Another year of being untouched and unloved

[SMG08ABUSER]

It's really just not worth it anymore. Absolutely nobody has ever wanted me. Every attempt at putting myself out there always ends in rejection and ridicule and personal attacks at worst. I can't really blame them to be honest. Who would want someone so hideous, so fat, so socially incompetent? I don't blame women for not wanting me at all. It's my fault 100%. Maybe if I was born as a completely different person I'd have a chance at love :(


I am a failure at all aspects of life. There's no reason for me to stay alive past the age of 30. Currently 25 years old right now. A whole 25 years of being unloved, untouched, and unkissed. Just waiting until my car is paid off when I'm 28. Car note is under my dad's name and I really don't want to leave him with more debt and ruined credit before I'm gone.

At least I know my suffering will be over soon. Only 3 more years of this life. I'm honestly excited to finally experience peace :)

I just really wish I wasn't me. Hopefully I'll be born handsome in the next life

 

[StupidCat]

How did your last rejection go?

 

[Hollowman]

It takes a lot more than being handsome. I've been called that a lot and get rejected. Personality matters more.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I have kids your age. It breaks my heart to read how you feel inside. If I knew my kid was staying alive just to pay off the car... so bittersweet. You have a heart of gold. But I really relate to your feelings. The constant rejection is a nightmare.

 

[DistinctiveUsername]

How about trying escort or similar service? It is possible that you can visit some massage place and get your touches and kisses in your country legally. DM me if you want to talk about it with someone and get courage for your first time.

 

[SMG08ABUSER]

How about trying escort or similar service? It is possible that you can visit some massage place and get your touches and kisses in your country legally. DM me if you want to talk about it with someone and get courage for your first time.

Coincidentally, I tried to do this last month. I got extremely nervous, and I wasn't even able to find her at the address she told me to go to. The address she sent me was an apartment complex in the middle of downtown near a huge baseball stadium in my city, and it was very overcrowded that night because there was an MLB game going on. The endless crowds of people made me extremely nervous, and I had a panic attack. I was sitting on the bricks of a nearby garden close to the entrance of the apartment's leasing office, quietly and anxiously waiting for someone who never arrived. I was all alone. There was an endless sea of people around me, friends, families, couples, generally large gatherings of other people, but I never felt more alone in this experience.

She was apparently waiting for me somewhere around the apartment complex and got super frustrated when she couldn't find me, even after I sent her a literal picture and video of my location. It made me feel even worse about myself. I couldn't even pay for connection and intimacy. I'm now $450 poorer, erasing whatever miniscule dignity I had left. This just goes to show the inevitability of me ending up alone, single, untouched, and unloved forever, even when I try to pay for it.

It takes a lot more than being handsome. I've been called that a lot and get rejected. Personality matters more.

Damn, I literally have neither the looks nor the personality, an unfortunate double whammy. Guess I really am just meant to be alone.

 

[brokeandbroken]

It's really just not worth it anymore. Absolutely nobody has ever wanted me. Every attempt at putting myself out there always ends in rejection and ridicule and personal attacks at worst. I can't really blame them to be honest. Who would want someone so hideous, so fat, so socially incompetent? I don't blame women for not wanting me at all. It's my fault 100%. Maybe if I was born as a completely different person I'd have a chance at love :(


I am a failure at all aspects of life. There's no reason for me to stay alive past the age of 30. Currently 25 years old right now. A whole 25 years of being unloved, untouched, and unkissed. Just waiting until my car is paid off when I'm 28. Car note is under my dad's name and I really don't want to leave him with more debt and ruined credit before I'm gone.

At least I know my suffering will be over soon. Only 3 more years of this life. I'm honestly excited to finally experience peace :)

I just really wish I wasn't me. Hopefully I'll be born handsome in the next life

I dont normally comment on these because my problems are more all encompassing and complicated than this. But honestly im just looking to cross the hurdle of when people ask for an emergency contact having someone's name to give.

 

[anonymouswebuser]

It's really just not worth it anymore. Absolutely nobody has ever wanted me. Every attempt at putting myself out there always ends in rejection and ridicule and personal attacks at worst. I can't really blame them to be honest. Who would want someone so hideous, so fat, so socially incompetent? I don't blame women for not wanting me at all. It's my fault 100%. Maybe if I was born as a completely different person I'd have a chance at love :(


I am a failure at all aspects of life. There's no reason for me to stay alive past the age of 30. Currently 25 years old right now. A whole 25 years of being unloved, untouched, and unkissed. Just waiting until my car is paid off when I'm 28. Car note is under my dad's name and I really don't want to leave him with more debt and ruined credit before I'm gone.

At least I know my suffering will be over soon. Only 3 more years of this life. I'm honestly excited to finally experience peace :)

I just really wish I wasn't me. Hopefully I'll be born handsome in the next life

Oh my God, I'm so sorry <\33