need to be strong and rough or you won't to survive, suicide look for they like weak shit
Is there a church or Red Cross or humanitarian charity you can go to?
Many in Columbia are catholic. I am certainly not religious but perhaps if you go and explain how you feel, someone may help.
Ougizh
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- Apr 9, 2020
- 53
Yeah but they is going to pass information to the police from my house, family, etc. And maybe this is gonna get the things worse, look dude thanks for the answering but if someday I really decide to end my reality I'm going to take time to post something here and say bye to people in the real world I really love, and maybe before of go I going to make some caritative shit like give food to a homeless or something than make me feels good. Thanks
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
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Some but most just want attention. They might enjoy having that power over people. They may want others to suffer along with them
Ougizh
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- Apr 9, 2020
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I feel bad they cause I feel the same as they cause I feel alone in pain is just saw how my family not give a fuck about me, but i try to saw that in the good way they no gonna missed me up to much when I gone for life.
You have access to this site so you must also have access to a telephone. Call your local Red Cross or charity. You don't have to identify yourself or your number.
This one is specifically for Columbia:
Find a Therapist Near You | Local Psychologists & Counsellors | TherapyRoute
www.therapyroute.com
Despite what some may think, I am not an prolifer. I contemplate everyday a reason to stay here. I don't care what people think. I will not however stand by and watch a kid out of control think he has no options.
Then question the people who have been on here for years.
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