Any advice?

[bellaisdonewithlife]

I really don't want to do this anymore. I don't see the point of spending the rest of my life alone or dating someone asexual. It's great if some people in my situation find a way to accept it, but I can't accept it and don't want this life. Being good looking with these kinds of problems makes it even more frustrating.

Aside from this, I'd have to live the rest of my life with anhedonia and an incurable autoimmune-like illness that causes food reactions, insomnia, fatigue, and weight gain. I was hoping to exit with someone in my area, but I haven't been able to find anyone near my age or older.

Has anyone met any suicidal people in person or have you only met them on this forum? I'm hoping to carbon monoxide. I've been trying to find someone to exit with in recent months or someone to pay to help me exit but I haven't been able to find anyone. I might have to attempt and go out alone then.

 

[SASU-KE]

I don't see the point of spending the rest of my life alone or dating someone asexual.

Why would you not want to date someone asexual if you don't mind me asking?


Your other points are valid.I'm sorry it's been a struggle.

I've not met any suicidal people in my day to day life.However, I was recently taken aback by my childhood friend saying he wants to die as soon as possible. He's going through enormous difficulty with his job and is at risk of losing it. He doesn't have any fall back, so he's really afraid for the future.He's really loved life till now and it came out of the blue.

So in closing, I would say we're all going to be suicidal if circumstances push us enough.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I've never met another suicidal person in the flesh. I think there was a suicidal hanging in a stairwell when I was in college but that might have just been a rumor. Seems like there wouldn't be enough time alone. Maybe at night.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

i only recently met another suicidal person (who said it out loud).
she was a, umm... night life worker

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

Why would you not want to date someone asexual if you don't mind me asking?


Your other points are valid.I'm sorry it's been a struggle.

I've not met any suicidal people in my day to day life.However, I was recently taken aback by my childhood friend saying he wants to die as soon as possible. He's going through enormous difficulty with his job and is at risk of losing it. He doesn't have any fall back, so he's really afraid for the future.He's really loved life till now and it came out of the blue.

So in closing, I would say we're all going to be suicidal if circumstances push us enough.

I mean maybe I would but it's next to impossible. I can't find a single person in my area or near me who would date me. If I could meet a cool person maybe it would change things somewhat, but at the same time I'm numb so it's hard to say. I also have like no dopamine so it's hard for me to do various basic tasks on a lot of days.

It's interesting how people have such different limits. I mean I have no future in terms of work either and I fought my ass off to live through all this for years. I can't imagine that most people would live through all this. I'm just going through the motions because I'm totally numb and I'm getting to the point of not being able to take it anymore.

A huge part of it is not being able to have a normal sexual relationship. I just don't see the point of life without one on top of my other problems. I simply don't want an asexual relationship. I want the kind everyone else gets to have. If only there was someone in my area who could help me leave this Earth.

 

[SASU-KE]

I mean maybe I would but it's next to impossible. I can't find a single person in my area or near me who would date me. If I could meet a cool person maybe it would change things somewhat, but at the same time I'm numb so it's hard to say. I also have like no dopamine so it's hard for me to do various basic tasks on a lot of days.

It's interesting how people have such different limits. I mean I have no future in terms of work either and I fought my ass off to live through all this for years. I can't imagine that most people would live through all this. I'm just going through the motions because I'm totally numb and I'm getting to the point of not being able to take it anymore.

A huge part of it is not being able to have a normal sexual relationship. I just don't see the point of life without one on top of my other problems. I simply don't want an asexual relationship. I want the kind everyone else gets to have. If only there was someone in my area who could help me leave this Earth.

Wow. You have a lot of similarities with a close friend of mine who is also an ace.
In fact, it's shockingly similar. They also regret not being able to have a normal relationship.


But I would tell them that they could find someone similar since they didn't want sex.
But they don't want that.You also seem to have the same views.
On top of that, the other things are also similar. Utterly no joy and a lack of dopamine.

I too have anhedonia and lack interest in everything.I still keep going though. One day when I have hit my limit I'll be posting in the partners thread as well to look for someone to catch the bus with.

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

Wow. You have a lot of similarities with a close friend of mine who is also an ace.
In fact, it's shockingly similar. They also regret not being able to have a normal relationship.


But I would tell them that they could find someone similar since they didn't want sex.
But they don't want that.You also seem to have the same views.
On top of that, the other things are also similar. Utterly no joy and a lack of dopamine.

I too have anhedonia and lack interest in everything.I still keep going though. One day when I have hit my limit I'll be posting in the partners thread as well to look for someone to catch the bus with.

That's interesting that your friend's symptoms are similar to mine. Thank you for sharing that. I mean, I'd be open to finding someone asexual, it's just really hard and I just don't think it would change much for me. It's more of like I'm pissed that I can't have a normal relationship like other people. Dang, life is brutal man. I hope to find someone that can help me exit soon.

 

[SASU-KE]

That's interesting that your friend's symptoms are similar to mine. Thank you for sharing that. I mean, I'd be open to finding someone asexual, it's just really hard and I just don't think it would change much for me. It's more of like I'm pissed that I can't have a normal relationship like other people. Dang, life is brutal man. I hope to find someone that can help me exit soon.

To be honest, I thought yours was an alternate account of that same person

Even they struggle with working a job and finding motivation. I wonder if the same pathways that create asexuality also cut off those other things as well..Like the inability to feel happiness and feeling motivated.


Finding a partner might be very difficult. I've seen people post on that thread for years without finding someone.In some cases, though, people have also found someone reasonably quickly. Luck plays a part too,I hope you find someone