Another Train death where i live. How do they get the balls.

[GreenTree]

Railway station in Bath cordoned off after person hit by train on approach

The mainline between Bath Spa and Bristol Temple Meads is blocked

www.wiltshire999s.co.uk

 

[jodes2]

Jumping in any shape or form is terrifying. But to face a train, yikes. I don't know how people do it. People do some seriously determined shit

 

[GoldenTicket420]

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Railway station in Bath cordoned off after person hit by train on approach

The mainline between Bath Spa and Bristol Temple Meads is blocked

www.wiltshire999s.co.uk

This is what scares the shit out of me and make some want to leave no and not later. Not being able to go at my own speed or with patience and piece of mind. I'm afraid that your mind must be in a panic or fear of living, paranoid maybe, to do it this way. No more time just panic and death!

 

[Anon1337]

I think people who ctb impulsively are more likely to choose this method. It's efficient but you're right, it does take courage.

 

[Ligottian]

I think people who ctb impulsively are more likely to choose this method. It's efficient but you're right, it does take courage.

I think all suicides take great courage.

 

[Altvtysp]

Jumping in any shape or form is terrifying. But to face a train, yikes. I don't know how people do it. People do some seriously determined shit

I wish I had enough courage to throw myself off a cliff or in front of a train and I feel like I'm not that suicidal if I'm not willing to take the most lethal action that I can access. I'm planning on hanging myself in a way that will succeed as much as possible at least my last moments won't be terrifying from falling or waiting to be hit and also causing a gross mess that has to be picked up. Props to these people for taking initiative!

 

[jodes2]

I wish I had enough courage to throw myself off a cliff or in front of a train and I feel like I'm not that suicidal if I'm not willing to take the most lethal action that I can access. I'm planning on hanging myself in a way that will succeed as much as possible at least my last moments won't be terrifying from falling or waiting to be hit and also causing a gross mess that has to be picked up. Props to these people for taking initiative!

Isn't hanging really unpleasant? You could be suffocating for a while, and that's just one problem. Many people say it feels like their head was going to explode. I'd jump from a cliff if it wasn't for my fear of surviving at the bottom and being in agony

 

[FuneralCry]

The train sounds like a terrifying method to me, and I would also fear it somehow failing. Maybe they just got so desperate and managed to overcome the instinct to survive. But I envy those who left this world so much. They chose to end all suffering for when the time is right for them and prevented a future being trapped here in this world. Those who die are lucky as of course existing in such a cruel nightmarish world really is the worst thing possible.

 

[IwanttodieASAP]

I really hope I can get the courage to jump off a cliff near me. There have been successful jumps from there before but one was unsuccessful because he landed in a tree and actually ended up walking away. I don't think I could do the train method

 

[ready to go....]

Not far from me! The thought of this method absolutely terrifies me

 

[UnlimitedPain]

It takes so much courage to CTB in general IMO but for the train method that's another whole level of courage.
But the fear of it going wrong is what gets set aside and I guess separates the courage tier levels.
Me I wanna a go but am I a coward cause I want a peaceful way out and sometimes to not do it alone?
These are thoughts I get, just letting them out.
Hope the person has found peace

 

[Jadzia]

A good friend jumped off the Bristol Suspension Bridge many years a go. He had drank a lot of white cider before and he didn't normally drink. I think alcohol can really help with these sorts of methods.

 

[knightxenon]

I would rather die of hunger than using train method...so much can go wrong...losing of limbs and surviving..and also a nightmare for train driver and other people....

 

[makethepainstop]

Railway station in Bath cordoned off after person hit by train on approach

The mainline between Bath Spa and Bristol Temple Meads is blocked

www.wiltshire999s.co.uk

I think people mistake excruciating pain for having balls. Actually, it's pretty simple, with sufficient pain or sufficient stressors, desperation takes hold. And voila, a ballsy suicide!

 

[mboo]

I think all suicides take great courage.

Courage and fear.

 

[Altvtysp]

Isn't hanging really unpleasant? You could be suffocating for a while, and that's just one problem. Many people say it feels like their head was going to explode. I'd jump from a cliff if it wasn't for my fear of surviving at the bottom and being in agony

I have spent a lot of time researching almost every method available and the details into them so I could understand the likelihood of success and the benefits and drawbacks. Of course the likelihood of success is difficult at best to establish. I originally did not consider hanging as I also thought it would be painful and difficult to pull off. After my failed attempt with a ratchet strap I had to decide on a new method and after doing research on methods that I could do within this week decided it was the least painful and less violent/risky/dangerous to others than everything else available.

My experience with the ratchet strap (which is a method that cannot work for anyone) and being moderately choked by it I understood why it couldn't work but also how other methods would. The cartoid arteries require something like 12 pounds of pressure on them to block blood flow to the head but what isn't mentioned that's important is the size of the ligature. If what's being applied to the neck is large or wide it requires a lot of pressure applied than if it's a thinner wire. The ratchet strap is too wide and the mechanism doesn't possibly put enough pressure anyways. So instead of passing out within 30-60 seconds as described by all sources I only blocked the veins. The arteries continued to pump blood into my head which burst the blood vessels in my eyes. I suppose if I wore the strap for a long time it might have worked but only managed up to 10 minutes with most attempts being a couple of minutes.

Why I changed my mind and decided on hanging is because this method will cause me to pass out very quickly how the previous one was supposed to. I got a 5/32" paracord which is thinner than my pinky yet can hold up to 500 lbs. I am going to use a running bowline to make the noose. Have already practiced tying it many times today and believe it's the best one to use. I have another knot to use to tie it securely to a beam in my living room. The beam will hold my entire weight (and so will the rope) but this isn't necessary. I only need up to maybe 20 lbs of force on the noose to stop the blood flow to my head. If I go much above 33 lbs then it will close my esophagus which I don't want because it would be very uncomfortable.

I have been debating on the position of the partial hang and originally was going to place the noose a few inches above where I can stand on my knees but might go with placing it a few inches above a sitting position. I'm still deciding on this part I might even do it while semi laying down. I want to make sure there is enough pressure on my neck to pass out quickly but not to choke me too bad. Fortunately no matter how painful or uncomfortable it is I will be passing out very quickly. Another thing I'm considering is an outside location but there are numerous reasons why I'll probably not do this. I'm also going to put t-shirt type material around my neck to help prevent skin being pulled into the ligature.

I plan on doing this during the day tomorrow likely early afternoon. I'm going to record a video to send to my family which I will delay send for an hour after I do it. In that message I will warn them to send the sheriff to the house or if I do it outside where I can be located since it's unlikely I would be found that day if I did it there. If I do it at home I might break off a key in the deadbolt to delay entry into the house but then my family would have to replace the lock and the authorities would probably break in even though it would be way too late. I think I'll barracade the door from behind instead.

Even though I'm not excited about having to CTB with this method I do believe I'll pass out within seconds and should be dead by 4-5 minutes at most. I read multiple scientific papers about hanging that included partial and full that detailed video evidence breaking down the times to pass out and stopping breathing. I'm probably going to do a near full hanging as I'm afraid of not having enough weight on the noose and would rather choke than the possibility of somehow not passing out. Also don't want to have SI kick in and back out so a position that makes it more difficult to do would be better.

I don't know how I could possibly confirm with you guys that I CTB but if there is a way for me to I'd be more than happy.

Other methods I considered before deciding on hanging were:

Carbon- I briefly considered getting a charcoal BBQ and driving my car to a remote location and lighting it in my back seat but it seems the risk of failure is fairly high and I want my family to be able to use my car. If it got too uncomfortable while waiting for the CO2 to build up I could hop out so I would have another failed attempt and a severely damaged vehicle.

Detergent- I considered this more strongly as I believe it would be more likely to succeed than Carbon but being unsure the sulfur and acid compounds to mix together could result in a botched attempt and that I'd have to breathe in this horrible substance even if I did pass out quickly sounds way worse than hanging. Also severely damages my vehicle.

Height- I don't have anywhere within an hour or two that has a clear drop that's over 150 foot so I'd have to drive for hours to get to a good spot. Falling to me would be more terrifying than being chocked.

Inert gas- The tanks are hundreds of dollars and the exit bag has to be created which has lots of points of failure. If I lived alone I would have liked to have tried this method as it's pain and terror free

Substances- I wouldn't try any substances that weren't recommended in one of the suicide books but basically if I could get one of the recommended substances then I would probably go this route. Phenobarbital overdose sounds really nice. SN sounds a bit more questionable sure it might not be as uncomfortable as being strangled but consciousness during the hanging only lasts maybe 12 seconds but with SN you're in it for at least 30 minutes or more trying not to puke and stuff. If I could get my hands on a strong opioid like fentanyl that would be my preferred way to CTB.

Other- There are other methods like electrocution but that sounds worse and way more risky. I'm probably forgetting other methods but I've already typed way too long. Methods like using a gun isn't an option because I can't buy one but if I could I'm not sure if I go that route. It's bad enough how the body looks with a hanging but using a gun leaves a really awful scene.

I have put a lot of thought into which one to do and how to execute it. I really do believe hanging is my best option with the material I have access to and wanting to complete it this week. I'd say if you don't hear from me by tomorrow night that I successfully CTB but who knows it's possible I could end up at a hospital in some way if I'm not dead. Of course I really hope that I'm successful but if for some reason I fail and I'm able to post on here I will.

 

[dead lightbulb]

I have spent a lot of time researching almost every method available and the details into them so I could understand the likelihood of success and the benefits and drawbacks. Of course the likelihood of success is difficult at best to establish. I originally did not consider hanging as I also thought it would be painful and difficult to pull off. After my failed attempt with a ratchet strap I had to decide on a new method and after doing research on methods that I could do within this week decided it was the least painful and less violent/risky/dangerous to others than everything else available.

My experience with the ratchet strap (which is a method that cannot work for anyone) and being moderately choked by it I understood why it couldn't work but also how other methods would. The cartoid arteries require something like 12 pounds of pressure on them to block blood flow to the head but what isn't mentioned that's important is the size of the ligature. If what's being applied to the neck is large or wide it requires a lot of pressure applied than if it's a thinner wire. The ratchet strap is too wide and the mechanism doesn't possibly put enough pressure anyways. So instead of passing out within 30-60 seconds as described by all sources I only blocked the veins. The arteries continued to pump blood into my head which burst the blood vessels in my eyes. I suppose if I wore the strap for a long time it might have worked but only managed up to 10 minutes with most attempts being a couple of minutes.

Why I changed my mind and decided on hanging is because this method will cause me to pass out very quickly how the previous one was supposed to. I got a 5/32" paracord which is thinner than my pinky yet can hold up to 500 lbs. I am going to use a running bowline to make the noose. Have already practiced tying it many times today and believe it's the best one to use. I have another knot to use to tie it securely to a beam in my living room. The beam will hold my entire weight (and so will the rope) but this isn't necessary. I only need up to maybe 20 lbs of force on the noose to stop the blood flow to my head. If I go much above 33 lbs then it will close my esophagus which I don't want because it would be very uncomfortable.

I have been debating on the position of the partial hang and originally was going to place the noose a few inches above where I can stand on my knees but might go with placing it a few inches above a sitting position. I'm still deciding on this part I might even do it while semi laying down. I want to make sure there is enough pressure on my neck to pass out quickly but not to choke me too bad. Fortunately no matter how painful or uncomfortable it is I will be passing out very quickly. Another thing I'm considering is an outside location but there are numerous reasons why I'll probably not do this. I'm also going to put t-shirt type material around my neck to help prevent skin being pulled into the ligature.

I plan on doing this during the day tomorrow likely early afternoon. I'm going to record a video to send to my family which I will delay send for an hour after I do it. In that message I will warn them to send the sheriff to the house or if I do it outside where I can be located since it's unlikely I would be found that day if I did it there. If I do it at home I might break off a key in the deadbolt to delay entry into the house but then my family would have to replace the lock and the authorities would probably break in even though it would be way too late. I think I'll barracade the door from behind instead.

Even though I'm not excited about having to CTB with this method I do believe I'll pass out within seconds and should be dead by 4-5 minutes at most. I read multiple scientific papers about hanging that included partial and full that detailed video evidence breaking down the times to pass out and stopping breathing. I'm probably going to do a near full hanging as I'm afraid of not having enough weight on the noose and would rather choke than the possibility of somehow not passing out. Also don't want to have SI kick in and back out so a position that makes it more difficult to do would be better.

I don't know how I could possibly confirm with you guys that I CTB but if there is a way for me to I'd be more than happy.

Other methods I considered before deciding on hanging were:

Carbon- I briefly considered getting a charcoal BBQ and driving my car to a remote location and lighting it in my back seat but it seems the risk of failure is fairly high and I want my family to be able to use my car. If it got too uncomfortable while waiting for the CO2 to build up I could hop out so I would have another failed attempt and a severely damaged vehicle.

Detergent- I considered this more strongly as I believe it would be more likely to succeed than Carbon but being unsure the sulfur and acid compounds to mix together could result in a botched attempt and that I'd have to breathe in this horrible substance even if I did pass out quickly sounds way worse than hanging. Also severely damages my vehicle.

Height- I don't have anywhere within an hour or two that has a clear drop that's over 150 foot so I'd have to drive for hours to get to a good spot. Falling to me would be more terrifying than being chocked.

Inert gas- The tanks are hundreds of dollars and the exit bag has to be created which has lots of points of failure. If I lived alone I would have liked to have tried this method as it's pain and terror free

Substances- I wouldn't try any substances that weren't recommended in one of the suicide books but basically if I could get one of the recommended substances then I would probably go this route. Phenobarbital overdose sounds really nice. SN sounds a bit more questionable sure it might not be as uncomfortable as being strangled but consciousness during the hanging only lasts maybe 12 seconds but with SN you're in it for at least 30 minutes or more trying not to puke and stuff. If I could get my hands on a strong opioid like fentanyl that would be my preferred way to CTB.

Other- There are other methods like electrocution but that sounds worse and way more risky. I'm probably forgetting other methods but I've already typed way too long. Methods like using a gun isn't an option because I can't buy one but if I could I'm not sure if I go that route. It's bad enough how the body looks with a hanging but using a gun leaves a really awful scene.

I have put a lot of thought into which one to do and how to execute it. I really do believe hanging is my best option with the material I have access to and wanting to complete it this week. I'd say if you don't hear from me by tomorrow night that I successfully CTB but who knows it's possible I could end up at a hospital in some way if I'm not dead. Of course I really hope that I'm successful but if for some reason I fail and I'm able to post on here I will.

I can relate to hanging being the most accessible option. Wish nitrogen was easy to access because it sounds like the best way to go out. Or assisted suicide. But partial suspension is my only option, and it's success rate is high. I see you posted November 5th, I hope if you've passed you went peacefully Lots of love from another suicidal soul

 

[theboy]

in the city where I am there are recurrent ctb in subways
I don't know how they do it!

 

[gimzero]

Were i live half of ctb are from trains so they have it.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

"Desperate Times Call for Desperate Measures".

 

[BillyBob]

It maybe worth you looking into the people who jumped from the twin towers to escape the pain from the burning fires.
They knew they were going to die by either fire or hitting the ground, it was what was going to cause the less pain.

There have been a few studies done on it.

 

[Silent.Tears]

Ikr, I feel like a coward especially when I'm suffering this much and nobody living with me understands

 

[m00nlyte]

Ikr, I feel like a coward especially when I'm suffering this much and nobody living with me understands

Literally. Wonder how many people on here have major or clinical depression or just to much trauma or stress, like the world's fucked the health systems are fucked if not making people worse in my country, I'm either going for trains, I pussyed out of hanging or trying to find a gun I can steal which is near impossible in nz, this years been a mad top off. So put off and I'm only 27, main trauma round 18. But yea clinical depression sucks if anyone wants to contact me and talk if they have it swear it's barely common, and I'm not allowed on antidepressants now.

 

[purplehearted]

impulse. u can talk yourself into almost anything when ur hurting past your limit. i have bipolar disorder and convince myself to do the most fucked up shit while in an episode. i imagine it feels similar to that

 

[zeenatax]

Jumping in front of the train take a lot of courage.

 

[Himalayan]

I think they got tired of waiting for the "perfect method"

 

[Utada]

After that, I doubt that they have the balls anymore.

badum tss

 

[Asiam]

I can relate to hanging being the most accessible option. Wish nitrogen was easy to access because it sounds like the best way to go out. Or assisted suicide. But partial suspension is my only option, and it's success rate is high. I see you posted November 5th, I hope if you've passed you went peacefully Lots of love from another suicidal soul

How is nitrogen difficult to access? I'm planning on using this method.. I have to take a taxi or an uber to some place to buy and fill the tank, then taxi or uber back. I'm terrified. Is that what you mean by difficult to obtain, or is it banned in some places?

 

[👁️👃👁️]

People will do anything if they're desperate enough. I couldn't shoot myself or jump in front of a train unless I was drunk.