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thetruetato

thetruetato

Suicidal Femboy :3
Jan 1, 2024
165
I feel like I'm getting closer to succeeding. Earlier today I attempted partial and my vision started flashing black and white (there were a few splotches of color as well) for what felt like 15-20 seconds then I saw what looked like an eye (that was somehow yellow and white at the same time). Unfortunately even though I stayed in the exact same position and I don't think I was moving too much it wasn't enough to make me pass out.
 
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WirelessConnections

WirelessConnections

Member
Aug 8, 2026
31
How has the pain been for you during your attempts? I've settled on partial hanging as my method of choice since I cant get SN where I'm at.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,216
I feel like I'm getting closer to succeeding. Earlier today I attempted partial and my vision started flashing black and white (there were a few splotches of color as well) for what felt like 15-20 seconds then I saw what looked like an eye (that was somehow yellow and white at the same time). Unfortunately even though I stayed in the exact same position and I don't think I was moving too much it wasn't enough to make me pass out.
I witnessed the same when i attempted partial in November 2024
 
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thetruetato

Suicidal Femboy :3
Jan 1, 2024
165
How has the pain been for you during your attempts? I've settled on partial hanging as my method of choice since I cant get SN where I'm at.
Honestly there isn't really much pain. The biggest annoyance from my experience is the urge to swallow (if I try to my Adam's apple gets caught on the rope and it either loosens or I start actually choking). The feeling of your balance being weird is also kind of uncomfortable and makes it somewhat hard to completely let your upper body hang from the rope.
 
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tender

tender

Have a deathwish
Apr 24, 2026
73
I don't know if im lucky but i tried yesterday and i was about to pass out after 15 to 30 second, i just stop because i was affraid. What kind of knot are you using ?
 
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tender

tender

Have a deathwish
Apr 24, 2026
73
I tried again and could not pass out. Maybe it Will have to be full suspension, but im sur there Will be another problem. Why killing ourself is so hard. That sucks
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,216
I tried again and could not pass out. Maybe it Will have to be full suspension, but im sur there Will be another problem. Why killing ourself is so hard. That sucks
Seriously, i wonder that too.. why is ctb be so hard. If at all N was available, we would all have achieved peace by now..
I tried partial continuously for a week and didn't get any result.. Not even close.. in tried a lot of variations that i could . Possibly my carotids are deeper inside so it's not easy to suppress them
 
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Cepheuss

Cepheuss

Experienced
Apr 17, 2023
295
Thats as far as ive gotten w partial too, jsut gotta keep trying i guess
 

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