Another ramble

[darkenmydoorstep]

When we met (online), he asked me if I would end it with him, suggested maybe that was why we'd connected. I said no because at the time I was full of hope for all the love I felt for him and thought he felt for me. All I wanted us to be.

But now, almost 4 years on, I still love him madly but have no such hope. And so I asked him the same question on NYE because there's nothing left I take joy from.

And….he just ignored me. Says it all really, doesn't it?

Maybe he doesn't believe me, no longer wants to end it himself, I don't know.

People! Unreliable when it comes to both life and death. So many people say these things on a whim and don't mean them, about both love and death.

I don't.

 

[Mitsumi]

yes a lot of people say things on a whim with total disregard for others peoples' feelings. It sucks you had to go through that.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Maybe he thinks i feel stupid, want to take it back. I've no ego, I don't care.

 

[Mitsumi]

Maybe he thinks i feel stupid, want to take it back. I've no ego, I don't care.

But you should care, you might hurt youself more. I hope you don't take this the wrong way